Friday, October 31, 2008

Man

This guy is really stupid. He gave me a file yesterday containing last week data. Ask me to check the current situation for him. No way. I have done alot and the checking is so meaningless. He told me there may have half day discrepancy. Oh! No. 3days, more than 3 days.

When to Stop

SHE: Do you know when to STOP?
HE: Today!

So good an answer is.

I repeat the word "today". She is so childish, don't know what our boss is aiming at. Her 3 minutes work may count as so much dollars.

Thursday, October 30, 2008

Lost

Friend is always feeling lost. It is because he chases for something which is not exist for itself. Sure, how to ask the sun to raise from the west? He misunderstood that peace is something that can be set as target. No, never. I doubt Budda can be as peace as always. Then......

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

二選一

已經告訴他選錯了,還要問我哪對。

有feeder 不用,逐張逐張紙在影印。
一份文件每頁也打上時間記錄。
問他把工作全做完沒有,回答做完,跟著又說還有一些。
問他別人寫的是什麼,回答可能是這可能是那。
人家沒有說過不用收費,他卻跟我說相反的。

好想跟他說不好穿西裝上班了,害了他。只得空殼。

耶穌13門徒(秋天版)

心情好,買了票。
12 Oct 08

沒有看過聖經,有時侯會看得糊裡糊塗。一人分飾幾角,起初也不知誰是誰。

喜歡白布黑布的一幕,四個人拿著布所帶來的變化。不知道人走在布上的感覺是如何?

演出中出現了兩段舞蹈,不是不好看,而是不需要。或者可以問問有關人士所要帶出的是什麼。

看著他們的身體,感覺是挑戰自己。一把年紀了,身體的動作都是練習回來的,當中有幾多的痛呢?

導演也在觀眾席上看。

為離開而離開,說找尋夢想卻不知甚麼是自己的夢想,最終營營役役,不斷攀著同一座山。

看著男演員爬爬爬,看著問著,何時才停止。

場刊裡導演的話:

故事要遇上知音人才會說話

很喜歡這話。

在舞臺上,我看的不是故事(如要看故事,看故事書好了),看到是一些訊息。

明明是認識卻說著不認識。自己也經歷過類似的事情,現在心情如何,早放下了。別人對自己不好,還記著為什麼?!

謝傲霜《耶穌13門徒》

突然想起朋友,他說他現在愛他的父親(不知道他說的愛是什麼的愛),可是卻抵消不了過往的怨恨。除非,他被原諒。喜歡時去恨,喜歡時去愛,有這麼便宜的嗎?!
26 Oct 08

今次的黑布白布安排及交織,便有力地呈現到反覆質問自己或別人的混亂情況,

準時下班

第一次。

Alignment

You may be surprised to discover how much easier a pose becomes once you improve your alignment. Even if that doesn't happen, it's important to learn proper alignment so you don't fall into bad habits, overworking the places that are already strong or flexible and underworking those that are weak or tight.

Upset

Friend told me he was very upset due to company needs not to buy a replacement for SMS sending.

Don't understand why he needs to be upset. Today still have a job is really blessing.

He has so much energy to be wasted.

Maybe I am the type of person not aiming to wait for resources to settle issue. I will find a workaround to make thing doing in an effective way.

Today the part time handed in the resignation. This really impacts the team productivity. However there is nothing I need to have the emotion. I join the company when the situation was the worst, nothing can be more serious.

念經

很久也沒有念《心經》,平靜的氛圍。

明白

老是說著明白,就是不明白。真的明白,就能表達出來,不需要刻意說明白。

回應

回應別人,其實在回應自己。

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

隱約

地點:藝術中心

等入場時拍的。











拍完地面拍天花板。












跟著拍牆。

習慣

習慣是要培養的,於別人的提醒而不行動,永遠也一樣,不變。

隨緣

一位年輕人去拜訪一位禪師,恭敬地問:「如何才能令自己快樂,同時又能令別人也快樂呢?」

禪師微笑對他說:「孩子,你有這樣的想法已經是很難得了。有很多比你年長的人,從他們提問的問題本身就可以看出,不管怎樣給他們解釋,都不可能使他們真正明白人生的意義,只好隨緣了。」

Not Follow

Told the guy let me to coach him to do each task for the first time. Not follow then created errors. Nothing I want to say. Good luck to him!

More Tasks

Need to take up more tasks. It is a good sign. My position is secured.

Similar, need to look after a few systems.

Monday, October 27, 2008

繼續被罵

跟新同事說不明白為何總是不跟著程序來做。

別話:男人都傻傻的,老闆要他把事情分辨開來,跟他說一個檔案有機會發生所有的事,他說這即是用銀碼來歸納,以大為據。費事跟他說,他究竟知道不知道product line 這回事?!

好可能,明天老闆要我看一遍。

時間

媽媽已經沒了時間觀念,說什麼也說成是昨天。我們已經慣了。

快落,快樂

如果事情要這樣發生的話,過程變得快些會好些。

Sunday, October 26, 2008

課堂體驗

被老師說我“偷懶”,那時利用bar 做著standing single leg forward bend。他看到我的身體還可以做多一點,是可以的。

roll up,老師說不要用頸的力,而是用腹部。知道是知道,做不做到是另一回事。

老師提醒,呼氣的時候要放鬆,而肚臍是要往下壓的。知道是知道,可做不做到又是另一個故事。

I Say It Once Again

Friend S, pls stop to guess what happened to me (or pls open wide of your eyes to read what I wrote). It is so tiring to tell what you are seeing incorrectly. I feel abit disgusting towards him.

You talk about rest. How do you know I didn't have rest? I rest daily, have good sleep.

Go to work on Sat., it is fine. I went out to search for snacks and it was so fun to do so. Working may not be tiring and I never feel tire in this job.

I think you never can understand. You watch a movie is relax, to me it is not. To you, work is a source of the stress. To me, it is not.

Saturday, October 25, 2008

Hot Dog

Have hot dog from this small shop, old style.

800K USD

What I can say is......crazy!

Nice Coffee

This morning I have a glass of very nice iced coffee. The hot coffee is not good, lucky I give a try on iced one.

The service of the restaurant (actually is "cha can ting") is not good and I need to wait for the food to come but it is ok. I am not in rush.

P.S. Go to Toast Box at around 10pm. Black coffee is sold out.

聽得明,但不懂做

是我跟老闆說的話。遇到這位老闆,真幸運。

無聊

又是無聊的談話,說的又是一樣的事情。空空洞洞,沒有聽過一句關心話。用我看不明白的哩語,懶得想是什麼意思。

加班

明天要加班,可快快樂樂回去的;同事也一樣。好幸運能有兩位好同事(好“自動波”的),看著他們,自己也不會懶下來。

明晚看舞,期待。

地鐵裡的 Mountain Pose

終於可以做到把大腿肌肉拉長。

Friday, October 24, 2008

鬧劇

近來金融的發展,感覺是鬧劇。沒了興趣追看新聞,好好享受生活。

一口釘

因為一口釘,新來的被我嘮叨了超過十五分鐘。我問他他不把釘除去,想誰來做。那個人就是我。不是嗎?

這個小朋友,連成本利潤也不懂,讀什麼書呀!日日穿“老西”上班,越顯得他是“細路”。

負數

男人居然為老闆做了一個全負數的簡報,沒有可能的。成績這樣,全部人被炒的了。他究竟知道不知道自己在做什麼?!

今天又為老闆“揾數”了。

一路聽老闆跟人說話,拿了她的珍寶珠,吃著吃著。

Self

The feeling that something is wrong is actually a signal. At the deepest level, it's a direct communication from our authentic Self. If we can catch our feelings when they first arise—before we start to assign blame, find fault, or judge—they will often give us the information we need to understand any situation. Not only that, but when we acknowledge feelings of discomfort without trying to escape them, we automatically put ourselves back in touch with our authentic Self, which is the source of real discernment.

Give Up Ego

可以的嗎?沒有可能的。

怎樣知道

朋友時常問怎樣知道,告訴他學會了自然會知道。他的問題沒有答案的,因為不需要。

Preview

Is it really difficult to preview a piece of work? The new guy passed me a document but the task had not been started yet. If he took preview as important, sure no such thing happened.

I asked the guy whether he has friends or relatives whom are working. Seem no. No surprise he acts like child. A very little child.

I told him if he could face the pressure I gave him, he might stay.

Thursday, October 23, 2008

幫老闆“搵數”(沒了兩小時工作),還有一些是不對的。男人,被炒定的了。

老闆聽我講解,然後說話,我說聽不明白(會計的東西我是不明白的),她說她跟自己說話(可愛)。

今天聽到,他講話是有正常速度的。平時他說話的時候總是慢人半拍的。

菜飯

只有白飯,走人。

智慧

我們必須能明善惡,辨是非,廣學多聞。從聽經聞法中,多聞思修,自我體證,自我修持,即是修慧。星雲大師說:「有智慧的人,對於任何事物都有正確的認識與了解,『別人看到外,我看到內;別人看到相,我看到理;別人知道點,我知道面。』這就是智慧。」

四正勤

四正勤在實修方面占有很重要的地位,一般修行人容易「知而不行」、或是「說得到但卻做不到」。而四正勤就是要「劍及履及」,知道就要去做,說到就要做到。修行要有魄力。

勇猛精進用功數年而退失道心,有四大原因:

沒有找到正法、沒有找到真正的解脫道。
急於找法門修行,但聞思不足,浮而無根。
用功方法不當,又未得善知識的協助。
我慢梗阻作祟,不願虛心求教、學習。

溝通

朋友說跟自己談話感覺困難,那麼跟他談的人更辛苦啦!

阿媽

老闆叫我帶仔仔女女去吃免費午飯,做了阿媽。

要求高

說對食物的要求很高,說香港沒有東西好吃。“細路”,吃過幾多啊?!這位小孩子,一天被我罵幾回的。說了不許寫那麼多東西在帳單上,居然越寫越多。告訴我事後會擦掉。大哥,你在浪費小組的生產力啊!聽過的事情,不寫下,然後胡亂拼貼,當然又被我罵了。讀書的時候是這樣的嗎?!連自己部門的同事做什麼也不清楚,就想著別的部門。好高騖遠啊!更有趣的是,不用公司的共同語言,而創作其他的。佩服。他說感覺自己像“薯仔”,差點想說,你不聰明啦!美國變了菲律賓,莫斯科變成英國,真不知道他如何找出來的。

我知,他怕我。另外兩位同事跟他不一樣啊!他們是差不多年紀的人,表現很不一樣。

Knowing but No Change

The new guy says he knows what is going wrong with him. However there is no change. He thinks the task is easy. Sure it isn't. Not pay attention to training and end up mix up the concept.
 
I told him he has alot of bad habits and he must change them.
 
Scold him alot in these few days. He is too proud of himself but sure his ability is not ok.

Yoga

“Yoga is to block the modifications of the mind.”

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

To Be

what makes this a meditative practice is that you are not analyzing your motivations or intentions; you are not interpreting or judging. You are simply shifting your attention from self-centered thinking to seeing things as they are

給朋友的。我認為這就是to be。

30 Oct 07

一年了,不知道朋友的to be 練習如何。

我的最好

Life is a process of acceptance, accommodation, and adjustment, then marching forward with head held high. The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything, but make the best of everything that comes their way.

Do not subscribe to the theory that enlightenment is a goal. It is only the side effect of developing qualities in yourself and leading a balanced life.

我的最好﹐並不是世界上最好的東西﹐而是我的能力範圍的最好。能夠發現我的最好﹐已經是人生一大樂事。不強求﹐不勉強﹐快樂也。

31 Oct 06

保持現在的,心滿意足。

十年前的今天

我在三藩市的灣區。記得坐酒店的車到機場,再乘一美金一程的巴士到市區。也記得回程的時候,錯誤上了同名不同地點的酒店車,再一次到了機場。

也記得,回香港後,感覺損失了三個星期,有一段空白了的時光。也因為此,很多事情變得不一樣。其實,那三個星期在美國發生的事情,到現在還記得清清楚楚。空白,是香港的一切。

21 Oct 07

空白的感覺又來了,知道是事情改變的時候了。好肯定。

厲害

還沒有在香港出現原來已經上了班,要給老闆一個五。

樂觀?!

朋友說我樂觀,不覺得,只是接受現實;況且又不用擔心生活,愁什麼?!

我說

朋友:為何他們總不肯改過來?
我:你的,改過來沒有?
朋友:沒有。
我:我好肯定,你的改過來,他們的也會變得不同。
22 Oct 07

朋友的,改了形式繼續他的舊模式。

厭棄

新來的同事,感覺他對某些工作有點厭棄。不明白為何他要穿西裝上班,老闆都不穿套裝的,我穿的也很隨便。

跟同事說,他做的我也做,不知道他想做什麼。

時常問我某份文件怎樣處理,說了要從基本開始。還沒有聽完我們說整個過程,就大大聲說好容易。

年輕人,多多壁等他碰。

2 Sentences

A concept that I can explain it in 2 sentences, however Beijing colleage said she needed coming to HK to have a face to face session.

Strong

This is one of the words that senior management wrote to me. 82% better than last year same month :)

It is always to do something with value to feel good.

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Dinner

Dinner here, food is great.

有感

回到家,聽到電視節目裡的兩句話“我們不是少吵了,是連說話的機會也沒有”。講話的是男方。

吃得爽了

午飯時跟老闆說已經不太計較食物的平貴,反正一天一百一個月才三千元。老闆問這樣吃爽了,日後搬寫字樓怎辦。沒有所謂的,吃回飯盒我可以。

To Learn at the Moment

這是我近來愛講的話。要改立即改,想學當刻學。學會學不會,不在考慮之列。

Monday, October 20, 2008

Start, Stop & Maintain

To start is easy. To stop is easy too. To maintain is not.

Don't Know

Boss asked me to teach her how to settle the issue. I said if I knew then I did it already. They want a figure but it is not reasonable.

對話

話,沒有喜歡不喜歡。能說就說,應說就說。

Sunday, October 19, 2008

聚,離

離離合合,也不會傷感了。看得太多,體驗太多。
都是那一句,珍惜。
與其抱怨,倒不如用那些時間來發現。

呼吸

朋友總是相信因為是緊張,所以呼吸短淺。不是的,是不懂呼吸。很喜歡望著(活動的)跟著做。

Hips

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Roll Up

是捲上來的,手踭要打開(圖中的示範有很多可以改善的地方)。老師要我們用手捉著腳腕,可以啊!

source of the picture

吃了麵和紅豆沙(想吃炸魚皮,不過一個人吃不完的),還想吃,買了鴨舌,一個人吃了四両,然後喝了咖啡。

課堂體驗

被老師用手在前腹後背推了一下,知道發生了什麼事,顧得雙手,身體就懶下來了。warrior II,還需要更多的時間去練習。

wided leg forward bend,身體一點也下不去;不過雙腿好像多了點力量。

tree pose,舉起手來拉長身體,好穩定。

cross legs lying twist,拉到肩膀的某條肌肉,舒服。

Shoulder Rotator

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News

Talked with ex-colleage, she told me there would be something bad happened in the senior management group. It is so tired to hear all of them. God bless them! Good luck to my ex-boss. Really don't want her to be bad as she has 2 small kids to look after.

No More Yoga Class

Teacher doesn't teach on sunday. We have 8 classes to go. A classmate said she was sad, teacher said no need to be sad. I told them my plan and teacher gave me a smile.

It is not a surprise knowing teacher doesn't go on to teach. He has his dream to be come true.

I am lucky enough to learn with him for 2 years. And it is time for me to explore more.

Warrior II

開始感受到什麼才是warrior II,不知道那些肌肉還沒有準備好(應該是腋下附近的)。

source of the picture

Four Limb Staff Pose

怪不得做不到,根本沒有這個概念。懂收不懂張開。

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還有這裡,也是沒有利用到的。

等,停

不去等的方法,就是停下來(指心)。或者,這就是答案。

把這刻記住。

There is a Message Telling You

Depends whether you have the ability to read it. Like a child, he is keeping on to say Mami until there is a response.

Saturday, October 18, 2008

醒覺

人一旦自我醒覺,就能自愛,自動,自發;能展現他的人生,喜歡自己,肯定自己。人的醒覺能力一經引發,就能看清事理,了解事物的真相;能不斷從舊經驗中前瞻新知,用清新的眼光去看週遭的事物,令自己心智不斷地增長,走出自己的路。每一個人一旦了解自己,接納自己,實現自己,這樣才會有腳踏實地的人生。如果不能依照自己的“本來面目”去生活,無異就是否定自己,而導致生活的潰敗及精神上的困擾與煩惱。

腳踏實地(說腳啊),幸好有老師的提醒,慢慢改善中。yoga 練習有一個好處,就是別人看到自己看不到的。

人生的路是由自己走出來的,不是老師或父母指定的,更不是命運安排的。因此,教育必須培養學生創造人生,而不是替他安排人生。

我們今天想要過一種怎樣心境的生活?它的因緣條件不在於外在的各種境遇,而在於我們的方寸之內這顆心。因為外在眾多的因緣條件是在我們的掌握與預知之外,只有這顆心,我們可以藉由轉變我們的人生觀與生活態度,來改變它在面對生活時的心境。

乘車回家的時候,聽著許冠傑的歌,想著想著世界發生著的一切,突然有種幸福的厚重感走出來。我們這些年代的人,看著經濟起飛(試過加人工20%;也試過因人事關係,沒有人工加),沒有經歷過戰爭。經濟倒退,也不奇怪了。不可能一世人都享盡好處的。

活在當下,不好讓自己有後悔的機會,發生什麼事情也能接受了。

走長一點的路雖然會累一點,吃多一點苦,卻是唯一最快到達目的地的方法。

想起被朋友批評我走冤枉路,何有呢?知道走的是什麼路,是得著,是學習。人生路上遇過的好人壞人衰人,對我來說,都是令我成長的。很多事情還記得清楚,珍惜這些記憶。

一早,吃了番茄麵、檸蜜脆脆和喝了鹹檸七,很酸。

本來到蓮香喝茶的,要等位,轉地方。

我小氣

那“男人”也加班,跟我說了一句話,不想跟他談。說我小氣也好什麼也好,溝通不了的人,多說無益。

他:有嘢整呀?
我:不是呀!(心裡想,沒有東西做回來做什麼,廢話)

蕎頭,好好吃,雖然貴一點(HK$27),不過覺得合理。話梅已經去核,沒有糖精,十元一小袋。辣醬不是的出品,網上看過有人說好吃,買來試試。今晚用雞舔來吃。

同事買了豉油和麻油。阿叔不讓她買腐乳,說帶不回大馬,會碎的。

跟同事說,這些有心的食品,有得買就好買來吃。師傅不做的時候,有錢都買不到。

扎蹄

了有蝦子的,好味道。還買了薏米餅,爸爸說好吃(甜甜粉粉的)。燕窩糕,同事買了請我吃的。

令人討厭

不明白為何朋友總是喜歡猜,猜什麼?事情是怎樣就是怎樣。想知道,問一聲就好。

後話:問我星期六要上班否?不是不想答,答了又如何。

Boss is not to be Judged

Really don't pay attention to those things which are not directly related to productivity. I respect the decision made by boss. Credit? No need.

Once start to judge a person and it is never ending. Better not to try it.

Really

You may even realize that some of what you've been getting worked up about really isn't that important. And that may be the biggest stress reducer of all.

孩童味道

昨晚到了“美都”,喝了菠蘿冰,是孩童時的味道。菠蘿是新鮮貨。

店裡人不多,喜歡那空間感。

Friday, October 17, 2008

Make it Happen

同事說我一定過得到試用期(從來也沒有擔心過),因為我做了應該做的,make things happened。好開心,小組一條心。想的就是這樣。

鼓吹負面

立法局的某些人在鼓吹負面情緒,都不知道為了什麼。

Not Only Two

Knowing what will happen but never expect is today too. I think not only two.

後話:不知道是否老闆有心安排,起碼我不是單一的。有人要說話,也有人陪我。

竹炭法包

小小的,味道好。

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Rejected

不是內容有問題,只是文件跟報告的排列不一樣。無聊!懶得說什麼。

靜,安

靜靜的,對政府的事宜,一點興趣也沒有。
是確定的了,心安。沒有好擔心的,有份自己喜歡的工作,無後顧之憂。

太平館

兩個人叫了瑞士汁牛河和雞翼。把吃不完的帶回家,點著汁來吃,好好味道。

我們很想吃那個像皮球一樣大的梳乎厘,飽了吃不下。有機會再去。
12 Sep 08

吃了梳乎厘。感覺像風又像泡的一層,太甜。

接受

接受,有的是力量。越來越感覺得到。

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

無端端

無端端會笑,滿足啊!今早醒來有點愁愁的。做回本份的事情,感覺很好啊!如果世界沒有鬥爭,不需要事事解釋,多好。

Star Pose










Let your back round; it will decompress your spine after the deep sidebending.

Explain

Boss keeps on to ask the reason and the only answer from me is "don't know". In and out, out and in, is the flow.

I am thinking, most of the time we think too much on why. I prefer to action, to move on.

3 Times

Today the candidate said that I gave 3 chances to settle error was too good. Really? It is good when people are able to communicate.

Knowing an error and able to correct it is a kind of communication. If not, same error always been here.

1M USD

Look at that amount and don't know what to do. I told colleague if I had 1M HKD, I bought an apartment already.

2046 Rest.

Go to 2046 rest. for lunch. No special, just an old rest.

Where is the Money Comes???

Settled

Bye bye dream gal!

Boss said there should be no difference of the team performance. I know.

May go "Yam Cha" in Central on Sat. then go back to work.

P.S. Boss said she could not stand the slow walking pace of the gal. Really can't help her. She thinks it is good for her to insist, however she loses her job. Good luck she can find a place fitting her.

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

涼果

又買,嘻!士多啤梨干樣子不討好,味道呢?一般啦!

好想現在去曬太陽

心裡悶悶的,好想見大太陽。現在啊!傻了。

一個月前的

一個月前是怎樣,當然不記得。現在才跟我說,想死。不是開玩笑的。

為何有人可以這麼的自私,只顧自己的,喜歡來就來不來就不來。我最討厭這樣。討厭的事情,逃離。

Monday, October 13, 2008

三錯二

為了一件“大事”,整天也沒有做過事情。“夢夢”開了三張單(得三張???),可兩張有問題,寫了紙條要她再跟進。那刻,什麼感覺也沒有。是太累了。

累,不是身心的。那件“大事”,其實可以大事化小的。算了吧!這些事情都見怪不怪了,幸好老闆自己一力承擔,我們只幫助她提供資料。

有事讓我高興,小組裡的兩位同事,頗知道發生了什麼事,靜靜地工作。

好靜

今晚去“池記”,好多位呀!首次。
乘車途徑旺角,有間酒樓本來有兩層卻一層營業。

可以飛?!

選擇不去了,才一天的培訓,要路途遙遠的飛過去。

跌到傻咗?!

升呀!紅色????!!!!

外甥女

媽媽說外甥女要先做功課後才玩。呵呵!有我的影子啊!

Sunday, October 12, 2008

一對十

我很長氣,別人說一句,我說了十句。

分享

作者潘台成發現快樂原來是「在不變的環境中,創造改變的心情」。他認為人生就像一碗魔法湯,如果你在湯頭裡加入批評、譏笑、否定的配料,那麼,這就是一碗責難、嘲弄、自卑的湯﹔如果你在湯內加入鼓勵、讚美、肯定的配料,那麼,這就是一碗自信、感激、歡喜的湯。他鼓勵人們好好地善待自己,也善待別人。

31 Jan 05

我的湯,好好喝的啊!

生命目標

昨晚隨手拿來了《奧修說男人》,讀到以下的。

西方世界一直以有目標的方式在思考,東方世界卻是以無目標的方式在思考。
生命不是要達成什麼目標,生命本身就是目標,它不是朝向某種終極的演化

我自己始終是喜歡東方的東西多一點。

書裡提到“必須去發明目標”。看到這一句,真的身同感受。目標哪可以發明的呢?真的有點庸人自擾。受了西方的影響,我們每天都是面對目標地過活了。

如果可以,真的要遠離目標了。是,我可以,在我能夠作主的範圍內。
25 Dec 06

東方有的是智慧。

認識自己

很有一種需要,就是要重新的來認識自己。已有一段不太短的時間,總認為自己就是這樣子,感覺良好,不需作改變。這一刻,我已感到自己有所改變了,不是我要刻意的去改變,而是改變自己來的。所以我說,有重新認識自己的需要。
14 Nov 04

四年後現在的我,大大的不同。

朋友的執著

朋友啊!你執著什麼呢?多三個月的工作經驗,換來是壞了的身體,不划算。快快調節你的生活啊!你這麼大的一個人,我們再不會嘮叨了,做不做,做什麼,你要做你自己的主人。旁人幫不到你,要幫你的是你自己。再執著下去,受害的只有你自己。

人就是這般的奇怪,追求一些沒有實質內容的東西。目的達到了,能得到什麼呢?是為了一口無謂的氣。不過我不是她,我並未能明白她的內心,可能那一口氣對她來說是很重要的。怎樣做也好,要聽聽身體給我們的聲音,累了就停吧!
25 Sep 05

朋友還在兜兜轉轉,不知道何時會停下來。三年有多了。

某方面,我是一個極度沒有耐性的人。一些令我不舒服的東西,會快快逃離。能逃,知道要逃,多好。

情緒陷阱,要小心。今年的十二月,節日憂鬱會不會來呢?應該是有選擇的。其實我已經做了選擇。

家庭問題

朋友跟我談他的家庭問題,是因為旅行而起的猜疑。本來是開心的事,因為一位成員未能成行而弄得全家人都不開心。我覺得有點無謂,其他人是可以照計畫行事的,但是就想了一些藉口東說說西談談。

想想自己,我的家庭,除了妹妹在沒有交代的情況下失蹤了兩年,姐姐和另一個妹妹跟我借錢不還以外,也沒有什麼的問題了。

我幸運啊!不是遇上一些沒完沒了的小事宜。
29 Nov 06

想寫感恩,被我看回這篇,更加感恩。想寫的,是家裡人都很正面。

真實

只有回應,才是真實的。

吃又不懂吃,玩又不懂玩,只愛望著別人所有。永遠也不會滿足。

天南地北

有一位能天南地北的朋友,多麼的幸福。曾經擁有,現等待中。

同感

平白的要求不過是一間有歸屬感的咖啡店
各不干擾但心有默契
《文化現場/第六期》

多麼的有同感。

國有

不斷批評中國的國策,話還沒有說完,很多先進國家的銀行要收歸國有了。看著看著,頗有趣的。

課堂體驗

代課老師,認識的,她也進步了。

沒有太多的動作需要導師來調整,很好啊!
warrior II,被她拉拉手,知道了如何做,肩膀很累啊!
大腿的肌肉有力了,做sun salutation 也做得順暢。
做standing backbend 的時候,站不穩啊!太久沒有練習。
standing balancing 沒有問題,站得穩穩的。

學員多了,到了一個大房間,感覺不一樣。空間感大了,喜歡。

滿足

滿足到從內心笑出來。
上課,吃麵,吃糖水,有免費雜誌看,就是這樣。

今天午餐吃了五十五塊(薑蔥麵加紅豆沙)。計算過,一天一百元的花費,一個月才三千,可以接受。吃得越來越快樂。

紅豆沙真的好好吃(吃不到一粒一粒紅豆的),吃到最後有點像紅豆糊。阿蘇效應,麵店很多人。阿姐說不賣魚皮了,因為她懶得從袋裡盛出來。另一位阿姐肯做,人客有得吃。有人來外賣九碗麵,不太想做,收錢的說要問問師傅肯煮不肯煮。串?!我喜歡。

麵,真的好好吃。

Spirit

The highest reason for practicing yoga, as the Gita notes, is spiritual discrimination. In the classical context, yoga has nothing to do with physical fitness. Yoga is a means of purification, a way to separate awareness from the fluctuations of the body-mind, gradually allowing you to see your reactive tendencies and bring them under conscious control. As anyone who has practiced consistently for some time can tell you, eventually your clarity and ease spontaneously increase; your life naturally changes for the better; things, habits, and ideas that were less than constructive fall away from your life, often without effort. More and more, what we want becomes what the soul would have us pursue.

It's no wonder so much of the Gita is dedicated to meditation. Yoga practice is meant to lead us to meditation, where real knowing and truth reside. The last stage of meditation is samadhi, which has been described as the state "where all one's questions are answered." The deepest questions about how to live won't be resolved by intellect alone: It is only the silence of meditation, coupled with the longing to serve a higher purpose, that allows us to be continuously led by Spirit.

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Edge

Healthy ambition requires you not to push yourself too hard but not to take it too easy, either. This seems like a fine line, and in fact, in yoga practice it's often referred to as "the edge." It's the place where you're working at the top of your body's ability on that day. If you worked any less, you'd be slacking off; any more, and you'd be risking injury.

Only you know where your edge is.

是,會是知道的。

Space

In the Yoga Sutra, one of the two qualities Patanjali directs practitioners to develop in asana is sukha. Usually translated as "ease," the word literally means "good space" and once referred to the hub of a chariot wheel that was perfectly tuned and rolled smoothly. Duhkha ("bad space" and, by extension, "suffering") is when the wheel hub is lopsided and the wheel has a hitch each time it turns. In hatha yoga, when the body is light and spacious, there is sukha; when the body is distorted and hurting, there is duhkha.

Tadasana (Mountain Pose) or Samastithi (Equal Standing), this pose is the foundation for all the postures because the neutral standing position teaches us to be fully upright, connected to the ground yet reaching out and up toward the sky.

沉下去

想起“夢夢”,可能不是她不想做,而是無能為力。已經早了回來,還是小組的最遲。鼓起了勇氣來問我,又被我的問題打退。一沉不起,不無道理。如果不是老闆追問著表現,可以放她一馬的。時勢是這樣,靠的是她自己了。

其實她都頗愚蠢的,已經說得明白,可還沒有表現。昨天看了看數據,慘不忍睹。想救她,可她不把手給我。算了吧!她的路她自己走。

醒後飄來的第一

總是跟工作有關的,不是什麼人事,只是一個提醒。試過是處理事情的方法。不知道是好事還不,是預感還是感覺不出來的壓力。

頗瞭解自己,每時段,總有一些事情讓自己投入的。每天都有小進步,每天都有收穫,開心。

每天有著小進步,這意念,伴著我很久了。人怎可以不向前行,小進步,成了習慣,不做不成啊!

可愛

老闆很可愛,跟我們談髮型。

零嘴

到么鳳買東西,感覺比較健康。
齋雞好大顆啊!
那裡的東西雖然不便宜,幾塊一両的情況下,買得高興。

別人,自己

總是看著別人走過的路,自己的呢?!
看著他的重重複複,有點心痛。可能做什麼呢?繼續走自己的路。
其實也沒有什麼大不了,他的生活很好,比很多人都好(四代同堂)。可以大膽說一句,他的是無負擔生活。閑來無病呻吟。
人的成長,可能是需要經歷一些?!
想想,其實是知足不知足的分別吧!

Alignment

朋友說alignment,說不知道從哪裡開始。很簡單的,從頭到腳。身體分成上下兩部分,盤骨以上和以下。明白嗎?不明白的,找導師去。

沒有

身邊有些人總愛說沒有,真的嗎?我總是不相信,去找找看。有的。

很多時候是他們把自己限制了。真的。

又常說不知道怎樣如何開始。當然不知道,總是說不行動。不動,別人動,距離越來越遠了,要解決的事情也越來越多了,要開始真的不知道從哪裡著手。

糕點

吃了麥記套餐,還吃了這些。茶果的質地似燒餅。吃的時候讓我想起大澳的茶果。

茶果上有一顆心。

別人說的話

在等候提款的時候,聽到站在前面的女士在投訴,說大家看的都是同一張紙,怎麼看的不一樣,她說就是因為不用心。聽後,會心微笑。

緣起

意義感方面,也是從緣起而生。例如見緣起的微妙,令人懂得讚歎緣生的力量,同時見到眾緣的重要,自然會對身邊的人和事心懷感恩,見到因緣相依的關係,自會懂得與人合作、布施和分享;從緣起見無常,則令人懂得珍惜和放下。

Friday, October 10, 2008

七點多

七點多離開,多好。

One Day Less

Boss told me my team has one day less to process the work. No problem. To have one day to relax is fine.

Less is More

There are too much things in the world, must have something to disappear. Is it?!

The gal only handled 11 invoices in 3 days. I have issued 9 in less than one hour. Less is more is achievable.

There is half a million suppose we can handle. Told the gal (at 5pm) must complete it by today. Sure NO (just 4 invoices).

If anyone thinks I am a bad person to ask the gal away. I am so sorry to that person. He/she is not fit into current working environment.

A guy, he is learning very fast. Again, less is more.

Thursday, October 9, 2008

Miss you but no time :)

不回家吃飯

或者是想擁有自家的時間。

做同樣的

原來有了樣板,要做同樣的,也不是容易的事。或者沒有照著辦呢?!不是什麼要技巧的事情,只是關於打字。

咖啡

大馬同事跟我說會帶咖啡來,謝謝啊!

Don't Like Me

Heard from colleague saying that someone in the department doesn't like me. I am ok and I am not expecting all people to like me, especially those with relax attitude.

As in my role (pushing is part of my job), sure somebody will not like me. I would like to be a productive person (drive the team with less than 200K per week to 600K) instead of meeting target impossible. They don't like me is somehow due to more workload to them (don't they think more $$$ from the team is a good sign??). Boss likes me is more than enough.

P.S. Senior management didn't talk to me to ask about the progress but to another teams. It means they are far behind the target.

Nothing, Something

Keep on to ask whether there is something being held. Keep on to tell me nothing. Tonight I found out something, more than ten thousands USD.

Eager

Boss is more eager than me :)

Go to the Past

Not to listen to the present moment but go to the past (keep on to read the past messages). Really cannot understand.

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

眼見

家附近一間酒樓,不知道何時只得一層營業;本來有兩層的。

信任

擁有一份信任,日子過得有意義。

好慘

我說我老闆,她居然要坐在同事的座位更改檔案。同事不知道她要什麼。老闆是一個很有耐性的人,可以把事情說十次以上。她是我欣賞的一個人。

Energy

Energy collects strongly at intense moments. If you don't know how to work with it, it can spin you into confusion or stress you into adrenal overload. But if you understand what intense energy is and practice working with it, it can and will transform your consciousness.

This is one of the deepest and most liberating truths that yoga offers us. I would even go so far as to say that it contains the gist of why we do inner practice at all. The whole yogic paradigm is based on the idea that there's something vast, loving, and spacious in the heart of reality, an awareness that connects all of us and that we uncover when we turn our attention inward. As we practice, we keep waking up to the source of our energy, moving past our fixed perceptions, feeling how it is to live from that vast, loving, and spacious source.

所以說負面思想的人,能量很高的。我的能量指數不高,只是懂一點點如何使用。

中計啦

她要同意了才願意做,為何我要跟著她這樣走?中計啦!今天換了處理手法,她喜歡的就做不喜歡的讓我來做。呵呵!讓她,反正她在公司的日子都不長了。錯了的當然要告訴她,就只告訴她,不講其他。

幾天來,我做的是她的兩倍(來了半日工,她的時間多了,可做的卻沒有增加)。我們共開了一百六十多的帳單,她的三十還不到。隨便她做多少,這是她工作的證明。

這兩天老闆沒有空,下個星期來個了斷。

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

開始,結束

我看的是結束,朋友看的是開始,都是同一樣事情。

這三個月來,是開始也是結束。一開始就同自己說已經到了最差(沒經驗的我一開始就是最有經驗的),沒能更差的了。在最差的時候開始,未嘗不是一件好事。間接直接把部門很多的不明朗事情引導了出來。

墨魚

不是橙色的,又腍,好好味道

風吹來是冷的。要買風衣,還要深色的。淺藍色那件,被我弄到很“烏糟”。

真心

To value our feelings over our thoughts or vice versa brings us to only half our true potential. But when we cultivate our physical and emotional experiences, as we do in an asana practice, yoga traditions teach that we will naturally want to go more deeply into our intellectual and rational abilities.

Failure to give a persuasive account means you are describing an experience that we can't share or one that you yourself don't fully understand.

29 May 07

能分享,多快樂。

直落捲上

很舒服啊!做的是什麼?九十度把身體俯前然後把身體捲上來,頭要最後才抬起。不明白的不好嘗試,問問自家的導師。

Arm Raise / Side Body Muscle

原來要做到效果,是要把腋下打開的。怎樣是打開?腋下正正向前就是了。剛剛做了兩三次,腰兩旁的肌肉熱熱的。

the upward rotators are essential in positioning the scapulae when the arms are overhead

29 Apr 08

做到了。整個上身也能開展。

呼吸

現在可以做到的是呼吸到下背,上背還未能做到。

Yoga

In yoga, you've got to change, not change yoga to fit you

It isn't a subject you study. It's a practice so it's always in the moment

It's not that you're becoming superhuman, although you will experience increased physical and mental power. What it should give you is the perception of what counts and what doesn't count, without getting caught up in ego-driven desires.

"When you practice at home you get to explore the exquisite relationship between the body, and the breath, and life itself. The whole reason for doing yoga is to enjoy this relationship, this natural intimacy with life."

The key to feeling the way Whitwell does is dropping self-imposed expectations.

When you clearly witness the multitude of mental, emotional, and physical ups and downs that you go through in the span of just one pose, and you begin to notice how much your experience changes from day to day, you'll learn a valuable lesson: that everything constantly changes. As a result, you'll react less to your inner dramas both on and off the mat, knowing that it is normal to fluctuate.

這,也是終生受用的。喜歡mountain pose 也是這樣,一個最簡單的動作感受最多。老師說過,只做mountain pose 其他的可以什麼也不做。

越來越喜歡這裡

很喜歡看回自己寫的東西,很多事情,說過了就做了。不是空口講白話的。這裡,也是誠誠實實地面對自己。

採茶

好想到茶園住上一個月去勞動。

Grounding

Before evolving up, you will need to settle in and down. Grounding is a prerequisite for evolving and consciously expanding.

29 Jun 08

這,也是會伴我一世的。

一個人的發展,既需要才能,也需要機遇。機遇有兩種,一種是客觀條件給予你的機會,另外一種是自己主觀努力得到的機遇。佛教講“緣分”,是認為每個人自己的“緣”是可以由自己創造的,自己可以改變自己的人生。人們習慣於認為佛教是消極的,其實佛教的一個基本道理是“自作自受”,每個人自己的命運是由自己把握的,在這個角度,佛教是非常積極而有人文精神的。禪宗讓每個人“面對當下”,就是讓人面對現實,不要回避問題,做好本分事,從本分事做起。

體驗過,更相信。不論發生什麼事情,不好埋怨,正能量就能凝聚。
30 Jun 08

這一段,會是一世伴著我的。

鹹檸檬

哪裡有好吃的鹹檸檬買呢?
5 Oct 08

都知道九龍城有這類店鋪的,想要的就有答案

先要求別人前應要求自己

這是我的信念。

朋友問我怎樣令小組表現起來,沒有辦法的。是我找對了人罷了。把公司的要求清楚說了出來,不能配合就是不能配合。人懶惰就是人懶惰。成年人了,是怎樣,不是自己要改過來,沒有辦法的。

西方的意念,讀書回來的那些理論,就是理論啊!從來也不相信有推動這回事,我不要做的你怎推我都是會不做;做的,是被別人推的嗎?當然不是。

放下

學佛其實就是在學習生活;學習做人。學習生活就是學習放下,當你握緊雙手的時候,你所有的只是乎里的這一些,當你放開雙手時,你就擁有了整個世界。

不說話的時候,人就不氣了。

乘地鐵

原來每天乘地鐵所做的練習是有用處的。沒有課堂一個月,身體狀況差不多。

乘地鐵能做什麼?當然只是mountain pose。在等車的時候,喜歡轉轉腳掌和膝,看看大腿盤骨如何配合。

快樂,自己製造。

別話:買咖啡的時候,不需要說上一句話。她們知道我要的是什麼。這也是每天快樂的時光。外出的晚飯,很多時候都是帶著滿足的心情去吃,越吃越快樂。

輕鬆

是會越來越輕鬆的了。半日工的同事,很醒目,跟她說要什麼她就自己想辦法去做了。這才是工作嗎!最討厭的就是不懂但又不跟著別人的步伐。她說了一個名詞,我問她明白嗎?她說她會,要她說出來,起初不肯的,我怎會放過她(側耳聽到老闆也同樣跟那男人說著差不多的話,反問他不明白的地方)。說了,錯了。一早就知道她不懂。

工作生涯,得到的是很多能用一世的話。

Control

At the heart of any control issue is the desire for personal power. Essentially, we measure our empowerment by how well we control our inner and outer environment. Externally, we express our power by how well we're able to control and manage our time, work, reputation, finances, and—admit it!—the other people in our lives. Internally, we take power by controlling our bodies—think of how good it feels when you hold a Headstand a minute longer than usual or resist eating the extra cookie—as well as our thoughts and emotions. We try to think positively or take deep breaths, instead of lashing out at a family member. We get down to work when we secretly feel like watching a movie. In so many ways, control is good, necessary, and admirable.

But then there's the other side of the story. That useful, necessary control mechanism has a tendency to turn tyrannical. Too much control deadens the life force in you. And the line between too much and too little can be hairline fine.

since life is basically out of control, your attempts to control outcomes will often end in frustration. If you can't let go of your need to control when necessary, you'll be at the mercy of your stress hormones.

yogic attainment is all about losing yourself—in essence, losing control —

My understanding is, to become zero.

The paradox is that more often than not, the opening occurs when you let go of discipline and take a chance on the unknown—in other words, when you're willing to be out of control.

Just like working with teacher, didn't know what he would do in the next second. Accept and willing to follow all.

the truth emerged in the moment that I let go, but the quality of mind that allowed me to let go, and eventually to stay in the opening, came from the discipline that I had practiced and the control I had exercised up to that point.

Practise with no reason as knowing what status it should be. The status comes or not, not an issue. Follow the correct way, it may come one day.

想跟朋友說一句,換湯不換藥,沒辦法。

“夢夢”妙句

我:有沒有叫同事寫下客戶的名稱?
她:沒有。
我:為什麼?
她:我有寫。

現在是另一位同事做前期工作,她做後期的。她不叫同事寫下一些資料,於是她又花時間去查看。真的浪費時間,我說小組整體的生產力。

她真的很妙。

Monday, October 6, 2008

不吃奶品

去義順,最喜歡吃的是豬排通粉和奶醬多。後者真的好好吃。不吃奶品,不是怕奶有問題,而是不便宜,要二十塊的。

別話:終於都去了翠華吃雞飯,好失望。肉很硬和沒有味道(都是平常晚上去的那間好吃,又便宜)。飯就好吃,看似白飯,卻有淡淡的雞油香。同事說算是還了心願,是啊!上個星期已經想吃,可是要等位,當然不吃啦!

Side Bend

感受到腹部的肌肉在拉扯。

好煩

驗驗驗,幾個國家在驗相同的產品。不好吃啦!全部不吃。多好。

昨晚跟爸爸說,都不知道是否被“整”的。

那個男人

他還在怒。好!呵呵!

今早跟“夢夢”講話,由心裡震出來(當然是在嘮叨她),不知道為什麼。

整天都不知道她做了什麼(其實是知道的,做了有錯,要她改,跟她說她又不明白。起初都聽的,一份一份的告訴她錯,她開始沒有耐性)。多留了一個小時,把她的工作完成了一部分。不等她了,等她代表玩自己。我一個小時做了她兩天的事情。

在想,沒了她會如何。相信一天就可以把她一個星期的工作完成了。沒有負擔跟壓力。

每天做好一點點

萬物事事相對,凡事只有更好,沒有最好。

還是相信這個信念。每每想要最好的,是把自己綁住。

Sunday, October 5, 2008

Getting There

信念不正,沒有其他話說了。there,永遠也到不了。

第一時間認了是錯,那麼就是改了。花了時間,不認還須認,沒有這效果。

Abdomen

"Many people don't understand the difference between moving from the lower back and moving from the abdomen," says White. "When the abdominals aren't strong enough to do a pose, such as a [supine] leg lift, people will lift their legs by pulling from the lower back, which can cause injury."

Another important aspect is finding the sitting bones, "so people can learn to sit on them properly," Feldman says. "One reason the abdominals are so weak is that most people sit with their backs rounded, which makes the abs go slack."

"If pulling the belly in improves your posture and makes you feel energized and confident, that's telling you something. If it makes you feel tense and strained, that's also telling you something. In yoga, you can make decisions based on an inner knowledge of what the practice is doing for you."

27 Jul 07

腹部強壯起來了,可是還不夠。boat pose 還做不到。

檢討

昨天的火,知道為何。因為加班是我的時間(什麼補償也沒有),為的是把工作完成。別人不好來騷擾我。就好像被人從夢中弄醒一樣。跟我說話的如果有內容還可以,講廢話的,走走走。他說應該兩點前我把工作完成,我問他為何不能完成,因為花了時間去查看不對的資料。檢討過後,這個人不需要對他好。反正他都待不了多久,這是我的推測。

那晚買了這個,材料很豐富的。

道歉

很不明白為何政界的人總是要別人來道歉,道歉有用嗎?

簡簡單單

想想,我的工作真的很直接,所以我喜歡。做了一份就是一份,不能作假。功能重要嗎?當然。什麼的數字都是所做所出。

抑鬱到底是怎樣的一回事?它複雜、漫長而黑暗,間或有巨大起伏,多半徘徊於低處;最好避免過分地強調那憂愁,同時,又千萬別簡化了患者的傷心。若我們回到李子玉的書,她是這樣歸納的﹕「我們用不着到外面苦苦尋覓,只要好好地過日子……反過來,當壞事發生了,盡量換個角度去看事物,你會察覺到原來壞事的本身,會告訴你很多做人處事的道理。多付出愛心給予別人,別人快樂了,你自己更快樂。」

如禪的尋常道理看似簡單往往最難領悟。但我多麼相信,憂鬱症病人——包括我——只要仍願意訴說自己的故事,那就表示,你又遠離憂鬱,多一點點。

《新不了情》

看了很多次,再看也好看。看到最後,哭了。

一是一,二是二

自己還是這樣的一個人,一就是一二就是二。在朋友面前(當然是可以沒有掩飾的),我就是自己了。

做自己,最開心。
4 Sep 07

工作時也做著自己,多快樂。

能放下的

朋友M 問我有沒有什麼東西和事情是放不下的。想了一想,現階段沒有。

記起某年的無欲無求,現在的我,比起當年,更加沒有要求。我還記得當年的我的模樣,記起那張黑白照片。
18 Sep 07

一年後看,現在的我是沒有負擔。每天樂意上班,只想把事情做好。

不清不楚的不好買,買了不好怨。

流動

資金要說流動,做人也一樣,不好把自己綁得死死的。世界性的事情,讓我看到很多的大道理。古人說的話,很對。

Gratitude

Be specific and reflect on as many things as you can recall. It can be something as simple as your partner's smile, the sound of a bird singing at dawn, the driver who let you merge into the crowded freeway. Remember, the motivation or attitude of those who gave you something is not the issue. Maybe you were offered lunch because you showed up at lunchtime, not because your friend made a personal effort to make you lunch. The fact is, you were fed, and you can feel gratitude for that. The mere fact that you benefited from someone's actions is all that is needed to cultivate gratitude.

We often live as if the world owes us. As you reflect on what you have been given today, you will likely see that, if anything, you owe the world an insurmountable debt. This insight is more than merely humbling; you may find yourself feeling a deeper sense of gratitude and a natural desire to be generous in serving others.

現代人就永遠覺得別人欠了他們的。

Remember, what makes this a meditative practice is that you are not analyzing your motivations or intentions; you are not interpreting or judging. You are simply shifting your attention from self-centered thinking to seeing things as they are, and as all yoga traditions point out, in seeing, there is wisdom and liberation.

Intention

Intention—the formulation of what you want to happen—is created in silence, through contemplation. It's refreshed each time you return to it. Then, often without your knowing how it happens, the subtle power of intention will guide your actions and words, and gradually, almost invisibly, create change. The key is to keep acting from that stillness out of which the intention was formed.

為何這樣?是一個時常要問自己的問題。問的不是別人的事,而是自己的話自己的行為自己的思想。不知道嗎?永遠得不到自由。自己不知道的又要否認別人的,根本是把自己綁得越來越緊。如果連最基本的五個W 也答不上來,都是聽聽別人說的比較划算。

很清醒

我真的是一個很清醒的人,對自己所作所為,清清楚楚的。沒有給自己壓力,一點也沒有。

跟某朋友談話,時常說他說話不清不楚(可是我卻聽得明白),他給我的感覺就是生活得模模糊糊。其實不是的,只是我太清醒了。
15 Sep 07

一年了,朋友怎樣不太清楚,因為已經很少交談。

抵消

很多人都認為事情是可以抵消的。我信因果,所以不相信事情是可以抵消的。黑與白,不是任何情況會出現灰色。

Garland Pose

這個,身體完全不能下去。記起剛開始學習的時候,腳板未能觸地。

把pat pat 提高就做到一個大概(背部線條跟圖中的一樣);把臀放下,嘩!不像樣。

source of the picture

不是盲目

Sometimes you need to wake up, and sometimes you need to calm down. Often you need a combination of awakening, calming, and focusing energies. But to understand your needs, it's essential to spend some time discovering what state your energy is in.

正面負面,都是能量。如果不是的話,負面情緒怎會影響我們?!

自然醒

自然醒來,最最幸福。

不認真

認真對待,總不會出事。問題是如果當是一個遊戲,一定有完結的一天。

工作壓力

如果這份工作有壓力,轉一份就可以(或者自己根本不適合那份工作)。如果轉了也有壓力,那麼就是自己的事宜。很可能是精神病(精神有病很普通的啊),要面對的。

興衰

一個地方的衰退,就是另一個地方的興起。

不喜歡別人管,可出了事,就要人來管。

什麼事情也好,不好賴在別人頭上。情緒是自己的,思想是自己的。

雷同

老闆跟同事說的話,很類似我跟同事說的 :)

老師的表演

他的表演快到了,也沒有買票。不知為什麼。不想看嗎?不是。

Saturday, October 4, 2008

靠自己

「師父引進門,修行在個人。」大善知識是我們修行的助緣,但他不能替我們成道。修行的目的,為的是提升自己、淨化自己,所以修行要「靠自己」,靠自己就是一種承擔。 

承擔什麼呢?承擔一切善法、承擔所犯過失,所以善法要自己修,習氣要自己化,煩惱要自己轉;進一步,還要承擔人人本具的覺性、佛性,因為這是修行的根本,修行要想不退,就要有這種承擔。

佛性猶如一個金剛不壞的「殼」,真正能保護自己的法身慧命,我們不需要再外求什麼東西來保護自己。 導師告訴我們,什麼事都要「會、熟、巧、精」,如果我們對這念覺性,從「會」識得到「熟」練,再從運用得「巧」妙到無時不「精」通,那麼還有什麼事不能成就呢!所以當自己願意開始「靠自己」時,就沒有什麼困難可以阻礙自己,因為第一步已經跨出去了。

念心

能夠聽法的這念心就是,不假外求,要時時刻刻保任,堅住正念、清清楚楚、明明白白、要能夠做得了主,站得住、站得長,時節因緣成熟,自然雲開日現、明心見性、見性成佛。

等我“得閒”先啦

你有空時別人不一定有的。

景色

從來也沒有吃過那麼接受不到的粉(湯還可以,不過牛肉很硬),咖啡又不好喝。是即磨的,相信是奶的問題。

為何有刀沒叉?!

又到涼果點買蝦干,還買來了奇異果。

嘩!怪不得今天這麼好火,原來吃了紅色食物。

回應

回應是必須的,不是別人說的有道理就沒話說。別人說的是別人說的。

回應,需要多練習。

跟同事扯火。他不懂卻左右我用的方法。問他如何做,講不出一個字。問他何時我要完成,也不說。想點?給我的資料根本就不正確,我已經好心幫他逐一逐一去查明,他說不需要這樣的。那麼那些是正確的呢?當然他不知道。還跟我說做了銀碼大的就可以,那麼什麼是銀碼大呢?沒有答案。

最討厭跟這般的同事工作。還說因時間關係,未能更正錯的。大佬,我真的不做了。

最終我把所有資料查了一次,找來了錯的,超過半百萬港元。用了兩個多小時,其間被他騷擾了二十分鐘。動力是為老闆做的,錯了三個月,看不過眼還繼續錯下去。

另,別人寫給他的,居然來問我如何解讀。我怎知道?!如果他不是那麼自私(自己遲把工作完成可以,我卻要準時。好討厭他的時間是時間,別人的不是),我會幫他的,以後都不會了。知的都說不知道(我知道我不會這樣的)。

他說他怎會知道我在做什麼,如果懂的就做了。那麼,我們小組為何要知道上一個程序在做什麼。同一道理,他理應要知道我們小組在做什麼的。不過會計人總是這樣(一間公司總有一兩個),喜歡推卸責任。

他反問我正確的數字是多少,立即告訴他。他說這跟他的對等(他的所謂對等,是正正負負的總和。不是嗎?!細節也要對等的),我說那麼不用查了嗎?不出聲。

說了十句話,帶出來的卻只是同一個訊息。可以不可以快說?!我搖頭舉手說讓我工作吧!他的這些話,令我浪費了查考二十條資料的時間。

我查考的是他小組弄出來的錯。

好好笑,說我不open,沒有聽他的。我可以把他的話重複啊!聽力是我的強項,理解力也是。又說我offensive,係呀!我認,好offensive 添!點呀?我絕對絕對不會改的。同老闆投訴啦!他真的說了出來,不是這些字眼啦!男人老狗,無眼睇。

他回到位,發脾氣啊!事後知道自己錯了,又有事找我幫忙,又死死氣來找我。有本事的,自己學自己睇。我好認叻,係呀!我認。

好懷疑,為何他連debit credit 也搞不清楚。我這個外行人都明白啦!

老闆又一次不煩厭的跟他說一次,還說做了三個月了,程序沒有改過。老闆都好公開跟他說,不怕我聽到(隱約聽到老闆說我用了兩個月已經把小組表現弄好了)。

朋友說在大馬找不到yoga 課堂,沒有可能。原來是因為停車要給款的關係。想說的是,又不是負擔不起(才一兩個小時,二十元不到)。我這個九龍人到香港島上課啦!再說,又不是天天去,一星期才一次吧!

很多時候,絕對不是環境限制了我們,而是我們自己。

後話:我看錯了,他說是課堂的費用。有平有貴,很多選擇的。想想,一次旅行的花費,足夠上課堂一年了。買一個名牌手袋,也是一樣。

如果連一個健康的活動也負擔不了,生活還有意義嗎?!

By the Time

Just want not to check the data line by line. However issue found. So the checking cannot be skip as really don't want the same issue is carried forward with endless checking.

你想我點

不是我想你點,而是做好本分。沉默,我尊重,是她的權利。可工作容不下這樣的一個人。

The Way

"figure out where you need flexibility and where you need strength, and then work diligently on those actions in the easier poses."

It's important to keep your mind spacious so you don't do the pose aggressively. The form of the pose is important, but it's only a doorway. The true nectar lies within the form. As you learn to maintain the shape with less muscular effort, your mind becomes more silent and spacious, and you become much more sensitive and responsive to the movement of prana within."

還是錯

明天要工作,因為別人給了錯的資料。他究竟明白不明白???等我幫他找出因由吧!
說來也奇怪,一點不高興也沒有。

早餐

終於都買到燒賣做早餐了。

Friday, October 3, 2008

菜飯

又去吃菜飯。上次吃牛跟,不好味道(味太重,不喜歡)。今次吃回牛肉,份量多到差點吃不完。辣醬好好味道(有金華火腿和瑤柱),買了小瓶跟家人分享。

改在當下

真的想改,就在當下。同事老是不願意立即把錯的文件改過來(已經為她做了圖表,不看,於是錯),不知道要等到何時。三個字,沒得救。衷心給她機會,不領情算數。

寫在帳單裡的話“due to xxx problem”,這麼的負面。誰會用問題這個名詞跟客戶溝通的?!

她的pattern 是總不跟著我說的去完成工作,想歪了,時間用多了。出發點不對,結果怎會對?!

想起佛家的話,煩惱是因為錯誤的認知。

Thursday, October 2, 2008

Bow Pose

只是做了十秒,為何心跳得快了?身體上升的能力高了(大腿的前方拉扯得很厲害)。alignment 做得好好,膝跟肩膀在同一水平線上。

好像去了辦海味。
蝦干,好好味道,鮮味。店裡的阿姐要我連蝦尾也吃掉。
珍珠豆,花生中的最愛。阿姐說是印尼貨。吃到三顆的,開心。
黃色的是野生柑桔,一両(十塊),有十八顆。

超標

超標了一百萬,美金。蠻高興的。

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Muscle

肌肉的構造多複雜,不去認識它,怎能有肌力。

想起老師的話,做到做不到,總有一個原因。明知道肌肉的力量不夠,當然要做好熱身。

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Twist

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關於舞台

找來了這說的是舞台劇逃兵。

高度集中,但同時又放鬆

相信我喜歡的就是這份需要極度集中但不繃緊的精神狀態。
10 Jan 08

做到一點點。

Tip Toe Sitting

老師說腳能提升多少,是肌肉的力量。

ankle 跟knee 是align 的。

想起朋友

沒有工作的朋友,不知道她的狀態如何。有好轉嗎?
社工朋友,可好嗎?
病了的朋友,可上班了嗎?

老態

昨天跟一個二十歲還未到的女孩一起拍照,站在她旁沒有老態。真的好高興。

Listening

Listening means passivity. Listening means forgetting yourself completely - only then can you listen.

Osho Zen Tarot
1 Jan 08

覺得自己太重要了,什麼也聽不到。

一點預感

我有預感,這一年不需要太用力就可以得到我想要的東西;當然是需要用心的。
3 Jan 08

Bingo!

Knee

fewer people are aware that knee hyperextension--too much opening at the back of the knee--also creates misalignment and bad movement habits that can pave the way for arthritis and more serious knee injuries.

In normal standing alignment, the leg forms a straight line from ankle to hip, with knee over ankle and hip over knee. If your knee is hyperextended, however, the leg will appear to curve back, with the knee behind an imaginary straight line drawn from ankle to hip.

If your kneecap points over or even inside your big toe, weakness in your (hip) external rotators may be contributing to your problems

29 Jan 08

站的時候,把臀向後收。這樣,可以站得比較直。人看上去就比較高。

Pranayama

in normal breathing, the brain initiates the action of inhalation and draws energy to itself. This keeps the brain in a state of tension. When the brain is tense, the breath is constricted. But in pranayama, the brain remains passive, and the lungs, bones, and muscles of the torso initiate the inhalation. Rather than suck in air, the lungs, diaphragm, ribs, and abdomen receive the breath. In describing the practice, Iyengar says that the breath must "be enticed or cajoled, like catching a horse in a field, not by chasing after it, but by standing still with an apple in one's hand. Nothing can be forced; receptivity is everything." We are to do pranayama with our intelligence, as opposed to our brains, Iyengar says.

asana practice makes the body fit for pranayama, and pranayama practice makes the mind fit for meditation

the practitioner should already have achieved a stressless state in the body and brain before meditation can occur

moving from asana to pranayama is a big step

不知道三年後我可否開始練習pranayama?
31 Jan 08

有時侯留意到肚子在起伏,感覺有趣。

Cow Face

碰到啦!我說的是手腕。另一邊做不到。

I Like It

加一杯大的即磨咖啡,滿足。

吃早餐時已經喝了凍咖啡,不過不滿足。

請人

看別人寫的有感。請你不請你,總有一個原因;或者是沒有原因的,只是請與不請。老闆就是有這個權力(不需要挑戰)。

Acknowledge

The first step to bringing suffering onto the path is to recognize and acknowledge it, instead of denying it. Once we can do that, we have some ground for developing the further recognition that all our experiences, whether pleasurable or painful, have the same nature of suffering. Denial does not alleviate our suffering, nor does it help to free us from suffering and its causes. Obviously, if we do not recognize the presence of suffering, we will have no reason to seek liberation.

In terms of practice, however, we need a certain amount of structure and a clear view of this path; otherwise, we will become confused and lost.

at the beginning because, without having the right view, we cannot find the right path. Without discovering the right path, we will not meet with the right experiences and realizations.

體驗

When we don't know precisely why something works, it's best to admit it, rather than dress it up in the language of science to make it sound more impressive. The easiest thing to do is acknowledge your sources

聽了,嘗試,改良,變為自己所擁有的。
14 Nov 07

還是推崇這個“懶人”方法。

給人一個機會

老闆跟我說,如果要延期,那麼就要給人一個改過的機會。很好的話。

在想,有沒有給過她機會呢?!

中國的食品有毒,還有不吃的選擇;美國的經濟毒,想避也不是這麼容易。或多或少都被影響。

中跟西,對東方的比較有信心。根在這裡。

五十九年

就是這樣走過來的。六十年過後,是新的開始(不是什麼預言,只是套用了《易經》的智慧)。

進進出出

發覺,有些人是沒有出走的能力。想走但不走,行為怪怪的。苦了自己。

信心,信任

市場說信心問題,我看是關於信任的。根本就是不信任。

象徵意義

真的,一些動作,看似無聊,可是對當事人來說是有著象徵意義的。剛剛畫了一個分號。

踏實的我,真的很害怕真空。或者不是害怕,只是想不通。