散落在文字裡情感的收集,為之“散文集”。細細碎碎的。在SG生活了兩年五個月,回到香港了。會再離開嗎??!!誰知道??!!因為身體不好,這裏變成了我的飲食記錄。這個很好的呀!一看就可以作調整,不是的話,早上吃過什麽可能已經忘記了。
Sunday, November 30, 2008
朋友的爸爸
想為朋友的爸爸說些話。也不知道對不對,不過如果我是這個爸爸,可能會這樣想的。
到外國讀了很多年的書,工作也有一段的時間,現時兒子還喜歡跟初級同事一般的見識。
不是一定要找一個能考順父母的另一半,都不好是一個跟父母作對的。結婚又不是為了愛情。
超過三十歲了,還用父母的錢。還批評這樣那樣,可以獨立的嗎?!
又說父母把兒子帶壞。是誰呢?!
朋友的爸爸不被兒子理解,一定很寂寞的。
到外國讀了很多年的書,工作也有一段的時間,現時兒子還喜歡跟初級同事一般的見識。
不是一定要找一個能考順父母的另一半,都不好是一個跟父母作對的。結婚又不是為了愛情。
超過三十歲了,還用父母的錢。還批評這樣那樣,可以獨立的嗎?!
又說父母把兒子帶壞。是誰呢?!
朋友的爸爸不被兒子理解,一定很寂寞的。
《樓城》
這個是新視野藝術節的閉幕節目。看了這藝術節的兩個節目很是滿意,看看還能買到票。
別話:看的舞蹈,可以用票尾換咖啡。幸好票還在。
9 Nov 08
買了中價票,坐第三行。
What a逼City!!
16 Nov 08
過了一個星期還沒有寫看後感,來幾句吧!
這戲劇,對白全是真人真事,有些是關於地區行動人事的,可一個也分辨不出來。
很喜歡眾人在臺上走來走去,導演一定花了不少的心思。很喜歡跳舞的那一個,不複雜的表演,簡單但有意義。
第一次看有英文部分的舞臺劇(有兩個外國人演出),不習慣,不能投入。
看了這劇,重溫了香港部分的歷史。香港就是這樣啊!現在的香港就是過往的累積,好的壞的。我愛香港,我出生的地方成長的地方。
絕對不同意有些人的想法,說某些東西消失了事情就沒了。不是這樣的。東西的存在,如果意義不在,那麼存在也沒有意義。有了意義,東西存在不存在也不重要了。人會死,為何我們要為了一些建築物而煩惱?!
誰可以按暫停鍵?這是劇中的一句對白。想停便停,自己作主。別人話事的,不能叫停。大家有合作精神的,或可以坐下來談一談。敵對嗎?勢不兩立。
回看跟前老闆的一段,肯定我是可以做得更好的。當時的我沒有絲毫的後悔,留下又如何?裂痕有了,能修補嗎?完全絕對沒有可能。今日的新天地,充滿了幸福感。
別話:看的舞蹈,可以用票尾換咖啡。幸好票還在。
9 Nov 08
買了中價票,坐第三行。
What a逼City!!
16 Nov 08
過了一個星期還沒有寫看後感,來幾句吧!
這戲劇,對白全是真人真事,有些是關於地區行動人事的,可一個也分辨不出來。
很喜歡眾人在臺上走來走去,導演一定花了不少的心思。很喜歡跳舞的那一個,不複雜的表演,簡單但有意義。
第一次看有英文部分的舞臺劇(有兩個外國人演出),不習慣,不能投入。
看了這劇,重溫了香港部分的歷史。香港就是這樣啊!現在的香港就是過往的累積,好的壞的。我愛香港,我出生的地方成長的地方。
絕對不同意有些人的想法,說某些東西消失了事情就沒了。不是這樣的。東西的存在,如果意義不在,那麼存在也沒有意義。有了意義,東西存在不存在也不重要了。人會死,為何我們要為了一些建築物而煩惱?!
誰可以按暫停鍵?這是劇中的一句對白。想停便停,自己作主。別人話事的,不能叫停。大家有合作精神的,或可以坐下來談一談。敵對嗎?勢不兩立。
回看跟前老闆的一段,肯定我是可以做得更好的。當時的我沒有絲毫的後悔,留下又如何?裂痕有了,能修補嗎?完全絕對沒有可能。今日的新天地,充滿了幸福感。
Saturday, November 29, 2008
人力市場
Due to the current economic conditions we have recently seen an increase in the number of temporary or contract assignments that are being requested by our clients.
If you are immediately available, or are likely to become immediately available in the next few months, and would like to be considered for temporary or contract assignments, please reply to this email confirming your interest.
In the meantime we will continue to keep you in mind for permanent roles.
這是人事顧問寄給我的電郵。
禪心
禪師說:“這也就是你為什麼感覺生活越來越沉重的道理。當我們每走一步,都要從世界上撿一樣東西放到我們生活的簍子里,所以才有了越走越累的感覺。”
某天早上買過咖啡後,溫度透過紙杯走進手心裡。抬頭一看,這世界真美。
跌
終於做到USD121K,減少了USD400K+,真的不容易。七月的時候,同事跟我說要半年才可做到得心應手。結果?!如果那男生可以幫到手,下跌的數位可以更低。
今天回去,發現他沒有把工作做好。我已經做了決定,除非他真的能表現。
今天回去,發現他沒有把工作做好。我已經做了決定,除非他真的能表現。
Why not Tired
I can say the reasons I am not feeling tired are that I don't think too much while working and I don't complain so much. I use less energy to complete the most of the work.
It is just like doing yoga. We concentrate and we generate energy from within. Making the blood flows freely and the breath so smooth.
It is just like doing yoga. We concentrate and we generate energy from within. Making the blood flows freely and the breath so smooth.
Others but not Himself
Comment others went to shopping and advised to save money during this bad economic environment. However he is going to Hong Kong with his family, including a child not yet 1 year old. He is not spending his money but his father's money.
He is not giving an education to child but to encourage them to attach to material. A little boy has traveled alot and doesn't know it costs so much money.
He is not giving an education to child but to encourage them to attach to material. A little boy has traveled alot and doesn't know it costs so much money.
Work and Happy
Noticed that you have been working late. Were working late again last night? Noticed that the more you work, the happier you are and not tired as well.
This is what my friend emailed to me. He always find it surprising. People always like to hang out, I find it tiring.
Walk Away
The guy showing no interest of what I told him. The more I said the worse attitude he was showing. I told him I didn't want to waste time and walked away.
He is afraid to look at me while talking. His voice is getting smaller and smaller while answering. I think he is depressing.
He is afraid to look at me while talking. His voice is getting smaller and smaller while answering. I think he is depressing.
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Full
Last night deleted all SMS messages which are stored in mobile. Some of them kept for more than 4 years. While doing so, feeling so full.
3rd Reject
Asked them to review before I do the approval. Ok, I receive the 3rd time of rejection. Really "no air" to play with them. Colleague calls them as "wai sing ren".
So stupid to design a complicated game. I don't have that "wisdom" to be part of them.
So stupid to design a complicated game. I don't have that "wisdom" to be part of them.
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Tried the Best
The guy telling me he had tried his best. So sorry he was doing so. Try hard to create many errors.
When time comes, I will extend his probation for one month. It is all his effort whether he can keep the job. Blessing!
When time comes, I will extend his probation for one month. It is all his effort whether he can keep the job. Blessing!
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Monday, November 24, 2008
見
朋友說年尾來香港。吃飯,隨時我也可以,只是他沒有時間。只怕連喝杯咖啡的時間也沒有。見與不見,對我來說,沒有所謂。反正都沒有見面多年了。這次見了,下次幾時見?!可能到死後也不見(死了他是不會知道的)。
5 Oct 08
朋友在說不知道有沒有時間。沒有時間的話,不如不見。沒有意義。如果要我乘車出來半個小時一個小時,我會說沒空。
其實真的沒話說,問我問題我不想答(一問一答是很累人的說話方式),別人的故事我不想聽(如果是開心事聽一聽也無妨)。溝通、交流?!沒了。
5 Oct 08
朋友在說不知道有沒有時間。沒有時間的話,不如不見。沒有意義。如果要我乘車出來半個小時一個小時,我會說沒空。
其實真的沒話說,問我問題我不想答(一問一答是很累人的說話方式),別人的故事我不想聽(如果是開心事聽一聽也無妨)。溝通、交流?!沒了。
Don't Know
A lady from regional office said that I didn't know how to do something. Reason was that she didn't know who I were. It is not a negative saying. Yes, those know how should tell us how.
I am happy that people don't know who I am. Why need to???!!!
I am happy that people don't know who I am. Why need to???!!!
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Gratitude
There is a shadow side to gratitude, in which reality gets distorted in yet another way. It manifests as a hopeless or helpless attitude disguised as gratitude, and it expresses itself in a self-defeating, passive voice—"Yes, these things are wrong and unfair, but I should be grateful for what I have," or "At least we have this," or "Compared to these people, look how much better off we are." This voice, whether it is an inner voice or comes from someone else, is not to be trusted. Gratitude is not an excuse for being passive in the face of personal or societal need or injustice. You are not excused from working to become a caring person, creating a better life for your loved ones, or protecting the innocent. Acknowledging the great gift of a human life through gratitude is just the opposite; it is a call to action to be a caring human being while acknowledging the folly of basing your happiness on the outcome of your actions.
很想跟朋友分享這段話,不知道他看得明白不明白。
If experiencing gratitude feels so good, why do we often shortchange it? If you will answer this question for yourself, you will gain much insight into how you make your life more difficult than it need be. Sometimes you shortchange gratitude because your mind is stuck in problem-solving mode; it only notices what isn't working and sets about trying to resolve it. This might seem desirable, but in fact there will always be things wrong in your life. So you reduce your experience of being alive if you are only responding to the negative. Is that what you want out of life? Do you really want to delay your sense of being alive while you await a future, perfect moment that is unlikely to arrive?
a mind trained in mindfulness of gratitude will stay attuned far longer and note more details of that which is good.
Understand that there is a difference between discernment, the factor of mind that sees things clearly, and comparing mind, which exercises judgment and hides a belief system that says, "If only I have more of the right things, I will be happy." This is a false belief, of course, a mental habit really, but because it is unacknowledged and seldom examined, it holds enormous power in your life.
When you have a strong feeling of entitlement, you don't notice what is going well, but rather what is not right. It can stem from a sense of either having suffered unfairly or having been deprived. It can also arise from feeling special because you are smart, a hard worker, or successful. At the subtle level of mindfulness, this arrogance is a form of ignorance where these two truths of life are mixed together.
Learnt Not To
I am learning try not to comment so easily. In the past, I think we have the choice not to comment. However it is not the way. If we choose not to, we still have such thought. It is the same. Not to is what I need to do. No such want, then no need to choose. Free up.
工作,生活
朋友說工作只是他賺錢的途徑,我的看法是工作是生活的一部分。用什麼的態度對待工作,就能得到什麼。
生活是什麼呢?我認為是一天活得比一天好。
朋友的生活方式是下了班還比上班忙,可是忙什麼呢?不知道。
生活是什麼呢?我認為是一天活得比一天好。
朋友的生活方式是下了班還比上班忙,可是忙什麼呢?不知道。
課堂體驗
問了老師為何做triangle 的時候,膝的內側是扯著扯著的。老師說是我做對了。是嗎?老師解釋說是上下的肌肉對衡時產生的反應。
同學們問老師關於balance 的事宜,老師說這是sense 到與sense 不到的關係。他說我們步行的時候就有平衡,只是我們不察覺吧了。
有同學問怎樣維持動力,老師是想到死亡。我呢?也是老師的提點,就是沒有下次。
同學問關於呼吸,老師說暢順就好,沒有對與錯。要做yoga 的呼吸,是很高層次的東西。
老師說我們要走出去,接觸yoga 不可只在課堂裡。如果是的話,只是一般的運動。
做warrior I 的時候,大腿好像著了火。
很久也沒有做過warrior III,今天做起來很暢順,沒有想跌想跌的狀態。
flow,做得越來越好了。手手腳腳可以保持在相同位置上。
同學們問老師關於balance 的事宜,老師說這是sense 到與sense 不到的關係。他說我們步行的時候就有平衡,只是我們不察覺吧了。
有同學問怎樣維持動力,老師是想到死亡。我呢?也是老師的提點,就是沒有下次。
同學問關於呼吸,老師說暢順就好,沒有對與錯。要做yoga 的呼吸,是很高層次的東西。
老師說我們要走出去,接觸yoga 不可只在課堂裡。如果是的話,只是一般的運動。
做warrior I 的時候,大腿好像著了火。
很久也沒有做過warrior III,今天做起來很暢順,沒有想跌想跌的狀態。
flow,做得越來越好了。手手腳腳可以保持在相同位置上。
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Why Follow
People say this and you turn to right and people say that and you turn to left. Why you need to follow others?
Just open the eyes and see what we can see. I like this way.
Just open the eyes and see what we can see. I like this way.
Like Drunk
Last night went to karaoke. Didn't drink beer or wine. However I felt like drunk while going home. Feeling so tired as well.
I can say, work until 11pm won't feel tired but hanging out was.
I can say, work until 11pm won't feel tired but hanging out was.
Ok or Not
My friend asked whether it is ok to bend the back leg while doing warrior I. Hey guy, I am not intended to bend the leg. It was what I could do the best at this moment.
To me, his questions are alwasy funny. To him, it is normal.
Like the classmate asked teacher how to do better in the class. Teacher told her to have self warm up before the class would help. Sure need to practise more. One session one week sure not enough for improvement.
To me, his questions are alwasy funny. To him, it is normal.
Like the classmate asked teacher how to do better in the class. Teacher told her to have self warm up before the class would help. Sure need to practise more. One session one week sure not enough for improvement.
Feel Like at Home
Ate: home-made feel burger + coffee (HK$16 only) and Shanghai rice roll.
Want to eat wanton noodle but too many people waiting in front of the shop.
昨天吃了它的魚柳包,好好味道。也是雙醬。魚柳是下了單才炸的。拿著包,邊行邊吃,好滿足。
原來還有豬排包,要試。
Too Busy
The guy told us he was too busy to drink water. Really? First job first month, pls relax.
I told him he had time to run here and there but never got the work done. How to spend time is really an art.
Recall my 1st year of work, I was calm.
I told him he had time to run here and there but never got the work done. How to spend time is really an art.
Recall my 1st year of work, I was calm.
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
1 Year, 7 Years
Asking whether a point was in the checklist. Got the reply saying that the checklist was created one year ago and the point she mentioned about was firstly introduced 7 years ago.
Then???!!!
Then???!!!
Everywhere
SG colleague said she talked about A but the one listened treated it as B.
I asked the guy whether the email had been handled. He said there was nothing on his hand. Sure nothing as he didn't read the email.
Attended training and he said he could understand, however never applied what he learnt to work.
He strongly told me there was no error. Just random checked 3 records and all with error. Went through the checklist again but seem it was the first time he learnt it.
Ok! Told boss yesterday I would give him chance until probation review.
I asked the guy whether the email had been handled. He said there was nothing on his hand. Sure nothing as he didn't read the email.
Attended training and he said he could understand, however never applied what he learnt to work.
He strongly told me there was no error. Just random checked 3 records and all with error. Went through the checklist again but seem it was the first time he learnt it.
Ok! Told boss yesterday I would give him chance until probation review.
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Monday, November 17, 2008
Too Good ?!
invoice can be converted as requisition....
document seen as discount
one with currency issue..
another with incorrect documentation...
then 3rd one...wronly treat this customer as another one
told me he needed to off as too confuse..
what is confusing?
he doesn't make use of filter to choose what he needs
nothing happened but just he likes to invent by his own then created confusion
document seen as discount
one with currency issue..
another with incorrect documentation...
then 3rd one...wronly treat this customer as another one
told me he needed to off as too confuse..
what is confusing?
he doesn't make use of filter to choose what he needs
nothing happened but just he likes to invent by his own then created confusion
Sunday, November 16, 2008
課堂體驗
第一次被點名說我的身體是“鬆”的,被老師看到,很是高興。那時做著lying hero。
roll up,懂得用腹部的力量了。side twist,拉扯得強烈,很是舒服。
downward facing dog,沒有被老師糾正。
lying straight leg rolling,做得頗滿意。
日本人坐姿,老師說知道我們累了,可我沒有覺得累,可以坐得更久。
做了很多雙人式,很好。
兩人對站,曲膝,拉著對方的手,身體傾向後。站得不穩啊!以為是對方的力度,原來是自己過分用力。老師的提點,聽到的就有得著。
roll up,懂得用腹部的力量了。side twist,拉扯得強烈,很是舒服。
downward facing dog,沒有被老師糾正。
lying straight leg rolling,做得頗滿意。
日本人坐姿,老師說知道我們累了,可我沒有覺得累,可以坐得更久。
做了很多雙人式,很好。
兩人對站,曲膝,拉著對方的手,身體傾向後。站得不穩啊!以為是對方的力度,原來是自己過分用力。老師的提點,聽到的就有得著。
Sunday Yoga Class
Need to attend another sunday yoga class in next year. To experience something different is good.
11 Nov 08
老師又繼續開班了,不過有些日子會有代課導師。
11 Nov 08
老師又繼續開班了,不過有些日子會有代課導師。
想要的
朋友說想要錢。要幾多呢?好多好多。要這麼多錢來做什麼?!
人生裡,要的絕對不是錢。單是錢,不會為我們帶來快樂。
不知道要什麼,這才令我們不快樂,不滿足。
在不知道的狀態下,每每想要的都不切實際。
過分誇大自己的能力,以為能做到。為自己添來不必要的煩惱,多麼的無聊。
對於我來說,腳踏實地,最好。
朋友說yoga 不適合她,問她原因,原來是做著高難度動作而抽筋。沒話說,如果她相信自己的。總是不明白,人們為何要做著自己能力不及的事情呢?
其實她是對的,yoga 不適合她,她不知道什麼是yoga。
要在yoga 裡得益,絕對需要有正確的認知,就像學佛一樣。
他也一樣,想證實什麼的。yoga 何須任何人來證實?!它的幾千年文化,信不信由你。
人生裡,要的絕對不是錢。單是錢,不會為我們帶來快樂。
不知道要什麼,這才令我們不快樂,不滿足。
在不知道的狀態下,每每想要的都不切實際。
過分誇大自己的能力,以為能做到。為自己添來不必要的煩惱,多麼的無聊。
對於我來說,腳踏實地,最好。
朋友說yoga 不適合她,問她原因,原來是做著高難度動作而抽筋。沒話說,如果她相信自己的。總是不明白,人們為何要做著自己能力不及的事情呢?
其實她是對的,yoga 不適合她,她不知道什麼是yoga。
要在yoga 裡得益,絕對需要有正確的認知,就像學佛一樣。
他也一樣,想證實什麼的。yoga 何須任何人來證實?!它的幾千年文化,信不信由你。
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Forward Bend
我的forward bend 很有問題啊!九十度以後的動作就全變了樣。真的不看錄像不知道。
29 Nov 07
一年下來,進步了很多。懂拉長,可從盤骨開始,開始在內活動。這些,只是開始,會繼續努力。
29 Nov 07
一年下來,進步了很多。懂拉長,可從盤骨開始,開始在內活動。這些,只是開始,會繼續努力。
為何要在這裡
很好的一個問題,真誠回答自己就不會埋怨了。想拿到一些東西(終身受用的),當然需要過程而這過程並不會只遇上自己想要的東西,苦樂參半,本是老話。
付出的也會時常問自己為何要在這裡,沒有了這為何,什麼也做不出來了。
兩個活動,聽了以上的話兩遍。要成就一件事,真的不容易。開始何困難,是支持往後的耐心和動力。
付出者說是太上心了。不上心的事就像娛樂一般,看了享用了什麼也沒有了。
29 Nov 07
天使的話,多動聽。
那天碰到學員和她的媽媽,談著談著,像沒有離開過。“婆婆”般的我,對著學員也訓話一遍,嘻嘻!著她努力要聽話啊!
付出的也會時常問自己為何要在這裡,沒有了這為何,什麼也做不出來了。
兩個活動,聽了以上的話兩遍。要成就一件事,真的不容易。開始何困難,是支持往後的耐心和動力。
付出者說是太上心了。不上心的事就像娛樂一般,看了享用了什麼也沒有了。
29 Nov 07
天使的話,多動聽。
那天碰到學員和她的媽媽,談著談著,像沒有離開過。“婆婆”般的我,對著學員也訓話一遍,嘻嘻!著她努力要聽話啊!
身上最貴的東西

往後的日子﹐也收過另一只手錶﹐而是我還是喜歡這個。
我想﹐我不會再買手錶的了﹐因為我再也沒有發現過我喜歡的款式。
6 Jul 06
收拾東西的時候,被我發現這個,來一張照片把它成為一個回憶。
30 Nov 07
上班也不戴著它了。
後話:買過的東西,最貴的應該是南非鑽石。做過業主,不過自動放棄了權利。賣樓時,當事人一定賺了錢,當然一毫子也不會給我。對自己是這樣說了,住時的一切家居開支是我給的,就當不用交租。這樣,我就賺了。
一個人付著雙方的使用,也不是第一次了。不覺不公平,是願意的。寫出來,是有點想某人看到的。是討厭他看到而沒有反應。如果某天他跟我說沒有看到,沒有什麼。看到看不到,是他。
到了某天,就能自由地感受世界裡另外的東西了。多好。
生命
生命的意義是從感受而來的,能感應別人的情感是多麼大的得著。
身處一群跟我們有稍稍不同的人當中,大家的付出所構成的正面能量,多麼的強。他們不需要我們的同情,他們活得很好,很有自信又主動,他們擁有很多很多的愛。這些都是我們正常人慢慢放棄的東西。
我發覺,微笑的時間多了。原來身邊有著很多很多的天使是這種感覺的,天使就是擁有愛的力量的可愛人兒。
30 Nov 07
朋友總是從別人的不幸而感覺自己幸福。錯了,很錯。付出而獲得,是最最珍貴的。自小學六年級便要煮飯的我,沒有覺得苦。姐姐不懂煮飯是沒有辦法的。
同事們處理了別人遺留下來的爛攤子,跟他說這是學習的好機會,學習如何處理事情,這就是經驗。跟著程序做,誰不會?!當然有些人連跟著也做不好的。
身處一群跟我們有稍稍不同的人當中,大家的付出所構成的正面能量,多麼的強。他們不需要我們的同情,他們活得很好,很有自信又主動,他們擁有很多很多的愛。這些都是我們正常人慢慢放棄的東西。
我發覺,微笑的時間多了。原來身邊有著很多很多的天使是這種感覺的,天使就是擁有愛的力量的可愛人兒。
30 Nov 07
朋友總是從別人的不幸而感覺自己幸福。錯了,很錯。付出而獲得,是最最珍貴的。自小學六年級便要煮飯的我,沒有覺得苦。姐姐不懂煮飯是沒有辦法的。
同事們處理了別人遺留下來的爛攤子,跟他說這是學習的好機會,學習如何處理事情,這就是經驗。跟著程序做,誰不會?!當然有些人連跟著也做不好的。
離開是為了回來
曲 詞:林一峰
編:Edward Chan
明天就要飛走
朋友都輕鬆奉上祝福 旅途愉快
留低是個選擇 離開亦未算放開一切壓抑
如愛上一個人 一起上路
才驟覺尚有一些心野
行程未想好 起點經已太遠
人進進出出在我生命
季節更改幻變天地 歲月流過
遺憾若是放不下
仍可學習去感激得到過的
如放棄一個人 孤身上路
才驟覺尚有一些心軟
忙著讓傷口盡快風乾 沿路風光沒心機細看
明明是太軟弱 偏裝作硬朗
*倘若結束為了重新開始 乾掉了酒為了重新斟滿
旅途落泊 能讓記憶穩固 偶然下雨懷念陽光可愛
歡樂太短為了回憶千次 (倘若痛哭為了趁早解脫)
失掉瑰寶為了尋找安慰
我離別你全為太專心愛 怕忘掉了世間的色彩
離開 是為了回來
從機艙機望向跑道 迅速身處萬尺高空 我留下你
城市跟天空大概一樣 容納著敵友從不知道偏心
曾遇上幾個人 一心靠近
才驟覺尚有 一些心癮
離別再上路 不管遠或近 *
明天就要飛走
朋友都輕鬆奉上祝福 旅途愉快
10 Feb 08
聽著聽著,看著歌詞,想想,跟他一起超過十年的人,原來我並未曾恨過。當年的,只是為了錢銀上的安排,是那事件而已。
16 Feb 08
昨晚把所有的相簿也看了一遍,問自己為何相片的排列得這麼零碎。打開了一個盒子,問自己為何有這麼多的相片。原來!原來!把盒子裡的相片看了一次,有點回味,就好像看其他的照片一樣,也驚訝跟某些人在某些場合一起拍過照。原來!原來!很久的一段時間也沒有看過這些照片了。
那刻,很興奮,到了有點負荷不到的情況(可能誇張了),要自己冷靜下來。很快,人就靜下來了,可立即感到十分的低落。幸好,這些很快就消失了。
那刻,我有點怕(在感覺低落的時候),情緒會失控(不知道為何會這樣想的)。
原來!原來!感覺沒有欺騙過自己,口說出來以後,還需要時間將事情完全消融。真的是做到了。
雖然不是他令我完全走完這段路(很小的部分可卻是最重要的),可也要感謝他,是他的理解(我的答案不是人人都能明白,雖然很淺白,只得兩個字就把時空的轉換道了出來),是他的沒有多問。如果他一問,相信過程會不一樣。那條樓梯,有名人的歷史,也有我的。
17 Feb 08
聽著這歌,看了以上寫的,感受還很深。
天使的接觸,還有數次。沒有想過要珍惜什麼,因為每每都是投入的。
Just Do It
you incorporate one of the central tenets of the ancient Tantric teachings: unity between the physical and the spiritual. To cultivate this, reflect on the people who have helped you become open and fluid, as Vasistha may have done for his students. “Consider those who got you going on the path of yoga. Hold these people in your heart,” Friend says. “When you do that, and when you appreciate what you’ve been given, gratitude naturally arises. And when you want to honor your teachers and your mentors, performing the pose becomes about excellence and beauty—to show that you’ve learned."
講什麼也是廢話,做出來就是感謝。
新來的每每跟我說明白說知道,可一點也做不出來。我說不好再跟我說明白了,只是廢話。說他每每開空頭支票,要他學習承擔。
好簡單,但做不好
新來的(一個月了),說做的事情都好簡單(錯完又錯),說他的英文程度足夠應付。我對他說,他的英文程度根本應付不了工作。看都看不明白,寫簡單的兩句話也花上不知多少時間。
他如何想,不想介入。只希望他早早醒覺。以為自己很“醒”,帶著少爺脾氣來上班,做不長的。
他如何想,不想介入。只希望他早早醒覺。以為自己很“醒”,帶著少爺脾氣來上班,做不長的。
可升不跌
世界是這樣的嗎?只是半個巴仙,就說是衰退了。心態怎樣,看這事情就不一樣。
某天看舞蹈,坐在旁邊的人說,有了互聯網,回覆是即時的,人就閑不下來了。時間多了,可做的事情也跟著多了。
就像同事說要一個簡單的,給他的已經是最簡單的。還說不需要這般的複雜。他的世界不存在,不喜歡跟他交談。這個他就是男人。
某天看舞蹈,坐在旁邊的人說,有了互聯網,回覆是即時的,人就閑不下來了。時間多了,可做的事情也跟著多了。
就像同事說要一個簡單的,給他的已經是最簡單的。還說不需要這般的複雜。他的世界不存在,不喜歡跟他交談。這個他就是男人。
Friday, November 14, 2008
Advise
Colleague told me a few people in the department saying I treat the guy bad. I don't care. If they were in my position, they would understand.
I said how come those saying the guy was poor not helping him to preform.
If there is no need to approve each piece of his work, I sure don't have chance to blame him.
I told the guy today I were too "long air" as a "po po". While saying those, I really "no air".
Discovering there are errors, asking him to check piece by piece carefully. When I review the 3rd one, ERROR. What to check? To ensure the address is correct.
Today, he starts to lose temper.
I still have two months to practise, staying calm :)
I said how come those saying the guy was poor not helping him to preform.
If there is no need to approve each piece of his work, I sure don't have chance to blame him.
I told the guy today I were too "long air" as a "po po". While saying those, I really "no air".
Discovering there are errors, asking him to check piece by piece carefully. When I review the 3rd one, ERROR. What to check? To ensure the address is correct.
Today, he starts to lose temper.
I still have two months to practise, staying calm :)
Experiment
There are questions I always ask "why he doesn't give me a call? why he doesn't provide a response". When I think about it, sure is unhappy.
Actually the call itself to me is not important. I am near to exist from the emotion I created for myself :)
Actually the call itself to me is not important. I am near to exist from the emotion I created for myself :)
Retire
When I have HKD1M to buy a flat (Tin Shiu Wai also ok) and have enough cash for living (no need too much), then I can retire.
Luck
I told the guy don't know whether it is luck or not luck for him to have a superior liked me. I treat him as adult but he just acts like a kid. Always tell him it is his choice of his behaviour. The job is his job. Whether able to keep it, all depends on himself.
I asked him something and he provided me an answer. The answer to him is correct but not to me as he is not answering my question. While I am asking, he is thinking as well. End up don't know what I have asked.
I asked him something and he provided me an answer. The answer to him is correct but not to me as he is not answering my question. While I am asking, he is thinking as well. End up don't know what I have asked.
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Again
Today I heard another person saying to fire the guy. He is here one month. Sure will give him another 2 months to demonstrate his ability.
Just Say it Out
Chat with a colleague saying I am going to do something simple to automate the process (newly acquired job). She told me she had something in mind.
Wow! Give her a big hug.
We should work happily next week :)
Wow! Give her a big hug.
We should work happily next week :)
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
BiLiBaLa
Say what with 15 years of experience. If she can solve the issue, just give us a solution. Don't blah blah blah.
Two months to complete four months task, what does she expect more?
Really thank to the 11 months rest. Give me a chance to have a totally new way to see this world.
Two months to complete four months task, what does she expect more?
Really thank to the 11 months rest. Give me a chance to have a totally new way to see this world.
What
To check......check what?
Go to....to where?
understand....understood what?
Above is part of the conversation with the guy.
Go to....to where?
understand....understood what?
Above is part of the conversation with the guy.
Monday, November 10, 2008
Sunday, November 9, 2008
第一口的咖啡,熱度不夠。喝完沒有滿足感。不過喜歡咖啡掛在杯邊的景象。
本來想買麥記的,然後坐在露天的地方曬太陽,可是風大,都是免了。
《鯨魚背上的欲望》
明天看,應該好看。
有關報導:
從孤寂裡尋找自身的慾望
《鯨魚》令觀眾置身文字迷宮
8 Nov 08
整個劇只有兩個角色,可有六個人演出。賣家買家,我是買家。
一開始,臺詞念著這個世界沒有不公平。同意的。總是覺得,沒有覺得不公平,是前世(可能是幾世)修回來的。要感恩。
整個劇都是對白,這就是我喜歡看的戲劇。記得的臺詞沒有太多,應該說沒有一句話能記得,不過言語間所表達的,都吸收了。
一些未能解答的現象,好像找到了答案。賣家就是賣家,他們做不了買家。相反可以嗎?認為可以。
突然間想,是誰引領我走進戲劇世界。是我自己。
賣家們沒有把東西賣出卻要求買家付款,有點無賴。喜歡買家們對賣家的質問。
賣家們說他們可以滿足買家的欲望,可是他們有的是什麼呢?買家們很坦白,說不知道自己想要的是什麼。
現在想,整個故事,是否自己對自己的內心對話?!
梁菲倚的肢體動作很美,她唸對白的方式令人注意。
看罷這劇,沒覺沉重。看的是事實,不需要問原因。
全劇只有兩個人在對話:「買家」和「賣家」。他們在城市街角一隅相遇,展開36段彷彿互相對應,又互不相干的對話。一方內心潛藏神秘欲望連自己有所欲求亦不自知,一方擁有神秘貨品但堅決拒絕透露貨品為何;一方需要買,一方需要賣,但無論雙方如何以奇詭的言詞、隱喻的象徵,溫柔的軟語和狂暴的怒吼,皆無法穿透對方的內心秘密。
有關報導:
從孤寂裡尋找自身的慾望
《鯨魚》令觀眾置身文字迷宮
8 Nov 08
整個劇只有兩個角色,可有六個人演出。賣家買家,我是買家。
一開始,臺詞念著這個世界沒有不公平。同意的。總是覺得,沒有覺得不公平,是前世(可能是幾世)修回來的。要感恩。
整個劇都是對白,這就是我喜歡看的戲劇。記得的臺詞沒有太多,應該說沒有一句話能記得,不過言語間所表達的,都吸收了。
一些未能解答的現象,好像找到了答案。賣家就是賣家,他們做不了買家。相反可以嗎?認為可以。
突然間想,是誰引領我走進戲劇世界。是我自己。
賣家們沒有把東西賣出卻要求買家付款,有點無賴。喜歡買家們對賣家的質問。
賣家們說他們可以滿足買家的欲望,可是他們有的是什麼呢?買家們很坦白,說不知道自己想要的是什麼。
現在想,整個故事,是否自己對自己的內心對話?!
梁菲倚的肢體動作很美,她唸對白的方式令人注意。
看罷這劇,沒覺沉重。看的是事實,不需要問原因。
課堂體驗
今天的經歷很複雜,能專心做動作,可也有很多的雜念。不太聽到老師的話,腦袋盛了很多東西。過程中,人累累的。
是否朋友的課堂體驗就是這樣?!
知道自己能清醒過日,不是今天也不知道清醒能力是何等的高。不累是有原因的。累也是有原因的。
肚子有點不舒服,也因為此,確實知道自己能用上腹部的力量。
是否朋友的課堂體驗就是這樣?!
知道自己能清醒過日,不是今天也不知道清醒能力是何等的高。不累是有原因的。累也是有原因的。
肚子有點不舒服,也因為此,確實知道自己能用上腹部的力量。
So Tired
Very sleepy after class. Although I drink a cup of coffee (just to kill time), almost can fall asleep while on the way to theater. Once I reach the theater, I am totally awake. Amazing!
Saturday, November 8, 2008
When We Were a Baby
When we were a baby, we just need milk and water, sure with mother's love. How come now we want so much?????
好慘!生存在世,爸爸卻不提我一句。為一個還未到一歲的小朋友說的。
好慘!生存在世,爸爸卻不提我一句。為一個還未到一歲的小朋友說的。
How Long, So What
Friend told me a manager works in a company for 13 years might get fired. Reason was he did something wrong that causing the company to lose millions of dollars.
If that is really the reason, no surprise.
I told him a boss wanted to ask you out could have many reasons, no matter you did or didn't do something wrong. To be frank, who doesn't make a mistake or an error in the work.
If that is really the reason, no surprise.
I told him a boss wanted to ask you out could have many reasons, no matter you did or didn't do something wrong. To be frank, who doesn't make a mistake or an error in the work.
Eyesight
The guy needs to take the paper near his face to read what the words are, nearly 6 inches. I asked him whether he worn contact lens. Not answer me directly. I told him to have a pair of glasses during this weekend.
Apparently I am so controlling. Yes I am. Cannot see things how to do things???!!!
Apparently I am so controlling. Yes I am. Cannot see things how to do things???!!!
Friday, November 7, 2008
Helpful
Helpful means after providing the assistance, don't expect anything back (even just thank you).
Thursday, November 6, 2008
Don't Know then Don't Know
Keep on asking from yesterday to today, the work is still cannot be completed. I always ask direct whether is due to don't know how to do. And always cannot get a direct answer. I told the guy if he said don't know then it was fine, I could teach again. However as if don't know but don't ask, sure get blame.
The guy asked why the system was so slow. I told him how did I know, I was not IT person. He is just a child, thinking I know everything. Nearly 9pm, I asked him back home.
Today I give him a piece of paper full of data. Ask him to do the data entry. He crosses out the line once he does it. Wow! I need that paper back. Never see a person doing like that.
The guy asked why the system was so slow. I told him how did I know, I was not IT person. He is just a child, thinking I know everything. Nearly 9pm, I asked him back home.
Today I give him a piece of paper full of data. Ask him to do the data entry. He crosses out the line once he does it. Wow! I need that paper back. Never see a person doing like that.
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Ha......
What we are doing now is correct. So glad I made the changes in the right way. When I changed it, I didn't get approval from anyone but I informed boss and regional office about this. They didn't say anything.
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
A Little Kid
My friend told me he would band the table and leave immediately when he knew the head count had been freeze (if happened last week). Today he just held his emotion (not meant he doesn't have that emotion).
He was just a little kid. No one needs to be laid off is already luck.
And I am not surprised anymore for his kid's behaviour (bad emotion). He learns from his father.
He keeps on pretending he has made a change. Sorry, he didn't.
He was just a little kid. No one needs to be laid off is already luck.
And I am not surprised anymore for his kid's behaviour (bad emotion). He learns from his father.
He keeps on pretending he has made a change. Sorry, he didn't.
The Market is Bad
Received a lot of application letters. They have good academic background however they just asked for a low offer. Some of them come from insurance company or security company.
Monday, November 3, 2008
Long Air
Told the new guy that I am such a "long air" person. He starts to understand what is work and knowing why making mistakes. It is a good start.
Not So Easy to be Affected
Boss worried that the team members are being affected. From my observation, they are not.
Gossip is gossip, just childish. If the management were so bad, then it were lucky to leave early. Not???!!!
Gossip is gossip, just childish. If the management were so bad, then it were lucky to leave early. Not???!!!
時間性
那晚看舞,坐在我旁的兩個男人,說著一些我有興趣的東西,他們講養生講時空。有一點特別注意到,說為何一些事情一些人能明白能信是因為時間性的影響,說我們不是常活在同一個時空裡。
我信,但不好問我為何。我不知道。
我信,但不好問我為何。我不知道。
跟外甥女說BB
乘地鐵的時候,被人摸pat pat 呀!嘻嘻!是一個日本嬰兒。我跟她(應該是女仔)拉拉手,走的時候跟她拜拜(當然是媽媽幫她啦)。回家跟外甥女說這事,她問我有沒有跟BB 拉手,有啊有啊!問外甥女知道不知道日本人是誰,告訴她“花師奶”啦!
問她是什麼人,她回答中國。
問她是什麼人,她回答中國。
Sunday, November 2, 2008
計畫
計畫什麼?明天吃什麼。當然要吃麵,因為明年開始不在灣仔附近上課了,不能一個星期吃一次有機會消失的東西(師傅不做就沒得吃的了,換了人做味道就不一樣)。有幾樣東西想吃,就交給電車吧!乘哪就在哪買東西回公司吃。
是啊!要加班。
這個星期到了兩次池記,昨晚也想去的(十點人少嗎)。問自己為何喜歡到那裡(不便宜的),細心吃麵(沒了菜飯,轉吃薑蔥麵),其實沒有什麼味道的,要靠調味。湯也不清甜。坐也不是太舒服,逼逼的。知道了,我是為了那辣醬而去的。
燉湯燒味飯加價了。想喝豬肺湯,賣完,喝西洋菜。
昨天下午,到了可能是新開的茶餐廳(網上查不到資料),味道不錯,炒飯不油,凍咖啡好好喝。廚房速度慢了些,要有點耐性。
1 Nov 08
吃了麵,來了這裡買雞蛋仔。印象中比北角的好吃。
是啊!要加班。
這個星期到了兩次池記,昨晚也想去的(十點人少嗎)。問自己為何喜歡到那裡(不便宜的),細心吃麵(沒了菜飯,轉吃薑蔥麵),其實沒有什麼味道的,要靠調味。湯也不清甜。坐也不是太舒服,逼逼的。知道了,我是為了那辣醬而去的。
燉湯燒味飯加價了。想喝豬肺湯,賣完,喝西洋菜。
昨天下午,到了可能是新開的茶餐廳(網上查不到資料),味道不錯,炒飯不油,凍咖啡好好喝。廚房速度慢了些,要有點耐性。
1 Nov 08
吃了麵,來了這裡買雞蛋仔。印象中比北角的好吃。
課堂體驗
老師說yoga is working。work 唔work,自己一定知道。
做sun salutation 的時候,終於跟到老師的節奏了。出了微微的汗。
用手踭支撐著做boat,也很辛苦。腳和肚也在震。
做sun salutation 的時候,終於跟到老師的節奏了。出了微微的汗。
用手踭支撐著做boat,也很辛苦。腳和肚也在震。
Saturday, November 1, 2008
《原、迷月、虛凝之間》荷蘭舞蹈劇場
舞蹈家及舞評人楊春江便形容這是「本地觀眾真的要感恩」的一次重要演出。
好期待啊!
12 Oct 08
A very good show.
Tonight is the last show. If not, I might buy ticket to watch it again.
刻意不看場刊,看看自己能看到幾多。頭兩節,看到編舞所想帶出的(第三節還沒有讀文章)。
最後的一節的黑白舞臺,讓我想到的是白色出現在黑色中是亮麗,黑色出現在白色中是礙眼。
看著舞者身體的擺動,很多都能看到力從那裡出發。一些自己能做得來的(當然做得不好),有共鳴。
第一節,舞者們的關節是360 度的。佩服。
三塊板,三個空間。很有壓迫感,問了一條問題,為何我們要為這小小的空間付出那麼多。指幾百萬的樓價。
25 Oct 08
本想繼續寫看後感,看著特刊,居然忘記了第二幕,什麼也想不起來。
慢慢的,浮現了一個景象,舞臺上降下了綠色還是橙色的燈,很像伊甸園。
四個男三個女,男的表現比較溫柔。七個人中,最吸引我的是那東方臉孔舞者。原來他是日本人。
看得到,看不到
就是因為看得到看不到而浪費了時間,有的可以看不到。其實這些都可以自動化的。
只是按四個鈕(又不是接觸不到),就得到想得的,可是卻要人來做,又寫電郵又要等。不介意做,只是為他人想不麻煩的嗎?!
只是按四個鈕(又不是接觸不到),就得到想得的,可是卻要人來做,又寫電郵又要等。不介意做,只是為他人想不麻煩的嗎?!
笑死
不是有心笑人,而是真的太無知。跟我說物理治療師幫人做手術。
問他同一個問題幾次,答案只是其中的選一,他的永遠不在選擇當中。我會繼續問。
聽得不明白跟我說沒事,不明白就是不明白,一定要弄清楚。同一個問題,可以用不同方式來問,不好背書。
跟他說我很“串”,要他想想為何我可以這麼“串”。又跟他說不是對人人這樣的。
問他同一個問題幾次,答案只是其中的選一,他的永遠不在選擇當中。我會繼續問。
聽得不明白跟我說沒事,不明白就是不明白,一定要弄清楚。同一個問題,可以用不同方式來問,不好背書。
跟他說我很“串”,要他想想為何我可以這麼“串”。又跟他說不是對人人這樣的。
I am Accountant?!
How come I need to give advise to accountants on how to settle the accounting issues? AP, AR, GL and reporting team.....all come.
FC in regional chases me for something. We have done it. They have a bad habit to blame others before checking whether they have done the proper. I don't mind spending time to find out the things for them. It is my pleasure. Able to help is always fine.
Some people keep on to comment your suggested is not good but never recommend. Ok, they talk to boss and got same result. Don't mind others won't believe me, just glad that I know what is happening.
FC in regional chases me for something. We have done it. They have a bad habit to blame others before checking whether they have done the proper. I don't mind spending time to find out the things for them. It is my pleasure. Able to help is always fine.
Some people keep on to comment your suggested is not good but never recommend. Ok, they talk to boss and got same result. Don't mind others won't believe me, just glad that I know what is happening.