Sunday, February 28, 2010

Saturday, February 27, 2010

願安好

不太知道那些地方的方位,願安好。

每次看到這樣的新聞,都會跟自己說,不好製造混亂,不好說是非。什麼也不做就不做負面的事情。

願身邊一些有情緒問題的朋友,開闊自己。不去計算,是一個開始。好好善用自己,做能力能做的。

一店兩食

昨天的午晚,去的都是同一食店,只地點不同。想想,兩餐共吃了三碟蟹柳卷(還吃了蟹腳),嘻!

今天午餐也是吃了蟹柳卷。

本叫了一個壽司set(懶得選),可店員告訴散叫有半價或特價。

Three-leg Dog

老師說要flex the ankle。

活動日誌

同學們都有著一些改變,變得融合了。老師說我們站了一個圓。
還有兩堂。
拉和推,玩得高興。腿真的有力。
想起舞臺的一幕,原來他們的打鬥,就是拉和推。
閉眼沒有再不自覺的開眼。
老師時常鼓勵我們做一些新的,不好憑記憶來做。
一個年輕人,身體的移動像一個老人。要反思。

To Make a Choice

Yoga taught me that I have responsibility to envision and create my future, no matter what happened in the past. The past is gone, it's an illusion. What patterns are you creating now through your daily diet of thinking? What kind of thoughts are you cultivating in the soil of your mind?

A good healthy thought is like a good guest in your home. You want guests to have a good time and come back. But you want to entertain the right guests. If people come over and trash your house, break dishes, and insult you and your family, you're not going to invite them back. What are the thoughts you regularly entertain? We should guard our mind like we guard our things because thoughts are things. We must train ourselves not to invite unhealthy thoughts into our mind to wreak havoc.

Yoga continues to teach me to consciously choose thoughts of blessing, gratitude, generosity, love, tolerance, and abundance.

“Imagination is more important than knowledge.” We must train ourselves to think about what we want. This is the power of meditation. We give our mind the seeds of thought that we want to sow in our reality.

好大聲

突然間,她們很大聲的說著一些閒話。為何要這麼的大聲???!!她們要證明自己的存在嗎??!!相信她們是沒有那東西的一群。

Unknown

什麼也不知道,未嘗不是好事。很多事情,知道了又如何?!!今年會是如何,不知道,可不是壞事。懂得回應,什麼事情都不是壞的。

被他們笑死

某次飯聚,某部門主管問我是否被他們的話弄得笑死。我覺得他們好無聊的啊!與其聽他們說,倒不如自己靜靜吃飯。

懂笑

看回零七年所寫,邊看邊笑。笑是因為,事情的發生,給了我很多的啟示。笑是因為,活得很好。

Friday, February 26, 2010

很美的一幅畫

總算明白:完美、喜悅與祥和,不是來自戰勝他人;也不是來自成果豐碩展現之時,而是來自大家一起分享、相互鼓勵以及共同成長的過程之中。不但如此,還可沿著旅程,欣賞著最純、最真的美。原來,人生,可以不用走得那麼辛苦。

本來就存在身邊的美好,直到現在才看得到,只因為,我願意──

29 Mar 2008

重讀這段文字,還是喜歡。

Standing

"You're pushing down to lift up." Once you start to do this, you'll find yourself more aware of your feet and distributing your weight better in your everyday life.

十八次出差

說一年要出差十八次,傻的嗎??!!地點在中國,雖然有十八個地方,不是每次一個地方。更傻的是,說自己可以成部門主管的接班人。

他說他在做預算,當然不是,是寫wish list。他說跟老闆解釋,可老闆不出聲(他以為他很對而老闆無話可說)。真的無話可說,對著一個傻人。

也不難理解的,他的價值觀就是這樣。什麼的態度,什麼的人生。這話很對。

出聲

一個月了,終於等到高層出聲(老闆下了很多工夫)。又不做又不提供狀況,想點??!!

要我幫忙

又要走,又說要我幫忙寫求職信(他說送出去的求職信沒有回應。一看,說寫得不好。他說不知道怎樣寫,我說代寫沒有問題,可回答問題呢?已經給了他一些問題思考一下。再給他一些意見,開始沒有耐性了,說我怎麼說也可以。當然,請你的人就是說什麼都可以)。沒有準備好嗎?為何要走??!!!他相信了別人而不信我們,還可以說什麼呢??!!

他好堅持他走後沒有聘請新的,誰告訴他的呢??!!跟我說有人知道他要走,可問他是誰卻不告訴。又是他自己去告訴小組裡的人。不明白他的所思所想(又說要低調)。

好了,所有人都會走,不用做回顧。

得益

政府公報的一切,沒有興趣知道(聽同事說有得退稅)。有的沒的,生活已經過得很好。

做得慢

是不做還是慢??!!今早我休假,要做的不要我問。被問還要埋怨??!!真的好想她什麼也不做,每做一件事情都可能是麻煩。

她的事情,還沒有公佈,就連街外人也知道得清楚(是巧合,居然讓我碰到那街外人)。是誰說的?還要問??!! 這種人,不好跟我一起工作。她不會認同我的。

更有趣的是,她主動說自己沒有說過什麼。如果這也不是什麼,就什麼也不是什麼了。

她有點扮懵(開始的時候我相信她記憶力下降),可不知不覺地真的變懵。說別人弄錯了事情,原來是她自己。

她會回答沒有,什麼也說沒有,明明給了她的都說沒有。我不怕麻煩,跟她說事情是怎樣開展出來的。

大大聲說自己not in the loop,可每個星期她都收到報表的。

Good Sleep

"It's not about the specific pose," she says. "It's about awareness and how the breath is directed."

A classmate shared she slept well after the workshop. Teacher told her was due to the movement of the body, eye contact and breathing.

Same Thought

It is always be good with same thought. Now awaiting the reply from the girl.

Yours & Mine

If need to say yours and mine, then pls explain the incorrect figure to the requestor. She didn't tell me why. Waiting her to say the same to others. Really can???!!!

People coming to ask me how, I told them I really don't know how she made it. Please ask her directly, if you all think she is fit to the job.

It is always be the true (reality may not be) if the people found out the truth by themselves.

One month left but it is still too long.

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Pull & Push

Pull is easier than push. Experienced from tonight class.

O,ooo+ :)

More than my guess.

Some don't have it. It is fair. I like it.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

怪不得

那次大大聲說我來煎年糕,可是黏鍋收場,最後由爸爸代勞(也收拾了殘局。我就吃了兩片變一片的糕)。原來原來是鍋還未熱就下油,油未熱就下糕。其實是知道的,就是懶得等。

利利是是 :)

唔得喔

我說要多點時間來完成某事情,某人立即說不得的啊!心裡想,做不完又如何??!!

跟同事分享了這事情,說大不了亂做(她們不懂看)。

秘密

知道了一些還沒有公開的事情(直接告訴說話人我是不被預告的)。也猜到的了,是舊公司的翻版啊!

又是一號餐

嘻!即磨咖啡好喝。

如果有部咖啡機,可能把它當水喝。不能買。

Nostril Breathing

終於,可以好好的跟著做。

後邊

身軀的後邊很累(肩膀啦後大腿啦),是什麼的動作弄成這樣的啊!

正常不正常

發生了一些事情,同事問我是否正常。我說在這裡絕對正常(是非飛啊飛)。也說,我也曾上過一課。一些被我視為朋友間的話,被人看成上司下屬的關係而投訴我。說這話的時候,那人在旁。我就是要讓她聽到。

現在免得過都不跟她說話,看也不看她一眼。

Monday, February 22, 2010

出聲

山洞人問我會否直接去查問,no way。我是小氣的,你們這樣對我,還好意思著我去問。

沒有理所當然,只有努力。

Lizard Pose

老師告訴我們,這是一個很好的伸展動作,我們把小腿放到地面上去的。發覺沒有好好把大腿提升來鍛煉肌力。記住了,下次會好一點的。

source of the picture
8 Nov 07

可能是課堂前動了一個半小時,做這個時感覺很好,大腿儘量地伸展,很喜歡腳往後移動時的空間感。要留意,兩腿中間的位置從側面看要形成一個三角形。手踭還未能觸地的可以兩手成拳頭一個疊一個,把頭放在上面。
27 Jan 08

越來越喜歡做這個。別人可會叫救命,我從來也沒有這樣過,當然在初開始接觸的時候是有點不太舒服的感覺。

18 Feb 2008

Forehead can touch the floor (while left leg is in front).

Finally

A friend from HK came by to visit. She is planning to get married this year. Reason that she planned to get married so late is because not enough of money. She makes about 1.5 million HKD a year. While the boyfriend is double that amount. It is only now that both of them can afford a villa in the norther territory. The villa and 3 parkings is expected to cost 7 millions HKD.

I actually thought that is normal.

Finally I think I can get rid of the emotion, after reading what my friend writing to me.

The start always was an improper thing. To continue is an evil. So getting stopped is not easy. Hope it is finally getting to write a full stop.

How many years though?

Saturday, February 20, 2010

沒有共鳴

朋友跟我說她被老師罵,那當然,明知快要表演,現在還不能好好把舞跳好。做對,對我來說沒有難度。

用心,很難的嗎??!!她說不喜歡那舞,就是啊!為何要不喜歡呢??!!

Twist

There's no one right technique for everyone, but a good general rule is that if you don't twist easily, or if you have pain in your sacroiliac region (where the base of your spine meets your pelvis), you are probably better off turning your hips as you twist. If you twist easily and want to go deeper, a squared pelvis might be your ticket.

時計

跟一個不配戴手錶的人說手錶,多無聊。對什麼也說不出感覺的,談什麼的品味??!!

掛念

昨晚睡不著,想起了他,還好想再遇。已經超過十五年。

點子

朋友
由小到大
小明
開心
分開
想念
忘記
成長

回望

小時候:
拖手,向前跳躍八步。
坐下,小明(左膝右膝雙膝肩膀)。
......
......

離別:
摸索(蒙眼的人)
邊揮手邊往後退 (面向朋友)
轉身離開,停下回望


獨處:
小明(獨自做)
空中寫字 (一個站著,一個坐著)
......
......

似劇場多過舞蹈。想做的是四幕,每幕四個八拍。

談話

很久也沒做的事情了。

居然想不到到哪裡吃,三個人。

又居然,在公司附近也吃一號餐(四天假期裡吃了三次)。

活動日誌

繼續學習怎樣跟盲人相處。
老師說,有些學員被蒙了眼活動得很自在。
同學手太快,管不到,筆碰到地。很淺的顏色,老師也看到。
一些較為收藏的情緒,原來不懂看。
老師為何會重複我的話??!!
同學說刻意不用平常的東西,老師說只須圓圈加一點就可以了。
開眼看蒙眼的,看到很多根本就不對的事情。留意的是腳,很多人都不能站好。
老師強調,要把學的化為自己,他舉例說我們玩小明碰膝已經是。

最不爽的是縮起肩膀,感覺很累。
穿衣多,肩膀也覺得累。

Friday, February 19, 2010

Requirement

Smart and able to communicate. Simple but not easy.

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

resign

He told me he needed to resign.

P.S. above is typed with eye closed.

10 Feb 2010

He handed in the resignation letter finally. I don't know the reason why he left (he didn't know as well) but just know he doesn't want to stay.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

很冷啊

加襪加圍巾(是今年最冷的一天,試過得九度),在喝熱薑茶。

四年級的外甥

只得一科合格。

五底年糕

兩底是我買的,有自家製送給弟弟的,爸爸又買了兩底。當然還有爸爸弄的蘿蔔糕。

Awareness

refining your awareness will enable you to make choices that will create transformation.

跟朋友說awareness,她說是否認知。應該不是。

13 Feb 2010

Self-awareness is the opposite of self-consciousness. When you are self-aware, you are fully within yourself, not outside yourself looking in. You are aware of what you are doing without ego or pride.

找到答案了。

Self-consciousness is when the mind constantly worries and wonders about itself, doubting constantly and being self-absorbed. It is like having the devil and angel both sitting on your shoulders continually arguing over what you should do. When you are self-conscious, you are going to exhaust yourself. You are also going to strain the muscles unnecessarily because you are thinking about the asana and how far you want to stretch. You are not experiencing the asana and stretching according to your capacity.

年初三

今天我們才吃開年飯(昨天弟弟外出了)。爸爸靈活變通,這是一種啟示。

Choice

It also doesn't deny that greed, selfishness, and evil exist as choices. "You are free to choose to align or misalign—yoga is not about being nonjudgmental but about becoming adept at making judgments," Brooks says. The overarching belief is that by aligning ourselves with the divine flow of Grace, we can bring that Grace to others in our relationships, our communities, and the world.

昨晚看雜誌看到這題目,本想今天寫一寫;現在又看到,抄過來就好。

"three A's": attitude, alignment, and action. In Anusara, the yogi uses action (the natural flow of energy in the body) to express his or her attitude (the power of the heart) through the alignment of the body (mindful awareness of how its parts are integrated and connected). The beauty of each asana is expressed not just in the form but in the attitude that moves the student from the inside out.

Many moderns use their bodies so little that they lose the sensitivity of this bodily awareness. They move from bed to car to desk to car to couch to bed, but there is no awareness in their movement, no intelligence. There is no action. Action is movement with intelligence. The world is filled with movement. What the world needs is more conscious movement, more action.

We become sensitive to the interface between skin and flesh. In this way our awareness is diffused throughout the periphery of our body and is able to sense whether in a particular asana our body is in alignment.

If the brain does not observe correctly, then there is confusion in action. The duty of the brain is to receive knowledge from the body and then guide the body to further refine the action. Pause and reflect between each movement. This is progression in attention. Then in the stillness you can be filled with awareness. When you ask yourself, "Has every part of me done its job?" this is self-awareness. The Self has to find out whether this has been done well or not.

There should be constant analysis throughout the action, not just afterwards. This leads to true understanding.

明白不明白,自己最清楚。不知道嗎?停一停想一想吧!

Slow motion allows reflective intelligence. It allows our mind to watch the movement and leads to a skillful action. The art of yoga lies in the acuity of observation.

Monday, February 15, 2010

Backbend

each thoracic vertebra has a pair of ribs attached to it, so when you bend this area back, you have to strongly lift your ribs and stretch the various muscles that are attached to them.

Doing this requires stretching the intercostal muscles that connect the ribs as well as the abdominal muscles that link the ribs to the front of the pelvis.

連續三天去同一個地方午飯,吃的都是相同的東西。昨天吃多了,今天只吃了套餐就停止。如果沒有覺知,會繼續吃吃吃的。

怎樣的一個人

昨天或是前天,一個前提假設湧現出來。可好好相處的一個人,不能負面。

跟潛意識接觸

看雜誌看到,懶洋洋是跟潛意識接觸的方法之一。

Sunday, February 14, 2010

年初一

天陰陰,雨朦朦。

Heart Chakra

When your heart chakra is balanced, you non-judgmentally accept yourself and others. You recognize beauty-in yourself and in everyone-while overlooking weaknesses. It is because of a balanced fourth chakra that you are kind and forgiving, as well as quick to pardon. You are also tolerant, optimistic, resourceful and humorous.

If your heart chakra is off balance or shut down, you might have a tendency to run away from intimacy. You might even intentionally push otherwise loving and lovable people away from you. Without this sense of connection, you become critical, suspicious and defensive. Paranoia becomes a real possibility. If your heart center shuts down completely, you may be inclined toward secrecy, betrayal and addictions.

By closing your heart, you continue to push people away, who in response reject you again, seemingly validating your initial etermination to seal yourself off. Again and again you pull back. Again and again you're pushed away. It's a self-fulfilling prophecy. Your heart becomes more closed and you become more isolated.

A heart chakra imbalanced in the opposite direction-too wide open-causes problems too. You can become too empathic, too easily picking up on the anger or depression of others. You live at the mercy of the moods and feelings of those around you. This can be psychically and physically draining.

Inside

When I first began practicing yoga, it was nearly impossible for me to feel my feet or the muscles in my legs unless they hurt. Instead of sensing the body from the inside, I would "think" about the physical body, simply because so much of my energy and attention was parked in my mental body. Injuries and accidents—and even eating compulsions and other addictions—often come from the tendency to move and use the body without feeling how it responds. If you have difficulty fully entering your physical body, you may feel ungrounded, spacey, and fearful. But once you learn to feel your body, to sense it from within, you will learn how to move inside a posture to protect yourself from injury. You will begin to sense what kind of food you need and how much. Your attention will become grounded. Consciously inhabiting your physical body will bring more presence and ease to your life.

朋友說受了傷不好練習,是可以的,看如何做。為何受傷,要好好想想。

Saturday, February 13, 2010

年夜飯

今年本想換一個地方,可不想等送貨,自己拿比較好。

年貨

一個晚上買的(杏仁餅除外,從星洲過來的)。








還有這些。

女孩

她快樂快樂地離開,臉上如是。她能明白我所說,做事情很快捷。
平常跟別人一點接觸也沒有,可她聽到的閒話卻很多。有趣。

輕柔

要為這題目寫一寫。

11 Feb 2010

輕,這字,一點也不容易寫。要輕,是需要一些工夫的。
看看,輕字裡有一個工字。



資料來源

Feet

The bones of your feet, when positioned correctly, form arches to support your body weight efficiently. One imperative in standing poses is to keep your arches intact; this strengthens them and creates a solid, well-aligned foundation for the rest of the pose. The key to maintaining your arches is to adjust each foot so that it bears weight on three points: the center of the heel (calcaneus), the ball of the foot on the big-toe side (distal end of the first metatarsal), and the ball of the foot on the little-toe side (distal end of the fifth metatarsal). In most poses, about half the weight should fall on the heel and the other half should be divided equally between the ball of the big toe and the ball of the little toe.

站,不好。還有很多改善的地方。提起腳趾可以站穩,可尾趾的部分,不太能掌握。

落差

想看和現實的差落,影響我們很多。朋友說當她看到花紅的銀碼的當刻,她哭了;可她得到的已經比正常的多。她還說想辭職。

外在的,別人怎樣看,打從上次的離開,已經不太在意了。

可以在意什麼??!!態度一樣,現在被排行第一,過往是在標準以下。哪才是對的呢??!!

可以說的是,離開放下,絕對是好事。

朋友說擔心另一個朋友,如果她不想幫助自己,誰可??!!老師說他的一個學生,全身只一隻手指能動。只有願意,什麼也有可能。

很喜歡坐著摺下去。

Friday, February 12, 2010

活動日誌

學習做盲人。不知為何,總是開眼。
被一位專業的盲人帶領員領著走路,很有安全感。她身體的轉動,全感受得到。
被同學說我觸感差和幾乎沒有嗅覺。
老師對著一年輕人說,要他去滿足自己。老師看到他有很多東西在內在,好想好想走出去,可有所限制。這也是我時常說的話。很多事情,不是想得到就可以,什麼也是一個過程。
聽著老師的話,立即想想自己,沒有什麼一定要做的了。只知道可以做的有很多。發生什麼,是一份禮物。
沒有付出的得到,到了手又如何??!!一點意義也沒有。人生,需要的是滿足,往後才能開始品嘗。
這群人,能量很好(開始,有些人不太投入)。跟他們一起好舒服。
老師說,課程可以進一步了。起碼我們接受了身體接觸。舞蹈,人與人的接觸很重要。

Thursday, February 11, 2010

好聲好氣

她突然變得好聲好氣。時常說的,聽與不聽,她的選擇。反正現在不需要緊張結果,喜歡怎樣就怎樣。就算什麼也不做,也不會介意。

Process

the practice of yoga—defined as both a state of being and a codified method of physical postures designed to create radiant health—is never finished; it's a process.

過程,就是生命。

This "in between" is where you need to stay alert as well as relaxed, loose yet organized, open to possibility yet clear about the direction you are heading. When you can do that, you are both practicing and being yoga.

忙啊

不斷跟人溝通,chat chat chat。這是我的強項。

人都顛

老闆著我問某某拿資料,給了我的了,可她的上司要我知會她。要的嗎?她老闆就是我的老闆。

費事理她。沒有事情要跟她合作,要什麼,老闆自會為我安排。或者,再簡單一些,給我進系統自己看。

可能他們想我要很多,什麼也不要。Transfer the job out, so happy.

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

無官一身輕

想到這五個字,好享受。

老闆問我知道不知道他們在attack 我,她說她感覺到可不太肯定,我說百分百肯定。她問我為什麼,不知道。我說他們傻的,要求我幫忙又樣衰衰的對我。幸好,我沒有時間跟他們玩。信因果,做一些有意義的事。老闆說他們都不是十八廿二,為何要這樣。

老闆說我能明白,他們不能。

兒童事情:硬不給我一份文件,可我能聽。

Sunday, February 7, 2010

還好

人懶懶的,也做著一點有意義的事情。
這樣繼續下去,已經很好。
知道可以做更多,可就是懶。
猜不到老師會問我上星期很忙嗎(是可以出現課堂的,只稍遲,可懶,人也有點累,沒去)。

朋友來電

她跟從前的性格是一樣的,我問她為何從來也不是問題。
問題是她現在有點古怪,誰人也看得出來。她說她不知道。
我說,這已是很早已經說過的話。
用古怪這詞,考慮了一刻說不說,很直接的。
可以用老朋友來說我們的交往了,現在還隱隱晦晦,多沒意思。
不能明白她想得過多的事宜,給不到任何的意見。
怎樣看世界,換一個角度,誰人都可以。

表達

小朋友說跟姨媽在換衣裳。那時是我們倆在玩紙公仔換衣裳。

課堂體驗

有點心緒不寧,一開始做呼吸練習,一點也做不到。
坐在凳上做動作,轉換動作的時候沒有製造出聲音。坐是坐得沒問題的了。
老師提醒,不好只做動作,要好好做動作裡的伸展。
老師時常叫人停止,形狀沒有了,做下去一點意義也沒有。
今天做了一些平常不做的動作,意外地足可碰到頭。

第一次

做了首三個動作。

由第一個動作到第二個動作,左腳做不到,右邊可以。

source of the picture

Saturday, February 6, 2010

紅豆牛奶糖

這個好好味道。在家附近找,找不到。買了另一個牌子,不好吃。

30 Jan 2010

Found it in Sogo :)

2 Feb 2010

個個也說好,要去買十盒。

完成

三天中,參與了幾個會議,很多事情都有個眉目。好了,真的開始了。那邊的頭頭,蠻好相處。她是願意聽的人。

說我屈她,她說她有做,可拿不出證據來(我們有證據她沒做)。讓老闆看到她的嘴臉了。

還有兩個月。

表達

大家在排舞時都互相影響,未必分得清社工、義工和康復者。

是這樣的。

走進這世界是意外,看到的是沒有想過的可能性。

Thursday, February 4, 2010

沒有耐性

原來,面對麻麻煩煩的人,很沒耐性。當人處在沒有耐性的狀態,討厭的感覺就會出來。

麻煩的人,總是在小事情跟你周旋。這就最令人討厭。

回想老師的話,這是關於層次,看到什麼就是什麼。我的小事情他們的大事情,要明白。

Someone Resigned

Just think, whether they will ask me to be there. But I won't accept that post, too much responsibilities. I would have depression very soon if I went there.

Not Surprise but Sudden

This is some words from me. Sudden may refer to time frame.

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Gift

Have one finally :)

Monday, February 1, 2010

No Contact List

Today is official launch (however there is no announcement). We don't know whom we can contact. Funny!