Saturday, October 31, 2009

停頓

午睡起來(還沒有睡醒),感覺是一刻的停頓。聽不到人聲,只有車聲。有點怕,幸好很快就聽到別人談電話的聲音。

Sleep

Slept around 3am and woke up before 11am.

Slept well but having an urge to wake up to do things. Before falling in sleep, I told myself the one to let go was not others but myself.

Review her work and didn't find any disguising (she did alot but end up was nothing). No complain. Just concentrate to do what I need to do.

While concentrating, emotion is no more (maybe exist but not affecting me).

真的是這樣

If a woman stands tall, with dignity--opening and broadening her chest--and walks with confidence, she announces to the world (and, most important, to herself) that she is grounded, happy, and in tune with her surroundings.

十點

說了六點半離開的,最後是十點(其中又做了婆婆,在嘮叨)。唉!她什麼也想不起來,根本不能工作(做了也錯。今天處理了她製造出來的兩個錯誤,不幫忙不可能,因為她什麼也不知道)。一些簡單的,也待處理。她每天都很忙,可是什麼也沒有做(算系統裡的)。

跟她說willing to change 及willing to accept to change 是不同的,也說不是能力問題,而是方法。可是她沒有可能明白。

叫她,開始不想理我。再叫。

對著一個說什麼也不能明白的,可以怎樣???!!!以為遠離了一個,另一個卻在身邊出現。好肯定是一場功課(其實已經打好了主意去修煉)。

喝了東方美人,都是高山烏龍好。

是半發酵青茶中,發酵程度最重的茶品。

怪不得不能把茶喝完。

不明白

給了她那張紙,因為某些原因,紙裡的項目不能在同一時段裡完成。她要我們每次完成了一些都給她那張內容一樣的紙。跟她解釋怎樣利用系統,不打算聽。我也不多說了,給了她留起作為提醒的紙給她。過了一會,她複印了那張紙,給我。我說我們不需要的。那張紙,已經素描在系統裡。

同一張紙,她有三張。

Friday, October 30, 2009

為自己做

不為別人,感覺最好。好幸福。

午飯時候,吃著吃著,好像把幸福也吞進肚裡。好滿足。風腿好味道,微鹹。粗粗的烏冬也好好味道。

講到悶

跟同事說快說到口臭了。快不要再說了,到了那天,新天地到來。在說跟山洞人的相處。越來越多事情不concern 了(還重視素質)。

跟著買

今天都有些感覺的了,看到別人買了。好,明天買。

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Confident

If you feel self-confident, you don't often doubt your own abilities. But if you're not confident, it's hard to let go of worry about how others perceive you.

從下而上

下級看上級,是看不明白的。說能看見,騙人的。

有些東西,是做到與做不到,不是拿來說明白不明白的。

Balance

Sthira means steady and alert--to embody sthira, the pose must be strong and active. Sukha means comfortable and light--to express sukha, the pose must be joyful and soft. These complimentary poles--or Yin and Yang co-essentials--teach us the wisdom of balance. By finding balance, we find inner harmony, both in our practice and in our lives.

婆婆

又嘮叨了,說說說,已經是下午一點四十分。

心態

在工作間,發覺自己都幾義工心態的。

想到這裡,我可以跟學員好好相處,為何跟同事不可以(他們很像學員們的不理睬)。都是那一句,做好自己。

想到這裡,要謝謝老師,是他讓我感受這些的。

Pose

within a yoga pose, one presses the heel down and lifts the arch of the foot upward. This is an example of opposing action within a pose. But stepping back for a moment and regarding the execution of the asana as a whole, the art of practice is to create the form in order to let go of the form and yet still have the form.

很喜歡尋找這樣的對衡,找到了就是做對了。

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

投訴

她們有病的,不寫我或同事的名字卻把電郵送給我們(寫了小組的名字)。向那“經理”表達不滿,告訴她我們不被尊重,我有名的。告訴她如果情況還是一樣,我們就只跟“經理”溝通。

有沒有名字其實沒有所謂,不過總要出聲(不可以讓小人坐大)。

Today

Feeling light today. Able to make things moving, feeling content.

Still lecture the colleague. Her way is totally not in direction.

好悶!心被關了。

回家途上想的。老師的邀請是及時雨,去幫幫人,喜悅也。

可以硬心腸的,可是不會。往後的幾個月,日子難過(情緒上)。

Cherish

I value the friend who for me finds time on his calendar, but I cherish the friend who for me does not consult his calendar.

Source: Friendship Quotes

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Deleted

Someone just liked to say rubbish. She keeps on to say something that is system generated. The maintenance is not in our side.

By the way, read her email and deleted. It is all I can do. Actually I can choose not to read her emails. Nothing important from her as all are internal issues. Can wait for follow up from boss then action.

Today

Finally resigned, the guy.
So tired, after talked to her.
Work itself really cannot make me tired but the people. Those I care.

Twist

"The twist is investigative," Ryder says. "You'll know it's working if you come out and your lower back feels big and broad and warm.

有做沒做,一定知道的。不知道嗎?花點時間吧!

Monday, October 26, 2009

吃了晚飯的了,回家前買了這個(很久沒吃了)。不是太好吃,好的是夠熱。

回憶

快成歷史了。沒有在這酒樓吃過東西,坐電車經過,拍下留念。

魚魚

四十塊十五個,不會再買了(餡這麼少)。

Leg Circling

這個直腳打圈法一點也不輕鬆的。

source of the picture

2 Jun 08

開始能稍稍保持直的一條腿不動。

8 Nov 08

不動的腿越能不動,動的腿更有力量。腳背有力腳弓好的,做這個(老師時常說累了就停下來),沒有難度(當然也不輕鬆)。

明天

明天將會是繁忙的一天,不知道她會幫忙多少。不理了,“疊埋心水”自己做。

Drop you Mail but Never Reply

Think it is communication? No way!!!!!! Feel like throwing rubbish.

27 Nov 08

This person is still doing this. Really hope one day he can stop it.

其實也是一樣

不同的是,是我還有一絲的盼望。就讓那微弱的火苗慢慢消失吧!可惜嗎?並不覺得。

9 Nov 08

回看,展望,慶倖。遠去吧!很傻瓜的想過,有delete 的按鈕多好。不喜歡的,是被drag down。

《飲酒抽煙不運動的蔡瀾》

等時間過,到了圖書館借了這本書。

不,做人就是努力別看他人的臉色,做人,也不必要給別人臉色看。

別話:在圖書館裡,看到很多新書。想著,不工作多好,想看什麼看什麼。很是幸福。

課堂體驗

很認真地練習。
停了一個多月,一些基本動作做得更好。腹部強壯了(今早醒來,這部位有點酸)。
一些學員,總是坐不好。老師說是腰椎退化了。
老師來調整的動作,都沒有我的份兒;只是corpse,被移動了頭及頸,還有肩膀被按下。跟著,雙手有點麻痹了。
low lunge 到high lunge,一下子就能起來,身軀沒有搖擺。老師要我們把後腿的臀按下,前腿就能提升。都能做到。
做了一個新動作,lying twist 然後把身軀反過去,肚碰地。原來睡覺的時候,都有做這個。
躺下捲起的動作,進步很大。
all four 提起同一邊的手和腳,開始平衡得到。

留白

《菜根譚》里有這樣一句話:憂勤是美德,太苦則無以適性怡情。大意是說,盡心盡力去做事是一種很好的美德,但是過於辛苦地投入,就會失去愉快的心情和爽朗的精神。人若失去了愉快的心情和爽朗的精神,還有什麼生活的樂趣呢?

做什麼也好,問問自己為何要做。做錯了,也問問自己如何糾正;而不是推卸責任。跟新來的說,還有什麼古靈精怪的,儘管拿出來。

同事說我把他的自信打沉了,我說有過自信嗎??!!老師說,要學習,首先要尊重老師,跟老師好好溝通。現今的人都錯了,太自大。還沒有學,就放進了自己很多的元素。

Response

Try it for yourself by watching any stress that may arise in a particular pose. Rather than identify with that stress, observe it as it arises and passes. With practice, you can retrain your body and mind to create new responses to anxiety-provoking situations. So instead of automatically panicking when things get difficult, the body and mind begin to find other options and pathways. What once was an inflexible, anxious state becomes more fluid. You might even discover that anxious feelings are impermanent and that, with practice, you can change them.

看著同事的無意識,更加明白意識的重要性。知道她努力過,可卻是有心無力。明白歸明白,體諒歸體諒,現實是殘酷的。

關心,八掛

是關心還是八掛??!! 問一個對錢沒有什麼感覺的人關於錢。

還有,事情發生了超過一個星期,現在才問??!!

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Life

the real juice of the inner life is discovering, step by step, how to find these answers for ourselves.

路,一定是自己走出來的。別人的,只能聽。想起一行禪師的話“一步一腳印”。

Feet

Many people tend to stand with their feet pointing out slightly. Sometimes this may be caused by short and tight rotators that externally rotate the whole leg. If that is the case, the knees will also be pointing out, and you need to spend more time stretching the backs of your hips.

小卷

還是差不多天天吃著小卷。今天吃了兩碟,昨天也是。

一起來,知道夢裡是她,感覺重重的。這感覺,跟了我一整天(幸好沒有影響活動)。她,是我們擔心的同事,也是令我火的那一位。

《敦煌‧流沙‧包》



13 Sep 09

好看。

坐在第二行(前面沒人),看得清清楚楚。

「想像力是一回事,現場親身感受又是另一回事。作為在香港這個城市土生土長的我,今次與戰友們一同前往敦煌考察,我才真正感受到,在一個沙漠中的風沙小鎮生活是怎樣的一回事。整個《敦煌‧流沙‧包》的綵排過程是近年最充滿笑聲的一次,感覺很『飽』,是心靈和精神上的滿足!」演員劉守正笑道。

真的很好笑(不是無無聊聊的)。

他們念的一篇關於雲的文章(改編過的),學普通話的時候讀過。好有親切感。

劇裡說了很多,可不知道是明白還是什麼。可以說的是,都很現實。

很潘惠森的東西,不過相對他自己的劇團,這個有點不同(比較沒有那麼抽象)。

劇場中 黃沙漫漫
點評集:虛象敦煌,流沙香港
《敦煌.流沙.包》勁玩「荒誕

又能參與活動

猜不到這麼快,下個月又能參與活動了。今次,責任大了。老師說他有時不在,要靠我。

別話:跟老師說工作的function 要搬到外地,他立即笑著說不準去。被人需要,感覺很美。

搭著老師的肩膀,軟軟的。感覺是他需要力量,內裡不比外表的強。

Saturday, October 24, 2009

超過一個月

超過一個月沒有課堂,剛剛做了tree pose,還穩定(也開始可以把身軀拉長)。都說,練習是隨時隨地,不只在課堂裡。

呼吸練習很重要。

“戒律是要我們避免錯誤,勇於改正,而不是要我們自責罪過,須知戒與智慧不可分離。你要明白罪性本空,因果亦空。”

不改正,唯一會發生的就是錯完又錯。

正見

正見能夠指導我們調整身心,幫助我們作出判斷:這個狀態應該捨棄、那個狀態應該捨棄,通過不斷捨棄,將心行調整得不偏不倚。正確的見地還會告訴我們:在這一狀態中,應以怎樣的態度去對待;否則又會落入怎樣的狀態,等等。這也正說明瞭經教的重要性,因為經教可以幫助我們樹立正見。但學習經教必須找到立足點,而這個立足點是在我們的心行而不是經教中。所以,學習佛法的重點是在我們內心,而不是書本中。

越看越不把行為改正,越來越糊塗。

30 Nov 08

身邊有糊塗人,好的是還有清醒的。

唔明

壓力大,說帶她們yoga 去。不肯。

As It Is

"perfection of wisdom," a seemingly colossal task that really means nothing more than "to see things as they are and to share this vision with others."

Balance

The real key to finding balance is to focus internally and listen to what's inside.

Simplicity

distinguishes between "reactive" and "purposeful" simplicity. "If you clean out clutter to declutter, it's a temporary fix," he says. "But if you clean out the clutter to make a meditation space or a reading area, then you have a clear purpose. The clutter doesn't return.

Andrews compares simplifying to dieting. Self-denial will backfire. "Don't say to yourself, 'I'm not going to have this or that.' Instead of focusing on what you're denying yourself, focus on what's really healthy or, in this case, on whatever gives you true satisfaction. "

朋友總是說著他沒有的,或是一些弱處。又如何??!!簡約,不是少用幾隻字就可以的。
True Love is like a candle, it makes no noise but silently and unselfishly gives itself away with a flame of kindness…

Source: Love Gadget

愛與不愛,一定知道。肩並肩無言卻溫暖,最。這些需要感受過才會明白。

堅持

同事的堅持,就試著不按著來做(為何要跟隨一個只有一年工作經驗的人來行事)。又沒事。

鼓勵他們想想為何要做,想想別人為何要就可以了。沒有原因的,就不做。

昨晚拿起一份文件,問自己為何還沒有完成;原來已經把事情弄明白了。明白了,什麼事情也好辦。

什麼也有

今年不去,不代表明年不去。
想了想,要的,那裡也有。更好的是,有我喜歡的。那地區,有它的好處。如果有個好機會,想不到為何不去。更何況,有人在那邊(相處得來的同事明年就在那邊了)。

可以日日穿拖鞋,呵呵!

知道沒有答應過檔的原因。要我under 那同事,no way。一定跟他爭吵的,思想不同。

熱門話題。為何一定要買樓??!!有樓試過,沒樓試過,都一樣。

Relationship

Three primary ingredients of a succesful relationship - Love, Trust and Respect.

Source: Love Gadget

尊重,好重要的。
回應,是尊重的一部分。
應,從心底裡。
回,也是有內在的。

沒有以上,有的可能是反應。反著來應,即是沒有也沒有。

“好火”,卻很有生產力。體諒是一回事,當面對很多很多要完成的工作別人卻不理會的時候,火來了。跟我說要update 什麼什麼,為的只是對老闆交代。大姐,老闆早知道狀況的了;況且update 什麼什麼對事情沒有幫助。我們要處理的是實在的東西,要對大大老闆報告的事情。

以上情況,會持續發生,也火不了多少。

我draft 她approve,怎麼說也說不通。雖然我沒有所謂,但是不代表她是對的。

要找平衡,跟另一個同事說,有些事情不做了。不做,別人要對數,等他們通知才做。自動自覺做了,別人多謝也沒有,做這麼好為什麼。心地壞??!!這時候需要 “玩一玩”。

沒用的,卻要人分AB,stupid。當工作過檔的時候,不說。好玩。如果那蠢人不在的話(她每天很努力地等下班),當然不玩。

手動,自動

只是兩項事情,當然可以自動化;她卻提議要一半手動。跟同事說,要收她顧問費。

Deep Down You Are Intuitive


You're the type of person who understands other people and the world very well. You don't let on to how much you know.

You can tell so much from someone's facial expressions or tone of voice. And you always know when you're being lied to.

You show the world exactly what you want to show. Besides being good at reading people, you also know how you're being read.

You know when you're being manipulated, and you know how to manipulate someone if you have to. You usually don't resort to it though!


做好D

做好D,想別人請我去幫忙。沒有理由要人沉下去??!!

Friday, October 23, 2009

I am On Fire

Sick Again

2nd time in a week. I am talking about the new colleague.

22 Oct 09

Received a call this morning and telling was still sick.

Resign pls, stupid guy!

Your Sleeping Position Says You Need Peace

You are calm and rational person with a good deal of balance in your life.

Friends consider you to be kind, caring, and truly loyal.

You are easy going and trusting. However, you are too sensible to fall for mind games.

Open to the world, you are not afraid to be yourself.

If you don't get enough sleep, you are: Able to cope

It's hard to sleep next to you because: You're a bed hog



Your Easter Egg Says You Are Dependable


You are responsible, loyal, and a true leader.

You are able to pick up the slack when needed...

And you never feel resentful for helping others.

You are a true friend. You enjoy knowing that people can count on you.


蟹膏

吃了好好味道的蟹膏軍艦。

Function 唔到

震怒 (因為那新同事),不過沒有發脾氣。跟同事說要time out,function 唔到。做了一些排序工作,安撫情緒。

過程中,上了一課。真的進步了。

回到家,有點不舒服,躺下,很快,睡得好。

Thursday, October 22, 2009

“好狗”

昨天用了這形容詞來說一位男性。

依果尋因

如果從“依果尋因”的角度來看,那麼生命現象的輪迴就是現實情緒輪迴的外在表現。情緒的輪迴就是我們現實生活中的情緒不穩定,而這種不穩定的情景,也直接相對應于六道的性質。亦即在情緒上可以分為六大類。對應情況是:(嗔恨)無奈——地獄、(貪慾)不滿——餓鬼、(愚癡)無知——畜生、(五戒)正義——人道、(刺激)挑戰——阿修羅、(十善)純善——天道。

每個人都有這六類根本的情緒,而且都沒有超出這些情緒,不停地在重復著這些善良或者錯誤,這就是“輪迴”的意思。當一個人的情緒經常處於無奈、不滿、無知時,他所體現的現實生命就是痛苦的、黑暗的;而當一個人的情緒時常處在正義、挑戰、純善時,他的現實生命也就充滿了光明和喜悅。這是必然之理,也是因果緣起的立足點。

“我都話咖啦”

原來原來,項目很大。

好滿足

本是同事做的,不過信不過他們(他們用了很多時間也做不好),自己也嘗試做一次。很順利,花不了很多的時間。

學問,學,問,是問回來的。懂不懂問,是藝術。

如果

想過兩次了,如果真的要到星洲工作,什麼也不用帶,一部手提電腦就好。

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

農曆年過後

好大機會到星洲探望同事,買張機票就可(有特價機票立即起行)。也可以跟W 小姐見面。

還以為護照快到期,原來是2011 年。

或者會到馬六甲跑一轉。

進步了

說的是我。對於那個年輕人,沒有憤怒。他比上一個還差,可我的情緒還可以。

跟同事說,最好他什麼也不做,因為要花時間看他做的(沒有做對過)。

沒有問題,可是

同事說他有散光可不需要配戴眼鏡,不過看不清S 跟5??!!!

低智的

明明是自己聽不明白,硬要說別人說得不清楚。好,看別人寫的,又誤會。沒有一件事情可以一做就對。現在他常說的是沒有聽過和不知道。

沒有聽過就算是沒有聽過,會尊重他。重頭再說啦!是浪費時間,不過不想動氣。

去年今日

同事問如果事情發生在去年今日,我會否這麼努力。想了一秒,答是會的。原因很簡單,對自己負責。且相信因果。

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Inward

Pratyahara is a Sanskrit word that means "to hold back," and it denotes the fifth limb of Patanjali's classical eight-limb system of yoga. Simply put, the practice requires you to detach your normal outwardly directed awareness from the world around you, retract it, and redirect it inward toward the self.

It is why I don't feel tire in the work. I don't have an aim on what to do, just do what I need to do in the position. I don't want to impress anyone. As if anyone is impressed, it is a bonus to me. Just that.

Life is never tiring. If you feel tire in your life, sure the way of the living is not correct. Don't say it is not right, but just not correct.

Tiring is a feeling. Feeling is a message. A message can tell alot if we know how to interpret.

26 Oct 08

需要這力量。

感覺孤單

相信往後的幾個月,這感覺隨時會來找我。

淚流下了。

是那重重的無力感。

遠走他方

如果有一日,到了海外工作(其實一點也不抗拒),可能就是到他方學習的開始。路是如何,不需要用力去想,看明年吧!

You Are Driven and Determined


You are an ambitious and energetic person. You want it all in life, and you're on your way to getting it.

You can be highly competitive. You like to win, and you really like other people to think of you as a winner.

You are the furthest thing from hard headed. You will do whatever it takes to succeed.

You fit in with every group. You are flexible and adaptable. You can relate to all kinds of people from all walks of life.



You Crave an Important Life


Your dream is to life a live a life that leaves a mark.

You'd like to have a mission or journey to complete, even if it takes years.

You want your life to be meaningful, and having a final goal brings you meaning.

You'd like to accomplish something big, if only to inspire others to believe it can be done.


無心機

我也有點沒有心機。單是工作沒有問題,不想理會人事問題。可知道,逃不了。人的心情,影響素質。又是另一個問題。

也有想過,大不了,到時候把未能完成的給了遠方的同事吧!

夢裡有同事出現,是壓力。

Thought

When you align yourself this way with what life is presenting—with reality—the experience of inner division gives way to peace.

Thoughts themselves don't create division, separation, and suffering. Rather, investing thoughts with belief, identifying with them, and taking them personally are what fuels the wheel of samsara.

爸爸說

跟爸爸說了新同事的情況,他說了“做不來,快要走”。爸爸的話,很是窩心,也太明白事理了。

耐性

同事說我好有耐性,是她意料不到的。可以做什麼?別人不懂,唯有再說一次。知道別人不聽做人道理,唯有把工作程序說了一次又一次。免傷和氣。明白的就能做出來,錯了就是錯了,沒得作假。

Change

"The only remedy for bad habits is counter habits."

results-oriented, geared to an outcome that you can influence but ultimately can’t control—and can therefore become a formula for frustration and even fatalism. The second approach of setting an intention about what you’re going to do is a plan of action. That’s the part you have much more control of. Kriya yoga says focus there and let what happens as a result take care of itself.

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Feel Better

Once people become more sensitive to the effects of different actions on their bodies and minds (whether it is practicing alternate nostril breathing or eating huge, fatty meals), they increasingly want to do what makes them feel better.

做什麼,原因好簡單,就是舒服。

將會如何

不想想也要想一想,其實什麼也不好想,她想怎樣就怎樣(想做幾多就幾多)。少說話,自然能多做事。

容易的還是

本來把容易的給同事下星期處理,可改了自己來做。給他,不一定能做好;自己來,最低限度有一些能完成。

是但啦

真想是是但但,不過知道我不是這樣的一個人。一些別人的一定,就喜歡挑戰,更改所謂的一定。

Friday, October 16, 2009

A Bit Tired

Mentally.

What will happen I don't concern (actually affecting me directly), leave me alone. However I was told to take care of colleagues' emotion.

All Wrong

90% is wrong, damn!

I am talking about the new colleague. Told him to correct the incorrect but left. We are giving him chance but he is just not cherish.

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Forgot

Totally forgot to pay rent.

Monday, October 12, 2009

抉擇

一聽,就知道不用選,有得算可說是沒得選。選那個,沒有好處,也不知道會如何。保持現狀也是不知道如何,可是環境熟識嗎!那地方,不太想去。如果是xx(心中的大國),會考慮。

別話:問自己,是否要停止餐餐一百塊。“食埋”今年才算。

也想,曾說過(不知道為何這麼說),對先生不在香港的。今次,可能是一個機會。可是,現在的我,不太想動。

Sunday, October 11, 2009

Path of Yoga

This is one reason why a trustworthy teacher, guiding us into appropriate practices, has always been presumed essential to the path of yoga. After all, we all think we know what we want, but few of us know what we need.

熟識我的人,都知道我將會說什麼。

謝謝老師!第一課堂,就是他(沒有人介紹的)。

In the classical context, yoga has nothing to do with physical fitness. Yoga is a means of purification, a way to separate awareness from the fluctuations of the body-mind, gradually allowing you to see your reactive tendencies and bring them under conscious control. As anyone who has practiced consistently for some time can tell you, eventually your clarity and ease spontaneously increase; your life naturally changes for the better; things, habits, and ideas that were less than constructive fall away from your life, often without effort. More and more, what we want becomes what the soul would have us pursue.

有天同事問我為何這麼肯定我不會做的一件事,我反問她為何不能肯定。我就是知道。

事情很簡單,我說如果小組是八個人,沒可能會像現在的相處。八個人的工作量很多,根本沒有時間與精力像現在的處理。原因很是簡單。

現在的,最最舒服。為何我知道?從前就是這麼寫過。

學,問

剛看完了蔡瀾的節目,女孩們問他怎樣知道得那麼多。他說不懂的就問,學,問。

想學的,就會問,很自然的。

問,只是開始。學習,要練習。

別話:跟爸爸說,這節目多好,讓我們看到一些看不到的。我說,那些貴價東西,能看一看就好,足夠了。

回望自己,很是豐足。幾萬幾千塊的手錶沒有,有的是二千多;可已經是最最喜歡的。

返回話題。能看到幾多,就是學了幾多。別人跟你說了很多,不明白。就是沒有學到,很是簡單。

架空

某人跟我們說話,老闆要我回覆她上司。被架空了,相信我想的快將有結果。

重複的

同事好像今天也工作,看到她翻譯了一些東西。可要告訴她,那些別人已經做了。問一問,就有。

她的現況,在死胡同裡。

她做的不是不好,可是有更趕急的事情要做。在時間管理上,表現差了點。

有趣的雲

被右下方所吸引,很有UFO 的感覺。

朋友跟我說,他連雲也拍不好。不明白,舉機一按就是了。天空,怎麼拍也美。

可能是他拿相機的角度,或者他是說他拍出來的相片是扁扁平平的。未能知道,因為所問全不回答。

昨天跟同事說,回答是確認明白與否的方法之一。不懂便不懂,有什麼大不了。

在雲中,看到一個心。你們看到嗎?

心平氣和

很心平氣和。為何這麼肯定?因為現在一發怒,心會跳得厲害。

昨晚有點不開心的,路經某店,有位(晚上十點都可以要等位),吃了喜歡的(雖然少來了一碟),很是滿足。帶著愉快的心情回家去。

Saturday, October 10, 2009

想哭

在想,為何她想哭(其實淚已經在眼裡)。是我說錯了她嗎?肯定沒有。
沒有可能要我分配工作給她,別的同事也不需要。我們是看見什麼做什麼的。
她想怎樣,可能她自己也不知道(著她過來一起聽剛剛得到的資料,卻跟我說坐在位子裡聽就可以了。要看的啊!算!沒得勉強)。再有新的資料,只叫新同事來聽,沒有再叫她。建立了一個資料庫,她要看就自己去看。
其實,也不想跟她說什麼(說了也是白說)。或者看見一些可以做得更好的,自己做了通知她就算了。
不想再說話,很累人的。

再想想,口號她有叫,可是卻沒有行動。或者,朋友S 可以告訴我他的心態。

小朋友

她要跟我的公仔的眼睛一樣。好可愛。

上次見她她說也想吃壽司(她媽媽告訴她某天我們吃了),跟她說下星期買給她。她跟我說謝謝,說要有禮貌。

拿好處

不明白為何總是想拿好處。雖然朋友在說他的同事,可他也是同樣的人。

Flow

"What's important is to make space for energy to flow within the body and open the heart. You can do all the 'right' restorative poses, but if you see the poses as a way to 'fix' the body rather than a way to take you to a state of compassionate acceptance, it's difficult to receive the healing yoga can bring."

"It's about forming discipline—the discipline of peace surrounding something you feel out of control with. Rather than a discipline of more and more, it can be the discipline of less and less, a nonobsessive daily practice."

Reality

a denial that leads to anxiety, fear, and confusion.

很少有這個狀態出現。有什麼要不接受的呢?!

如何

問自己,如果情況沒有改善或是更嚴重,將能做什麼。唯一的,就是可以做幾多就做幾多。未能想得太多,簡單處理是也。

眼前一大疊文件不去處理,卻堅持說用系統幫忙。不是不好,只是系統裡的跟眼前的是一樣嗎??!!

跟她解釋的時間已經足夠我完成事情了。她如何做,不太理會她,只要把工作做好。

另,她的健忘,跟她說她看過很多次的東西也沒有記憶。如何辦???!!!

都是把時間和精神放在新同事身上好過。

A 跟 B

它們是同一樣東西,我想把名字更正為一個。同事卻花時間查這查那。問,為何可以更正的,卻要我們刻意記著???!!!問一句,很簡單。到了別人說不能夠的時候再想吧!

又跟她說了道理,她不打算接受(不是不聽)。這樣,更麻煩。

麻煩人

為何身邊總是有些麻煩的人。簡單的問與答,對方卻寫了長篇大論。老闆問我發生了什麼事,不知道。我說他們總是跟我說不明白我在說什麼。只有麻煩人不明白。

剛剛看了電郵,她說了我要問的了,其實可以用一個字去歸納,yes。

老闆著我不要跟這個小組聯絡,跟他們的經理就可以了。

Can Help What

She asked but end up nothing she did.

I told her it was not help but the responsibilities.

While the other two colleagues (one was new) were busy in doing a task, she pretended not to know what was happening (sure she might not know what she was doing). Actually she needed to offer assistance.

And she discovered some pending items in system. After asked, those remained the same. She needed to pick it up and did the task. Ended up, there was not enough time and I told another colleague to do it next week.

I know what is happening. Rebellion (subconsciously). There was fear and worry all inside her.

I asked myself whether I need to shut my mouth not to say anymore. However I need to let her know that I know.

Thursday, October 8, 2009

有問題

不是我,是同事。應該是壓力,開始面對不了,問些沒有價值的問題。我問她,問了,答案有了,我們要那些答案做什麼??!!沒用的,還花時間去問。

反過來,一定要問的,就遲遲不去處理。

她的,是潛意識,後果可大可小。如果是意識的,她知道背後原因,反而容易處理。

問自己,如果她的狀況沒有改善,會影響小組嗎?

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

一百萬

同事說給我一百萬要我買股票,說輸了是我的,贏了就對分(是我的要求)。要來買A50,每月買一次,要它升五角已足夠我一個月的生活費。我說,我會辭職了。

介紹自己

來見工,要她介紹自己,居然跟我說家裡有什麼的人。

小卷

今天吃了三碟(午和晚)。

5 Oct 09

吃了四碟(午晚各二)。

Impermanence

At a recent lecture, I led a group of interfaith seminarians in the contemplation of the Five Remembrances, Buddha's teaching on impermanence, aging, health, change, and death. Afterward, one of the students asked, "Isn't this just negative thinking?" On the contrary, the Five Remembrances is what the Buddha offers to awaken you from denial, to cultivate gratitude and appreciation for the life you've been given, and to teach you about nonattachment and equanimity.

If you think of it this way, the meditation is not a bleak, depressing list of things you'll lose, but a reminder of the wonder and miracle of life as it is —perfect and whole, lacking nothing. When you accept impermanence as more than a philosophical concept, you can see the truth of it as it manifests itself in your mind, your body, your environment, and your relationships, and you no longer take anything for granted.

Once you accept the reality of impermanence, you begin to realize that grasping and clinging are suffering, as well as the causes of suffering, and with that realization you can let go and celebrate life. The problem is not that things change, but that you try to live as if they don't.

今天跟同事說了一些我的原則,就是不要去擔心一些我們未能控制的事情。文件紛飛而來,同事如果要把它們掉進垃圾筒我們是未能立即知道的。

土星

土星被稱為太陽系行星中最美麗的一個,因為它有一個人們熟知的冰塊和塵礫組成的土星光圈——E 環,距離土星24萬公里。

知道不知道

Cabonara is only understood as white sauce

以上是朋友所說。以我有限的飲食經驗,前者是黃色(成分有蛋),後者是白色。
在這裡寫東西,一定不會亂來(對自己付責任),已經在網上略略查過食譜了。

做人最緊要知道什麼是自己知道的什麼不是。

Attitude

when you consider becoming enlightened a possibility, and practice enlightened attitudes, you create a spaciousness in your mind and life that's powerfully positive. In short, practicing enlightened attitudes will probably make you feel better.

So Good

Still the quickest step involved the most time. It is really depends on attitude.

Good is talking about team.

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

唔熟唔做

簡單的道理也不明白。

Monday, October 5, 2009

Sunday, October 4, 2009

高度

妹妹的高度已經超過哥哥的肩膀。哥哥在讀四年級。

In the Moment

one that moves into forms, investigates them, and then plays with them to find the best fit for each moment. Her aim is not to minimize the importance of alignment but to help students move intelligently, according to what their bodies need in any given moment. "The poses are designed to meet you where you are, not for you to conform to each pose,

喜歡這樣的練習。

妹妹寫字

著她寫在兩條線中,可以啊!她寫的字很整齊。

要人來

朋友又即將開新blog,說要吸引人來click 廣告。費話!一天也不更新一次,內容又不吸引(說是參考三本書。三本??!! 做功課時看的也比他多),找誰來??!!

他會說我撥冷水,又看看如何!如果他的也行,我已經有千萬在手了。

近年來已經不知道朋友在做什麼了(因他不會告訴我),原來他很忙,做了很多,可是很多部分都沒有價值。不是說金錢,而是人生價值。做了這麼多,可一事無成。

你們可能會說我時常批評他,我只可以說,我有足夠的原因。就是看不過眼空口說白話的人。我不會追債,不過他欠了我很多。不想記掛著什麼,如果可以,他的一切從此消失並不可惜。

Base

To practice Camel safely, you need a strong foundation in your lower body. Without a stable base, you'll overbend in your spine's bendy places-the neck and lower back-and underbend in the less flexible upper back. A solid base will allow your chest and rib cage to fully lift and expand.

什麼也是一樣,不去強化這部分,進步不了。

為何要進步?無他,路是一步一步向前走,人生不是後退。我想的,就是這麼簡單。走前,是一種動力。死死的,自己沒有什麼別人看到都累。

又是我們

別人只做他們的部分,從來不考慮給了錢要取回。時常問的,為何要先給錢??!!
山洞人做不來的我們來做,no problem。

夢裡吃東西,全部食物都很美觀,要選五件。可卻只選了兩件再也選不下去。有人叫我,連忙叫她選,她很開心。

哈哈!夢裡夢外都是一樣。

Saturday, October 3, 2009

身體反應

跟小女孩練習,看著她的身體反應,而後叫她做正確點(她是聽著我說而做的,並不是模仿)。原來小小的人兒,也開始臉部緊張了。

坐著做warrior II 手的部分,拉直她的雙手,她會看看被拉的地方。

這小朋友很好學,而我說得清楚,她一學就會。

在想,四歲多的都聽得明白,為何成年人不懂??!!

Meditation

"Meditation practice gives us tools for letting it in without getting swept away by it. It teaches us how to bear the unbearable--and what's happening is on so many levels, unbearable."

不可接受的有很多(其實都不是真的不可接受,只是有更好的,稍稍就拿到的了,可就是有無謂的堅持,為別人著急),每每就是練習的機會。

好像媽媽,站不穩卻堅持不用拐杖。牙齒不好,又堅持不把食物弄細小一點,卻把大大件的東西一下子放進口裡。

老了的我,如果牙齒真的不再好用,把食物弄成汁就好。

Practise

"If people are greedy and acquisitive in their asana practice and feel as though they're never going to be satisfied until they get that Handstand in the center of the room," that can lead to injury, says Lasater, who notes that teachers' desires for their students to master more difficult poses can also be dangerous. "I train teachers to teach people first and asana second," she notes. "Instead of thinking 'How can I force this person's body into this position,' the approach should be 'How can this person's body express this pose right now?' Anyone can work on any pose as long as it's modified and broken down into the smallest pieces."

手臂

某天打針後(流感針)。本不想打的(覺得沒用),可是不打要解釋,怕麻煩,打就打吧!

有肌肉。不知道怎麼走出來的,什麼也沒做。

要了一個午餐,有七件壽司和一碗烏冬;還要了手卷和兩件帶子。喝完咖啡,滿足。

功課

能引用,是一種幸福。不隨便,而是那些開始做到或一些要去做的。每一次的引用,感覺滿滿。

Contentment

the bottom-line practice for contentment is to give up wanting what you don't already have and learn how to accept what you cannot change. Here's how Swami Hariharananda put it in his commentary on the Yoga Sutra: "Just as to escape from thorns it is necessary only to wear shoes and not to cover the face of the earth with leather, so happiness can be derived from [the practice of] contentment and not from thinking that I shall be happy when I get all I wish for."

身體

上身打開的時候是不容許下背傾向前的,這樣還會背痛??!!很喜歡那一節一節的慢慢調整(可以由下而上也可以是從上到下)。

Consciousness

the "we-space"—that state of unity and love that arises when a group of people give themselves over to selfless emotions. At such moments, the pain of separateness melts away, egos stand aside, and we are able to enter into a shared heart-space that is the deepest possible evidence of our interconnectedness. "Consciousness, which exists as all things, becomes contracted due to the differences generated by our separate bodies," says the Tantric sage Abhinava Gupta in the Tantraloka, "but it expands into oneness when [individual consciousnesses] are able to reflect back on each other." This mutual self-reflection, he goes on to say, happens when a group focuses as one—particularly in spiritual practice, but also during a performance of music or dance.

身處這狀態時,很是美妙。

巴西

一個想去的地方。
昨天跟同事說,美國一定不了。是直覺。

You Believe That You're Powerful

You may not be the most courageous person, but you are able to get what you want from others.

Whether you're manipulating, persuading, or inspiring, people just seem to want to follow you anywhere.

You respect people who have more power than you. You know it's not easy to move up in the world.

You have no respect for anyone who accepts his low position in life. There's no excuse for weakness.


Present

Everything rides on the tip of your motivation." But motivation is not some quality that can be cultivated—it comes from deep inside, from suffering or desperation, from what the Tibetans call bodhichitta (the heartfelt wish for the happiness of all beings), from trust in our teachers, and from a profound desire to wake up and be free. Unless we keep asking ourselves, "What are my priorities right now?" we tend to lapse back into old unconscious patterns.

At the ultimate level consciousness is spacious, vast, luminous, completely free. Out of this ground of being everything arises: material reality, thought, emotion, activity."

十秒,十分鐘

一個人的十秒,可能是兩個人的十分鐘或更多。別人不願意提供資料也沒有辦法。

How Long

stay in an asana only as long as it provides relief. "Holding longer doesn't mean better,

老師說最少六秒。往後如何,看身體狀況。

很多時候,老師都會帶領我們做一些“不可能”。他要我們去感受(不是感覺)。一些東西,不去接觸,怎想也想不到是什麼。想出來的,不是事實。

走了

同事走了,新的應該幾天後就能上班。同事很著急,我沒有什麼。東西沒人做??!! 方法只有一個,慢慢一件一件來做。急,幫助不了。

Spacious

When applied to yoga postures, the Sanskrit word sukha is often understood as "comfortable," "easy," or "spacious." When your Bridge is aligned so that there is no compression in the lower back and the emphasis is on opening the middle and upper back, the pose can embody this concept, releasing tight spots in ways that will benefit you in both your practice and your daily life.

未到十點就醒來了。連續兩晚,天上的明月都好像一顆白色燈照耀著。

幸福感

吃到最後的一口食物,看到餐牌裡寫著幸福的字樣。真的感到很幸福(過程中雖然來錯了東西也漏了單)。

不問

老闆跟我說了一些安排,沒有問題要問。問了又如何?!從來也沒有擔心過訊息不夠,需要知道的一定會知道。與其擔心,不如用心工作好了。

Balance

"The posture makes you simultaneously strong and open hearted, even vulnerable," Faulds explains. "That's something a lot of us are not so good at. We think to be strong means to be a tough ass and that to be open hearted means to be all soft and blubbery. Kripalu Yoga is really about this balance of 'will' and 'surrender.' You need will to bring your energy and mental power to bear on the world. But you also need to be able to surrender enough to see the opportunities in life naturally."

"When you brighten up on the inside and relax on the outside, you don't have to work so hard,"

Friday, October 2, 2009

感覺

好像做了一件好事。給了別人一個開始,往後的靠他自己了。

有沒有偏袒?!只一點點。兩個選一個,有好有不好。

Thursday, October 1, 2009

浪費?!

朋友說去年是被浪費掉了。

時間對於我們來說,沒有浪費不浪費的。什麼也不做,時間也一樣地過去,它並不屬於任何的人。一些堅持,並不可以回望而說把時間浪費掉了。如果是這樣想的話,倒不如不作堅持。

事情總有兩面的,可能更多。努力,並不等於有結果。懂享受過程,拿到一點經驗,就好。

我想,還能活著,得到了什麼失去了什麼,也不重要了。
3 Sep 07

一年下來,照舊朋友說沒有做過什麼。好肯定的說,來年他也會說著同樣的話。

5 Oct 08

一年裡,沒有刻意做著什麼(懷著本心而已),卻拿到好成績。最低限度,小組喜歡等結果,又會說說談談如何做得更好。反而要跟他們做點心理輔導,說不好太介懷,會精神衰弱的。

Triangle Pose

在我有限的經驗來看,上圖中的動作做得不是太好,有可以改善的地方。是否可以把左腳往外再張開一點呢?

相比起來,下圖的動作是來得比較穩定。







24 Oct 07

現在懂看了,是kneecap。沒有指向腳趾的方向。

肯定

平時都沒有話說,怎肯定三個月後一定有話題。他要肯定由得他。肯定一些不能肯定的東西,苦了自己。空口講白話,是他的習性。

5 Oct 08

一年過去了,還肯定嗎??!!

The Art of Stretching

Stretching should feel wonderful. If there is any discomfort and pain, then you are not stetching muscles.

那感覺真的很美妙。

班上有一同學,她有去另外的瑜伽班,也來學習伸展。以為她不來了,今天見到她。
21 Oct 07

一年後,可以說,掌握到了。有些肌肉,還沒能觸及,努力。

1 Oct 08

又一年,進步不少。一做,那部分就熱起來了(最明顯是腰和腹部)。

鏡頭下的笑容

電視鏡頭下顯示的臉,都帶著笑容和滿足。

自己

朋友在平時總是胡亂地說,以為當想做回自己的時候就可以。免了吧!

國,家

為何要不喜歡它???!!!

男人

昨晚看電視,螢光屏裡的男人,很是欣賞。他是王傑。

回到起點

很喜歡久不久就回到起點,看一看所學的是否真的學會了。學東西很容易,懂得和瞭解就需要時間與付出。

自然打開

方法對了,身體會自然打開,好像扁了的氣球充氣一樣。

Breath

The innermost layer of abdominal muscle, the transversus, runs horizontally, wrapping the torso like a corset. You flex this muscle to pull in your belly. The sinewy, three-ply sheath formed by the transversus and the obliques provides a strong, expandable support; it protects the viscera and provides compression that aids elimination and a housing flexible enough for diaphragmatic breathing.

How

"The irony is that if you are genuinely able to take a break from pursuing goals and take yourself to a place of calm, new ideas and new ways of looking at difficulties will come to you," Costick says. "It's a risk to just sit and be and breathe, but it's a risk worth taking."

不願接受

昨天同事有一陣子表現了不願接受的態度。跟我說著同一句話,我說不需要理會那句話,說的人根本不懂什麼是什麼。她還在堅持,是我第一次遇到的。

跟她說完了我會如何做就不再跟她說其他,由得她靜下來。

奇怪

途徑很多,可是要一個人回應是多麼的困難。說到底,是別人要回應與否。

To Face

when life presents challenges, you can remember that sense of center, steady yourself, and expand outward and face things with ease. "If you stay true to your essence, you can balance yourself when you're being pulled in a million different directions," Matkin says. "You'll be able to flip over backward without losing your sense of who you are."

"Often, people think they have to strain or struggle to do a pose correctly. But in yoga you get to just keep showing up—again and again. The process is the reward. And the more you do it, the more intimately you'll get to know yourself."

老師要我們自己去尋找可以做到什麼,他總是說不好依賴他。很喜歡這樣的課堂。

還不去睡

兩點半了,還不睡。一來明天是假期,其實我還不“眼訓”。

怎麼樣

同事星期五最後一天工作了,新的老闆還沒有下聘書(不太知道她想要什麼的人,我認為合適不就可以了?!)。小組怎麼樣,是同事的問題。我說做不來的由我做。可以嗎?為何不?!!時間沒變,能變的是有些事情不做。不做可以嗎?當然。看不到看不到,就可以的了。

很多時候,我都八掛改這改那(別人未必多謝我)。這些,就不做了(會嗎???!!!)。

No Show

約好了的不來,第三個了。

做與不做

說就說了,聽與不聽,能做不能做,選擇。

六十年

當我到了六十歲的時候,不知道是怎麼樣。
那時,當然不好有臭脾氣。
那時,好大機會對人生無悔。
那時,應該還好好練習yoga。