Saturday, May 31, 2008

雪糕,筒

是兩樣東西,然後變為一種食品。爸爸買了三色雪糕,我買來了威化筒(淡黃色的東西,為何成分有的是紅辣椒粉,說是作為天然色素)。好好味道。

說說威化筒的包裝,才八元不到的東西,可有一個紙皮盒,跟著是膠盒,然後是錫紙。

活動日誌

兩班,是完全不同的程度。第一班,得四個學員(導師加工作人員有七人)。一個自顧自的說話走動,可說是沒有上過課。一個,總是低頭,動一動就不願意了。一個,在星期天的班見過她,在這裡,她活躍多了,可都不是太想動。她走來跟我擁抱啊!另一個,拉著她都會跟我快步走的。

第二班,他們的活動能力好很多,可以跳。有一個學員也是星期天見過的,跟他跳星期天的舞,他記得,相比過往的課堂,他表現很好啊!在休息時段,我跟一位學員溫習舞步,比上課時好。手前後伸直,教她望著鏡子扮飛機,成功。

感覺自己或多或少吸收了老師的教學方法,也應用到了。一些輕輕的身體接觸,能產生微妙的變化。

下個星期,老師回來教導他們。又見到他了。

三個小時,動的不太多,可累。是少了一些amazing (中文怎翻譯好呢)的事情發生,amazing 就是令我出現的動力。

邊寫邊想,是可以教導他們一些難度比較高的東西。不好想著他們做到做不到,他們的模仿能力很高,記性也不賴的。

The Skeleton — Side View

原來下臂跟小腿一樣,都有兩條骨頭。


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《為了愛獻上感謝》

作者:周淑屏

連CD 的小說,可並沒有把CD 借回來。故事裡提到“美都”,還沒有去過呢!

Friday, May 30, 2008

表演

透過表演者去找尋屬於自己的答案
其實「沒有系統可言」
不再問「表演」這個「存有」(being)狀態用來做什麼,而當下一刻人與人的接連是最珍貴的。
《am post issue 53》

懂得享受欣賞已經很好的了,用心去看去體會而沒有埋怨和看不過眼的地方。

媽媽總是跟我說她看了什麼什麼的新聞,而我的回應是沒有興趣知道。真的,不想說一些跟自己無關事情的話。

星期六

答應了星期六幫手(他們說缺乏人來幫忙),兩堂三個小時將會在舞蹈室渡過。這樣跳跳跳,要肥都難了。不知道是那個導師,誰也好,一樣的。

現在的我不再需要跟著老師也懂做什麼了。
28 May 08

為了明天,想的是吃。嘻嘻!安排如下,到快樂買麵包,邊行邊吃,然後買最近發現的漂亮紫色芋頭糯米糍。課堂後喝咖啡吃小吃,然後回家吃飯。

我問自己,為何會去的。最大的動力是我想動,就這麼簡單。

Thursday, May 29, 2008

不出聲

不是刻意不出聲,是自然而來的;不是放棄,是時候未到。幾個月來所講所說,全還是出現了。

共同

有共同興趣未必有共同語言。

Warrior III Pose

暫時可以做到的是雙腳站在地上,背和腿是九十度角。我很喜歡做這個動作,令我想起南非的桌山。
14 Feb 07

今天做了這個,順利完成。25 Feb 07







水平線啊!脖子要放鬆多一些。
8 Dec 07

有什麼不同呢?是做法不同,沒有用手帶動的。手的作用只在最後幫助做調整。

身軀好像長了?!明明想起左腳的(要訓練右腳的力量),卻做了右腳。手跟頭的部分有很多要改進的地方。

左右兩邊,平衡能力相差很遠(左腳提起時並不能成水平線)。細心想想,並不只是平衡的關係,左臀的活動能力是較弱的。

to make the hip joint of the standing leg resilient so that it can bear the weight that's placed on it. If you haven't built enough strength in that hip, your leg will ignite with tension, leading to a meltdown.

怪不得現在把腿伸直並不是太難的事,臀有力了。

Many muscles work to stabilize the weight of the body when you stand on one leg, but one of the most important is the group of muscles called the hip abductors. This group consists of the gluteus medius, gluteus minimus, and tensor fasciae latae.

這個,只求做到(不做好)是沒有問題的,可是有時候卻很快就掉下來了。為什麼?是那刻想著做到做到(根本就不需要想)。不在當刻,就有這結果了。

Being

"Asana practice is the continual refinement of staying present with the mind so time stops," says Yee. "When you're just being, you lose the aspect of time, but you don't lose movement. When the mind stays steady on the moment, there is no time."

"The reason everything looks beautiful is it is out of balance, but its background is always in perfect harmony," observes Zen master Shunryu Suzuki in his classic book of talks, Zen Mind, Beginner's Mind (Weatherhill, 1997). "This is how everything exists in the realm of Buddha nature, losing its balance against a background of perfect balance."

好像明白,其實並不。努力學習。

心情

今天的心情真的“麻麻”。
29 May 08

那實在的真實又回來了。

又碰到他了(花名“猩猩”),是我的中學同學,他是我在街上碰到最多次的一位(其實都不是在街上,是在學校裡,在大廈裡,在地鐵車箱裡)。大家你一眼我一眼的對望,就把對方認出來了。我倆都沒有什麼大改變啊!上次碰到應該是起碼三四年前的事了。

做老師

昨天團員跟我說不如去跟她一起做老師,教導老人家英文。當時的反應是 “不想當老師”。做一個助手是快樂的(不用想,跟著做就是了),可做老師卻並不是我所願。

看看,我真的很懶惰的。

亦舒的《等待》和《密碼》。《密碼》是很短很短的故事,但也好看(可能是因為等吃飯看的緣故)。
5 May 08

在看《暮》和已經看完了的《鄰居太太的情人》。

時間都往那裡去了

時常被問我的日子怎打發,所做的真的不多,但也沒有發呆。那麼,時間去了哪裡呢?

昨晚有人請吃自製中式飽點(紅豆飽),她是早上七點起來做的。

我都看到

老師跟他的同事說他的上背的肌肉是被拉著的。我都看到啊!

存在

近來愛說,不論你說不說,事情就是存在的。

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

活動日誌

眼見他們錯跳了,可他們也不太想學習,也懶得去更正。老師不在,他們就是那樣懶散。我就投入地自己跳,自娛。他們在練習表演項目,我在做冥想(環境是怎樣並沒有影響到我,那刻的背景音樂蠻強勁的)。

團員很努力跟我說話,我就一句沒一句的應著。真的不想說話。

還有四堂,宿舍的活動要完了。會否如老師所言繼續,不知道。我會參與,不過一定不做策劃,還沒有號召力。我問同伴,想主持嗎?好像不太願意。她們有舞蹈底子,理應比較好的;不過老師一句“好學院派 ”,又好像不太適合。

跳錯了,被老師說了又說,沒有什麼,拿不到他的意思就是拿不到(不需要放手我卻放開了)。最終能做好就是了。介意不介意,真的只是當刻的情緒;或者是預設的框架?!

創作舞步,好好玩,跳出了以往的限制(以往總被題目牢牢限制了思維)。內容有小有大,有空間的轉換,有立體交叉,有互動,有自由獨立創作。

個人而言,不喜歡模仿,喜歡人人做自己的。反映出來,給點點提示,讓他們跟我一起做。

懶啊!幸好還有要動的節目,好好動一動。

《百感交集的回憶咖啡》

作者:周淑屏

借回來,都是因為“咖啡”這兩個字。故事頗好看的,輕輕的。

感覺與感覺之間是不能互相溝通的

故事裡,咖啡出現過嗎?

記憶中,跟我好好喝過咖啡的男性有兩個(是純然的喝咖啡)。

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

好遠好遠

很多的時候,才發生了的事感覺都是很遠很遠似的。

No Pain

If you're in pain, your body is telling you that you're hurting it. And to push through the pain means you're creating a mind-body separation. That's not yoga.

Alternative Dragon

終於讓我找到了,這個被老師說為感覺怪怪的,不過效果很好。課堂上做的沒有twisted,只是推大腿。

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Desires

the primary emotion is desire, also called kama. Kama is the prime desire from which arise all other desires. If this desire is fulfilled, you become proud and this is a serious problem. If it is not fulfilled, then you get angry (krodha). What is anger? Unfulfilled desire is called anger. The desire is not fulfilled, that’s why you are angry.

You don’t know how to use the things of the world and you start owning them, that’s a serious problem.

if you start doing new actions consciously, repeatedly, you will create new habit patterns. You come out from old habit patterns and start new habit patterns. You will be transformed. It can be done.

Determination is like that. If you fail in the beginning, it doesn’t matter. Make efforts. Don’t stop making efforts, that’s very important. To know the truth, there should be truth in mind, action, and speech. And if you are committing mistakes in the quest of truth, you will be on the path, don’t worry. Truth will support you, help you, if you are practicing truth. Don’t worry about your mistakes.

默書

原來現在的學生默書都是用電腦的,看他們的坐姿(抱著電腦來點選答案),下巴快到膝頭了。可怕。

又說老師們想了一些方法令學生容易記得一個字,把字拆開做配對。字,不是一劃一劃地寫出來的嗎?學習生字上為何跟我們的年代會不同的(初初以為節目是說關於學習障礙,原來只是一般的學習)?默書,變了要提示才可以完成。

還是覺得沒有工具下學習是最好的方法。

不分別

We label things good and bad, desirable and undesirable, based on our limited understanding, but when we become free of our fixed labels, then all things become potentially meaningful and are embraced in the great flow of life.

感覺最好的就是不需要作分別。
29 Apr 08

總是相信,任何的事情都是學習的機會,都是一個訊息。能學到,下次的一定不同,否則它會出現再出現,直到我們能明白和學會為止。

朋友時常說他要變得正面,而正負他也分不出來,如果我不說他也不知道不是正面。我說的當然不是什麼灰色地帶。

可以說,我睡了四天。身體有點不適是有關的,可懶是最大的動力。

覺察

只要還有貪、瞋、痴,就不可能真正做到「見以見為量」。因為有貪瞋痴,就有「要」與「不要」。凡夫是透過一面彎彎曲曲、凹凸不平的心鏡在看待人事物。無意中,加油添醋、扭曲實相,但自己很不容易覺察到。除非你能隨時反觀覺察。

Light

Don’t be disappointed with failures. When you start to make sincere efforts and start to practice, you will find light on the path. The light itself will guide you. The light of consciousness is within you. If you ignore that light, the guide outside you, the external teacher, will be of no use to you. He will make you a slave.

Do not depend much on guides. It is better for you to prepare yourself and remain awake.

朋友堅持要說他怎樣怎樣認為那是對的,我問他為何覺得這樣說對事情會有幫助。我不介意聽,聽了當為知道這世界上有這樣的一種想法,不被它影響就是了。他常以為正確是從錯誤中出發,是這樣的嗎?方法不對,用對的方法就是了(方向並不一樣,是從新開始)。不對的也不願意放下,真可愛。

The day you close the door of learning you become ego, ego, ego.

If you are not prepared, he will be there, but you won’t notice or respond.

3 May 08

無論怎樣,世界也不會為我們改變,別人也不會。唯有自己努力才是最實際。

《心經》

《心經》最後指出“無智亦無得”。就是說我們修行,不要急功近利 ,不要追求結果 ,因此不必追求什麼大法之法 ,或速成法。有心追求 , 是背道求道 ,會愈求愈遠。你不追求,順其自然 ,有一天會水到渠成。

How to Be

We all know what to do and what not to do, but it is very difficult to learn how to be. Real knowledge is found not in knowing, but rather in being. Knowing is mere information. Practice leads to direct experience and valid knowledge.

People have formed a habit of leaning on others. They always want others to help and tell them what to do and what not to do. This is a bad habit. You are a human being; you should take charge of yourself.

3 May 08

所以說要孩子自己說出要怎樣做是很重要的。

Lift Up

lift the top of your sternum (breastbone), which is just below the small hollow at the base of your throat. Be sure that you don’t push the bottom of the bone forward, which only sharpens the front ribs, hardens the upper belly, and compresses the lower back.

這個可會是我們經常犯的錯誤。
8 May 08

那晚著朋友把肩膀打開(不應該用打開這字眼,是關節在轉),她就挺胸,就犯了錯誤。她告訴我她有嚴重的背痛,有時侯連坐也不能。

摸摸她的背,感覺她的肌肉沒有伸展(短短的,好像扯著扯著般),而腳趾在行走的時候是向外的,相信這些都是引起她背痛的原因。尾骨在坐在行的時候沒有指向下也是致命傷。

黑黑的

是什麼?柑桔是也(還有什麼成分?忘記了)。這少少的一袋,二十塊。

對話

朋友:你有沒有哭?
我:有的。
朋友:我沒有。
我:也沒有什麼的。

那一刻,我知道,進步了。“也沒有什麼的”這句話,對我來說,只一種包容的表現。不是隨便說出來的,頗真心。是什麼就是什麼,不需要比較,沒有好與壞。

Monday, May 26, 2008

Hand to Toe Pose

穿運動褲會做得好些嗎?
站著的腳有調節的空間。

下個星期到舞蹈室慢慢研究(其實星期三也可以)。

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看著這相片,好想在大腿上按一按。
4 May 08




換過褲,果然是好些的。

6 May 08









得了。

看著身體一天一天的改變,真的很神奇的。哪有想過一把年紀也可以做到這個(以前並沒有做過類似的)。

Modified Hand-to-Toe Pose

今天的平衡力很差很差﹐這個對我來說是可以做得來的﹐可是卻連連要重做。

Source of the picture
15 Apr 07

被提點手不可以用力把腿提起。
14 Oct 07

乘電梯時做這個,不需要用手協助。右邊來得比較鬆。
19 Feb 08

這個,膝可以輕鬆地提到胸口的位置(不用手協助)。

重話,不話

兩者其實同是一樣的東西,都是不能跟人溝通的方法。

身教

對小孩子來說,身教是很重要的。大人做不到的卻妄想教導小朋友。而小朋友的行為跟大人是一樣的,可每每大人都察覺不到(因為大人都不知道自己有這般的行為)。

朋友時常強調孩子在他家裡行為是端正的(不太可能吧),他終於留意到事情的發生了。好端端的東西孩子卻把它破壞了。我說一是家裡有人是這樣(他說沒有),那麼就是看電視學回來的了(他的孩子是電視精)。又被我說中了。

還說教導孩子懂珍惜和不好浪費,在這之前,要令孩子明白的是分享。懂分享,才知道珍惜和不浪費的。

在睡夢中,驚叫起來(印象中好像是第一次這樣)。可不害怕。

往壞處想的人

問他們事情,總是沒有理由的,而他們也相信往好處想的人也是沒有理由的。

課堂體驗

很多的動作,都懂得由腹部開始。單腳站立也是的,如果腳一離地重心立即在另一隻腳那裡根本做不到水平平衡。

還是做不到half moon,要想想原因。

老師說我們要開始注意動作會否令自己受傷(程度高了),做不到就是做不到,不能勉強。

lying double legs twisting,被老師稱讚做得好啊!

老師又再說不好模仿,要理解後去做。

three legs dog,感覺上是有進步,可是我看不到自己,不能肯定。

用腳趾站,蹲下再起來,全程都可以保持平衡。

butterfly,有新的感受(其實是最初的拉扯感覺,不過不在表層),應該是進了另一個層次。很喜歡最初的感覺回來,因為我知道我的現況跟最初是不一樣的。

downward facing dog,雙腳跳起還要對拍兩次,只能做一次。

Sunday, May 25, 2008

活動日誌

是他們這期課的最後一堂,有些人下次見不到面了。呵呵!我開始可以教人了,是一個人站在前方後面的人跟我跳。這個並沒有什麼特別,可卻是進步的一個訊息。老師常強調,他們記得不記得不要緊,可我們並不可以教錯。很多的學員,都是在模仿中學習的。

兩人一組,主動地跟一個不太懂動的學員一起,可以做的就是叫他舉高手打開手蹲下站高和移動腳。

交流,真的不容易。兩個人一起,沒說都知道要相互配合的,可卻各有各做。不知道是哪個單位的人,總之就是年青人。我們的責任,不是要配合學員,而是令他們學習配合。

停停動動,也是我們學習的東西。在有限的時間和空間裡,創造無限。課堂的內容,是有很多的限制,我們沒有得選擇;可每人卻擁有自由,舞動的輕鬆。朋友跟我說,每每看見他們下課,每人臉上都是笑容。

老師邀請了一位媽媽一起上課(老師留意到她總在外邊跳),她做得好好啊!起初她不太願意的。看,並不是能力的問題,而是自己如何看自己。她跟孩子一起活動,那情景很美妙。

祝福語

是老師著我們做的家課,我寫了

昨日如夢,不再追憶
活在今天,追尋理想

五月天,漫天塵土
一個人,埋在黑暗中
二人行,心中滿溫暖
讓我們攜手做好現在,送上無限的祝福。

Squat on the Toes

做著這個的時候,腳趾好像火燒一樣。

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Saturday, May 24, 2008

Total Honesty

An attitude of total honesty is critical in this pose of humility, which bows the head over the knee. Only by taking your ego out of the posture and being truthful about where you are can you progress safely and effectively. The rewards of its subtle twist are enormous; this asana helps cultivate patience, acceptance, and surrender and teaches the delicate art of letting go—of tension in the body and of striving in the mind.

分別心

為了小事情而怒,好肯定是有著分別心。小孩子做錯了事,被罵是應該的,可父母卻抱著我可以罵別人不可以的心態。其實都是自家人,有什麼好分別的呢?!

我的妹妹樂得我多罵一下她的女兒,教導過她的總會記著。

越來越發覺,不分別,事情真的變得不一樣。

禪沒有對立面,是直接回到本來的地方,本來的地方就叫做來處。生和死是不是對立?煩惱和解脫是不是對立?有的說是對立,也有的說不二。實際上老早是有二了。一個人的煩惱,往往是一些無謂的是非。

體會釋放之后當下的那種東西,慢慢體驗。這樣地把體驗從一個一個的點慢慢地連接成一條線,再把一條一條的線連接成一個面,貫穿于我們日常行為之中,以此來逐步實踐禪的體驗。在這個實踐里面就有人生的智慧,人生的智慧就是生活的智慧。生活的智慧無非是讓生命煥發出本來的光明與尊貴,由自己來完成生命的莊嚴。

和諧

我們探討和諧,和諧在那裏?和諧不是商品,你有錢買不到。和諧不在別人那裏,你去找也找不著。和諧只能在你自心,和諧是你內心的創造。這個內心的創造,只能源於你對和諧的覺醒,你對和諧的穎悟。你有和諧的覺悟,你才有和諧的認知,才會有和諧的坐言起行,才有和諧的人格健康。

和諧不是沒有矛盾,不是沒有衝突,不是沒有煩惱。有矛盾,能自我平衡;有衝突,能自我化解;有煩惱,能自我解脫。

情緒

只是小事情,朋友卻出現了一大堆情緒,計有憤怒、驚訝和震驚。需要嗎?他的能量指數很高的,可用在對他沒有好處的地方。

怒,是心的奴隸。在對與快樂中,他又選了哪?他總是覺得父親所說的是不對,但又說他的話是正確的,不對的是語調。上了年紀的,我們還想他們改變嗎?如果有這樣的堅持就是跟自己作對了。他的故事聽了又聽,還不是那個樣子。困自己一世還是讓自己自由,他的抉擇了。

他常埋怨是父親剝奪了他們的自由,細心想,是誰?人這麼大,絕對可以不跟父母一起,可我相信他又不願意獨立生活,如果真的獨立,還會回家就有飯吃?!父母平時的協助,一點也都沒有了。要這樣要那樣,什麼也要,哪有這樣的一個世界?!

我們經常說現在信仰危機、人心淡漠,彼此沒有信任感,然后經常有敵意、對立和傷害。現在我們有了生命的尊貴與莊嚴,就可以把對人的冷漠和不信任從內心中挖出去,把猜忌、敵意、破壞、恐懼,所有這些影響我和他人人際關系那些不好的力量從內心中根除掉。這就是包容。有個最簡單的例子,我們看到一個人,做了一件你最瞧不上的事情,或者一件最沒有道德修養的事情,你覺得很難過,這樣的人以我的做人標準和價值判斷,這一輩子不會成為我的朋友。作為知識分子,我們這方面的劣根性很強。但實際上,我們不知道哪一個人是什麼樣的身份,在什麼樣的狀態下對我有真正的幫助,你今天瞧不起並且發願“我下輩子也不再會理會他的人”,不幸的是這樣的人往往是你最親密的人。會不會有這樣的事?

人世間是殘缺不圓滿的,而這種殘缺不圓滿,並不因為你學問高、地位高或者財富多就會改變的。求不得苦、怨憎會苦,你討厭的人恰恰要和你相聚。生命中的不圓滿是必然的,也許你就像盧梭所說的那樣:“我搬家搬家,越搬越慘”。

我們的內心是帶著一個多邊形的卡子去應接對外,所以無論走到哪一邊,總是有一個角度插不進去,別人也進不來。只有圓才能容納一切,又被一切所容納,但是不等於沒有自我。你容納一切了,又能從這些中脫離出來,就是禪的智慧。你接受一切,不等於認同一切。作為一個人,無論他為非作歹也好,行善積德也好,還是學富五車也好,低級下流也好,他的佛性和我們一樣,都是神聖而平等的,我尊重他這個佛性,憐憫同情他的佛性。因為他的佛性本來光明在身,但是被他的煩惱無明給遮蔽了,因為他的痛苦和無知,又把這種傷害施加到其他人的身上,使他人也成為受害者。我沒有權力去指責他,只有包容他。

佛教強調是否有這個願,以及為這個願你做了多少?至於結果怎樣,那是自然法則的事。

我們太多在對錯是非中打轉,還拿這個對錯是非去要求別人,那是做不到的。但是以包容的心尊重生命,你就會有力量,

不知為何,今早醒來,想著的就是朋友昨晚告訴我的故事。是有方法解決的,可是......

正反

正手反手,做出來的速度是不同的(當中的細節變得不同)。如果要快跳,我有辦法,嘻!是否真的開了竅?

Friday, May 23, 2008

這樣可以嗎

沒了孩子的父母,沒了父母的孩子,可以來個配對嗎?
20 May 08

這個意念,今晚在電視節目裡聽到過,說要為他們建立一個家。

未能改變的

一些狀況,如果沒有能力改變它,暫且不好說什麼,停一停。事情並不是想像中的壞。真的逃不了狀況所帶來的情緒影響嗎?暫且離開吧!不去看不去聽,是好事。待自己有能力面對的時候才回去吧!這不是逃避,對著一些無能為力的狀況,為自己帶來的只是負能量。何苦!

Self-reflective

We cannot truly consider tapas apart from svadhyaya; therefore, an intelligent practice of tapas must of necessity include svadhyaya. For example, if we do intensive asana (postures) without being adequately self-reflective, we may end up destabilizing our hips, creating vulnerability in our lower back, and ruining our knees. If, however, we consider the asana practice itself as a mirror, we are certainly more apt to avoid injury and may even come away with a better understanding of ourselves as well.

In either case, the result would be tapas without svadhyaya. And in both cases the result would most likely be a reinforcement of existing patterns or, even worse, a possible injury or illness.

朋友的狀況有點像以上一段,已經嚴重警告了他。不過我知道他並沒有把話藏在心裡。

品質時間

對一個小孩子來說,是沒有什麼品質不品質的,他們每一刻都是在觀察在學習。什麼什麼品質時間是用來自我安慰罷了。一是不跟小孩子在一起,一起的話就要全情投入了。

和諧

要積極引導公眾以“感恩、包容、分享、結緣”的開放心態來處理人際關系關於如何處理個體與社會之間的關系,我曾經總結了八個字,叫做“感恩、包容、分享、結緣”。這個八字也是創建和諧社會必須遵行的原則。

還沒有

往往來來,持續了兩個星期(走了四次)。如果今天還沒有消息,又要重新上路了。

過了五點了,應該是無望的了。好想知道“衰”在哪裡?見過部門主管即日就約我見GM(兩個小時還不到),應該是那裡出了狀況。他不是對我說了很多話嗎?超過十五分鐘,詳盡介紹了公司的一切。他說的以人為本,我都是啊!

還以為可以在一間不太商業的公司工作,渺茫啊!

其實人事顧問還未來電話的,不過也不抱期望了。

這很多個月中,總是想是有一個機會在等我的(不是隨隨便便的一份工作)。終於讓我遇上了,各方都配合(其實我沒有問過上班日數和時間,覺得不重要)。得不到這個,相信還有更好的。

環境

發覺,越受環境影響的人越不理會環境的改變。當他們面對事情的時候,總把人與事分開來看,於是看到的就是人的問題而忽略了成因。久而久之,埋怨(從來也沒有埋怨事件只是人)就慢慢形成了。

太過自己,忽略別人

是永恆不變的道理。

感恩

《法華經》云:「是真精進,是名真法供養如來」,所以唯有精進,依教奉行,方能真正報答師長恩,及一切眾生的恩德。

不是說一聲謝謝,而是做出來答謝。感受過才知恩惠。哪裡能感受?在行動中。

關於跳舞,朋友說我做到了。我說只是老師開了門讓我進入,往後的日子所面對的一定更嚴厲。並不是一條好走的路,可我踏上了。老師無條件的教導,怎可以吃免費的午餐,當然盡心盡力。做,也不是做給他看,讚美並不重要(當然是催化劑),重要的是,能做就能助人自助。

無念

修行過程中的“無念”,是指在修行過程中,覺察到自己的習氣、妄念,及時轉化、放下。在這裡,“無”是動詞,是放下、轉化的工夫,“念”是指自心的習氣、妄念。在修行過程中不可以把“無念”當作固定的“空境”來求取;而覺察自己的習氣、妄念,也並不是人為地立一個“心境”在那裏尋伺、照察。自性本具明覺,只要依法修行,自性自然會覺察、領悟妄念、習氣所在。

所謂轉化,實質是改正自己對事物、名相的好惡以及由此而有的貪癡,改變自心只見樹木(部分)不見森林(全體)的狀態。

寫修行日記反省自己所行所思,能幫助找到習氣所在,找到克服習氣的方法,及時調和心態。這些都是日常用功值得學習的方法。

Energy

Loving energy and angry energy are both, at the bottom, just energy.

Enlightenment

Buddhists and yogis tend to agree that in a sense we are already enlightened; we are already there. "Enlightenment is really just a deep, basic trust in yourself and your life," says Zen priest Ed Brown. The work that awaits us is stripping away the layers of delusion that we have accumulated through our karma, so that our natural state of peace and wholeness can be revealed. "Enlightenment is not a new state that is in any way obtained or achieved," says Richard Miller, Ph.D., clinical psychologist and founder of the International Association of Yoga Therapists, "but rather, it entails the uncovering of our original nature that has always been, and always is, present." Or as Robert Svoboda, the first Westerner to graduate from a college of Ayurveda in India, says, "The enlightenment process is much more about getting rid of stuff than grabbing hold of it."

"You can always ask yourself, "Is this softening my clinging, craving, and holding on? Is it'softening hatred and delusion? If it's not, you've probably gone off track somewhere.

Spiritual maturation for her has entailed realizing that the journey is long and it's "not about getting somewhere or winning something. It involves a deep cellular transformation that takes time--often the rest of your life." Change can be incremental, and it can also come in great leaps, says Kempton, and though it is important to keep enlightenment as an intention in spiritual practice, it's equally important to avoid going at it with the ambition and striving typical of twenty-first-century America. "Our tendency is often to go too far one way or another."

instances in which I see clearly and choose wisely," more often than she speaks of "total understanding forever." After all, "Each moment is new, and you respond to it anew. It is the first time that moment's ever happened."

老師跟他的學生說,不需要跟上次比較,這次看到什麼說什麼。

正確,正面

一些絕對正確的事,可人們卻不能正面面對。

衣服內裡的

雖然穿著t-shirt,做著arm raise 的時候也能看得見身軀在動。對!做arm raise 的時候身軀是會動的。做著做著,手好像不屬於我似的,軟綿綿。

Thursday, May 22, 2008

Breathing

With proper breathing, their internal heat will increase, which will enhance the slow opening of the joints.

Flexibility

"We want the body to understand that it's possible to move and be comfortable. Once you understand that, you have more options for movement creating flexibility."

If you approach movement with your conscious mind and nervous system, you tend to be looking from the place of what you already know. It's very hard to actually have a new experience from that place. So part of the method is to go into the depths, into the shadows. One of our maxims," she adds with a laugh, "is that the mind is the last to know."

朋友朋友,這就是我時常跟你說的沒有假設沒有一定要怎樣怎樣。

Reclining Twist with Raised Knee

Lie on your back with your knees bent and your feet on the floor. Cross your right ankle over your left knee. Inhale. As you exhale, drop the legs to the left, bringing your right foot to the floor and keeping your shoulders on the floor. To increase the stretch, gently push your right knee away from you with your left hand. This should intensify the stretch in the outer right hip. If you don't feel this stretch, experiment with the placement of your right foot; you may need to bring it closer to the hip or move it farther toward the knee on the floor.

原來這動作是能令臀部的柔韌度提高的。

雪糕格格餅

還以為爸爸媽媽會說太大件,他們只是默默地吃。吃完媽媽還說好吃。本想買芝士味道的,弟弟告訴我專門店就在家附近。是啊!想不起來。星期日再吃過。
16 May 08

再來格格餅,今次是朱古力味道(好想吃芝士味道)。媽媽居然自己拿來吃。
20 May 08

爸爸跟著我買了格格餅。

The Way

Thinking and expressing ourselves rationally isn't a liability that somehow prevents us from going more deeply into our emotions or ourselves. In fact, being able to give a logical, coherent account of one's deepest experience has always been considered a vital part of a yogi's development. We cannot hope to reach our full potential without developing effective practices based on sound thinking.

活動日誌

有團員哭啊!老師著我們不要理她。播放音樂的時候她用雙手掩著耳朵,老師說話的時候她用背面向大家。她的媽媽跟我們一起跳,她也無動於衷。一個小時過去了,她跟大家一起跳。哭之前,是每人的獨自表演時間,她不願意,跟別人一起也不願意。事後老師也不明白為何她那般抗拒。

老師說某年被拍下的錄像已經成了大學的教材,很為他們高興。在當中的我(雖然沒有參與他們由零開始),要加倍努力,用自己的力量來影響他們。下個月有新成員加入啊!

分組表演,我是第一個走出去的。

老師說過往的課堂可能是六次八次十二次,這個活動卻有四十次的機會。他做了十多年服務,卻說不知道如何做(從第十三課開始是新的體驗)。他告訴我們,活動裡所發生的已經超越了他體驗過的。

老師問大家在課堂裡學到了什麼,我的分享是表達自己。他好喜歡這答案,還要學員們跟著說。

星期日,哥哥姐姐,開心。是其中一個學員說的。老師說那些不是哥哥姐姐啊!說話人應該超過了五十歲。我在想,當他們把自己不當大人的時候,我們要否堅持。上個星期遇到一位工作人員,她很認真地對我們說“他們不是孩子”,著我們不好摸他們的頭。

跟他們說地震,他們懂;跟他們說死亡,他們也懂。平時不會舉手的,問誰沒了爸爸,她反應得很快,也回答老師問她當時有沒有哭。

有點分心,但又不可以說不投入。心,去了哪裡。老師一早說他很累(到達第二個場地之前,他居然說帶我們去吃東西。這幾個月以來,第一次聽到他要坐下吃東西。最後因為交通狀況,我們直接到了活動地點,可他要求在街道旁歇了一歇),是否他的能量磁場影響了環境?!最後的環節,我們一起祈禱,那一刻,最集中。

咬牙切齒

朋友說他的前任老闆離開了舊公司卻沒有咬牙切齒,覺得他很了得。我問為何要去到咬牙切齒的地步,有什麼深仇大恨。他的認知,害了他怎樣看這個世界。一些不需要的情緒他卻認為是一個必要。別人沒有嗎!他認為是個突出之處。其實不然,沒有想過就不會這樣做的了。

如果真的在咬牙切齒,誰在痛?!

Ankle Flexed & Extended

昨晚很認真地做著ankle flexed & extended,calves 和shin 的contract 跟 stretch 很明顯啊!

問我

曲︰黎小田
詞︰黃霑

*問我歡呼聲有幾多 問我悲哭聲有幾多
我如何能夠一一去數清楚
問我點解會高興 究竟點解要苦楚
我笑住回答 講一聲 我係我

#無論我有百般對 或者千般錯
全心去承受結果
面對世界一切 那怕會如何
全心保存真的我

問我得失有幾多 其實得失不必清楚
我但求能夠一一去數清楚
願我一生去到終結 無論歷盡幾許風波
我仍然能夠講一聲 我係我

重唱 #,*

笑住回答 講一聲 我係我 (x2)

不能專心

可能是永遠想著有第二次的機會。

活著的意義,在於自我探索、尋找、經歷和體會愛、道德與理性等,人生的無盡可能,而不是作為其他人的工具,用來完成其他人的目標,哪怕是父母、老師、執政者,以至是上帝。

原來那關於地震為何發生的說法是李先生所說,從來也沒有看過他的文章,相信以後也不會看。越來越喜歡蔡先生的話。

相信李先生所說,是在說因果,可他拿的方向是負面的。負面的說話,多說是無益,幫助不了事情。不過我也相信,負面的力量某些人是希望它存在的。這樣可以控制一些思想一些事情。有正能量的人,有的是個體,有能力去感受世界的一切。

“有樣睇”

新認識:你心急不心急找工作?
我:都不太急,也沒有得急。
新認識:看你都是不急的。

呵呵!真的“有樣睇”。大家相處時間只是四個小時。

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

我在跳舞

嘩!老師在眾人面前說我是在跳舞了。好意外。他說的時候並不知道在說我,沒有說名字(聽不到嗎?!)。事後同伴走來問我當初我好抗拒跳舞嗎(老師用了抗拒這個詞)?自己沒有抗拒過,不過也不介意什麼形容詞了,一點也不重要,重要是在老師眼中我做到了(他的要求可不低的)。好了,有了個樣,要好認真去學習一些技巧。

後話:昨晚回到家,再跳一跳,拍子內外全身都懂動的。是這個嗎?!

口述影像工作坊

詳情

就算不是跟聽障人士接觸,相信這個課程都可以改善表達能力。

價值

由於當代社會對心靈成長的關注不夠,很多人對人生沒有足夠的意義感,難以肯定自己的價值,故渴求優越感,不斷努力搏取別人的欣賞和讚美(甚至奉承)。更極端者,不管所作所為是否真的能令人讚賞,只管做完後自己覺得了不起就是。

能實現自我,生命就有價值,毋須藉著勝過別人來證明;若過分在意別人對我的觀感,便不會有勇氣放棄自己塑造的誇大形象,這樣有百害而無一利。

◎「結、縛、使」都是束縛、捆綁、拘禁、不自由的意思。但不要以為是別人在束縛捆綁你,若怪別人,那就永遠沒完沒了。

◎「結、縛、使」都是來自於自己的貪愛、抓取。因為無明所蓋、貪愛所繫,以致於顛倒夢想而作繭自縛。

朋友說他的第一任老闆壞了他的名聲,我說他在舊公司裡只是一個小職員,那有名聲可言。再著,傳言根本沒有實現,當事人跟他還是朋友。整件事是謠言,可他卻把它看成事實而受其困擾。

Tree Pose

This ancient, reliable pose is often the first balance posture you learn, since it's relatively simple and strengthens your legs and spine and opens your thighs and hips. When you practice balancing poses, you learn some practical lessons in how to get grounded, find your center, stay focused, and steady your mind. Plus, the process—falling and trying again—helps develop patience and persistence, humility, and good humor.

所有平衡動作,知道要跌,順著去跌,好快樂的。跌得沒有聲音,也需要練習回來的。

And, of course, the very practice of trying to balance is stressful.

As with all postures, it's essential to let go of your ambition about how you think you should be in the pose and accept where you are as fully as possible.

2nd to 3rd

呵呵!問題應該不大了。要準備什麼呢?或者練習一些英文形容詞,這是比較弱的部分。有時候想不起來就不知道如何演繹了。說工作容易,說自己比較困難,說意念更難。
19 May 08

最後,什麼也沒有準備,因為真的不知道一個GM 會跟我談什麼。工作了這麼多年,都是頭一次面試要見GM 的。

True

By being true to yourself in your yoga practice, you enhance your ability to be true to yourself in other situations.

真誠,就是一份自由。

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Backbend

現在可以做的就只這麼多(應該可以做更多,可怕跌的感覺出了來)。差點忘記了要把胸骨打開。

剛剛發覺,平時也忘記了儘量把胸骨打開。這樣做一做,呼吸立時好起來。練習再不是單單的練習,是留意是提醒。

System?

An established process shows us where we are and where we want to go. It points us in the right direction and may indicate some of the detours and dead ends we may encounter along the way. Just as a map tracks bus routes, a spiritual system gives us the means—by way of a time-tested set of practices—to arrive at our hoped-for destination.

So does a system have value or doesn't it? Tradition has an answer. In the early stages of spiritual practice, some kind of procedure is most certainly indispensable. As our practice progresses, as Bharati notes, we learn to listen to and trust our own inner voice. Then a system becomes less essential. In the end, all systems drop away—we step out of the boat—and we continue our journey "without means" (anupaya), in the realization of our authentic Self.

因為自己,所以改觀

這個漫長假期,好大機會將會結束了。眼睛好像換了眼珠一樣,看到的東西盡是不一樣(跟爸爸什麼也談是一個很大的得著)。人真的輕鬆了下來。還有漫漫長路,休息是為了再出發,這句話真的說得不錯的。

有很多的計畫,會慢慢實現的。

Blessing

When you offer your blessings, you are giving your own subtle life force in support of someone else. And that's a big deal: It's the truest act of consecration. So, when there's nothing else you can do for someone, when your friend's job or relationship or health has blown up in her face, when your country seems headed for destruction and you feel powerless to stop it, you can at least offer a blessing, trusting that by doing so you're opening one more channel for the sacred force of grace to flow through.

無力感,會使自己抗拒面對事實;雖然是別人的。

the most effective blessing is not only sincere and heartfelt but also comes from an internal connection with your source, the undying wellspring of Being. I find that the best way to make this connection is by centering yourself in the heart.

We all have people in our lives whom we've subtly refused to bless. They are often people who have wounded us. But sometimes, if you're honest, you can see that your refusal to bless comes simply from an inner contraction, from irritation, jealousy, or some other form of withholding. It is helpful to make the effort to offer blessings even to people for whom you have negative feelings. Each intentional act of blessing strengthens your ability to offer your best, until eventually you find that the inclination to bless has brought power to your good wishes and made them effective in ways you could not have imagined.

這樣做自己沒有損失,可有大得著。無論怎樣,希望人人活得好,祥和的氣氛總是跑回來我們身邊的。

自己

看著昨天自拍回來的照片,那個無欲無求的樣子回來了。那是出門面試時拍的。沒有化妝,連口紅也沒有。

支柱

剛剛跟朋友談話,發現原來他的支柱是一些負面的事情(還沒有建立另外的,是沒有可能移除現有的)。好肯定地說,他沒有想過要化解。那麼,就讓他好好享受他覺得興奮的事情。會繼續把事情一一記錄下來,待他需要查看的時候就查看。始終相信,有天他能活出熱力來。不為什麼,我想是為著他的家人吧!

想起上個星期的活動,我是做根基的,可別人一來就把我解開,其他人立即變成了獨立體(未被破解前,我們是牢牢地互相纏在一起的)。理論上,我應該是最後一個被解開的人。簡簡單單的活動,細心看,很多的啟發。

Wided Leg Standing

老師就是要我把腳趾如圖擺放。

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Quadriceps Stretch

老師提醒我們要好好地做這個動作,大腿上有四層肌肉。

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不安

突然想到,朋友的不安,可能來自他時常聽不到或聽錯別人的話;而我在這方面是沒有問題的,所以我能安靜面對。

想想同伴,她也是一樣,所以她時常說很累。

Tantra

In Tantra, the world is not something to escape from or overcome, but rather, even the mundane or seemingly negative events in day-to-day life are actually beautiful and auspicious

朋友問了我一個問題,問我如何減少遇上“怪獸 ”的風險,他的提問很有趣,我沒有想過也不用去想。遇到什麼,怎樣去回應是我的決定。一些事情,當我們想回應的時候太遲了,所以做不了什麼。一開始,好好播種好的觀念,還需要擔心什麼?!生活每一天都有,不用太緊張。好好享受和珍惜現在所擁有的吧!

it emphasizes personal experimentation and experience as a way to move forward on the path to self-realization.

finding the correct physical alignment in asanas allows energy to flow more freely and ultimately promotes creativity and freedom both on and off the mat. "Instead of trying to control or subjugate the body, you try to align it with the bigger flow of the universe, so that you can experience bliss."

"Instead of trying to eliminate thoughts, you learn how to feel the energetic pulsation within a thought," Kempton says. "As you become more attentive to the feeling space created by a thought, the field of your mind becomes more refined, until it becomes pure awareness."

"Tantra doesn't tell you not to fight or argue," says Kempton. "It says, 'Fight if you need to, argue if you need to. But do it within a context of understanding that we are all part of the same fabric.'

Monday, May 19, 2008

警言

不為小事情而活。

從電視特備節目裡聽回來的,說話人是唐山地震的生還者。

Happy Baby Pose

這個,已經可以捉著腳跟了。比這圖片中顯示的,難度是高些。

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世代

年青的一代真的不同了(不是我說的),我們可以做的不是去問為何,而是調節自己去令他們把工作做好。是有點奇怪的,不過這是事實。

不把觀念改變嗎?可以。那麼就天天活在埋怨中,說是說非(不說而聽到也不好過)。可怕。

包容

自己其實能做多少呢?應該是很少。現階段,可以說做得到的是多了一分瞭解,並不是真的能包容。

常聽到有人埋怨,那不是我想走的路,是爸爸媽媽逼我的。路,沒有人可以逼你走,走過了就是屬於自己的路。常抱著這種埋怨的人,家裡總是有點錢的。很想知道,其實你們想走的是怎樣的一條路?!

Inner Freedom

But at the deepest level, the core level, we can recognize that anger is not just anger, that fear is not just fear, that depression is not just depression. When we sit quietly with an emotion and go deeply inside it without acting it out, we find that it dissolves into pure consciousness. This is true of every feeling we have, especially when that feeling is strong and when we can let it mount to a peak but not allow it to explode. One of the most self-empowering choices we can make as yogis is to view our tough feelings as doorways to inner freedom.

This is especially important when you've been ambushed by an emotion. It helps to say clearly to yourself, "I'm feeling angry," or, "I'm sad," or, "I'm upset." You don't have to analyze the feeling or even think about where it's coming from.

Acknowledge these thoughts and then let them go, keeping your attention on the feeling rather than getting caught up in your personal story line.

把事情說上千萬次是沒用的,是因為說的時候抱的態度,多數是埋怨。試問在這情況下,怎能理出一個所以然來。一些未能改變的事實,唯一可做,接受它。

It's important to realize that you aren't just trying to make yourself feel better. You are in a process of shifting your perspective about this feeling. Your intention is to explore its energy and to let that energy resolve itself back into its root, into the core energy of every feeling.

覺醒

覺了未必會醒,就好像賴床一樣。朋友說因為沒有電視機,於是能有機會跟家人談話。表面上看是很好,可是為何談話會跟電視機有聯繫的呢?值得想想。

因為沒有事情做(沒有電視機看電視節目)而找事情來做(談話),跟看電視節目基本上是一樣的。

焉知非福

壓力的來源除了是對目標不能掌握外,也來自於我們對事物強烈的分別與執著,我們總是相信自己偏頗的認知,而無法看清事情的全貌。然而「塞翁失馬,焉知非福」,世間一切既是相對,也就沒有絕對的好壞

特別可怕的是,當事人說好而別人卻硬要說壞。有些東西,是好就是好的。

下雨

膝痛,可能跟下雨有關。不痛了。

Sunday, May 18, 2008

做應該做的

常認為沒有什麼是最好的,今次做的,有了經驗,下次再做類似的,一定會好些。聽到很多的評論都說中國新聞發放透明度高了,我的看法是在做應該做的事。這個看法沒有改變過。有人把地震事件跟西藏事件相比,不同的,一件是天災一件是政治。也有人拿唐山地震時的訊息發放相比,更加不用比。那時候是文革,那可比?!

課堂體驗

downward facing dog,雙腳往上跳,可以啊!輕輕的。lunge,前後腳轉換,也是輕輕的。

wided leg standing forward bend,老師說我的足站不好,會跌倒的,腳趾沒有指向前。他跟我說的時候,我是聽到我的名字,可沒有更正,因為我正慢慢往下(手在背後做著cow face),沒有跌的跡象。他再叫我的名字,改正還是不對,再改。不知道是否做得正確。

上背很硬,做不到backbend。左膝內側有點痛,什麼原因?

張開腳做rolling,不能啊!

warrior III,右腳站,八秒也維持不到;左腳站,穩很多。

第一次躺下,腰有點硬;最後的corpse,身軀牢牢貼在地面上。

後話:我知道為何老師看到我站得不太穩。那時候我正在做調整,把身軀向前,希望做到腿是跟地面垂直(那時候的腳趾確是沒有指向前的)。老師的話當然要聽,如果不是的話,為何要上課。

我們可以做什麼

是一句這幾天時常聽到看到的話。可以做什麼?很多事情可以做的,多關心身邊的人就是最簡單直接的了(平時我們做的太少)。除了關心,就是不好做傷害人的事情,不好小事化大,不好事事“得個講字”,諷刺的說話不好說(說來無益)。

把自己的心理素質強化,也是可做之事。世事難料,當有事故的時候,心理素質好的就可以幫助人了;或者不需要別人特別照顧也是一個幫忙。

人可以感化人,成年人多點正能量,好好影響小朋友和年青人,讓他們長大後也能好好影響下一代。

活動日誌

有人叫我,誰!猜不到是他。有人纏著我不許我動,他們真的有趣。

good morning class,他們說good morning 早晨。

休息時間,一個學員獨自一人海棠春睡般躺在課室的中央,於是我走了過去擺另一個姿勢。多一兩個人走來,另一個走來跟我背對背坐(他說好舒服),兩個女生坐在我的前面,身前傾頭躺在她的大腿上(背後的男生更感舒服了)。後來又多來兩個,一左一右的躺在我的膝上。呵呵!那一刻,大家都好快樂。不知什麼時候,我變了一個攝石人。

一橫行跳,兩橫行對跳,四方型四橫行跳。簡單的舞步,可變化出很複雜的東西。又多學了什麼是空間。人多,創造的空間可以更多。

新舞步,一步一步分開手腳來教。很有耐心重複重複地說,他們能吸收啊!老師說,這是我們下個星期表演的項目。是啊!振災表演(第一次參加這般的事情)。

來了一個年青人,老師說他有某些原因,睡了總是起不了來的。他一定會遲到,著我們他來的時候不好笑他,要歡迎他。老師預料他遲來半個小時,他在課堂開始後一小時來了。這是第一次我聽我做這般應對遲到的人。回家途中,我為他想,出來社會工作怎麼辦?!老師說給他三個月時間來訓練,培養好習慣。

我請他,那男孩不理我(他個個也不理的),另一個主動走來。

Saturday, May 17, 2008

At Ease

a yoga asana should have two qualities: sthira and sukha, which are generally translated as "steadiness" and "ease." If you don't feel steady and at ease in this pose, or any other, back off to easier versions until you do. Challenge yourself but don't strain. You do not have to catch your feet or ankles to gain great benefit.

不好跳,行也一樣的。得到好處才是最重要,在每個階段做到最好就是了。

隴南灾區物價飛漲 嚴查後恢復

有關新聞

很相信這些事情一定不會在災區出現的(有的只是人為的惡意行為,人們也不用擔心),也希望那些商人不好再浪費人力來追查你們啊!

Reverse Effects

It's worth doing a bit of work, though, to train those muscles. When they're doing their job, you'll no longer have to struggle against gravity—instead, your pose will feel light. According to yoga tradition, every cell in your body will benefit from the reverse effects of gravity on your circulatory system.

從新聞看到,有很多騙人的募捐。它們的出現不用擔心,我們聰明一點就是了,捐就選擇一些大機構。

批評

現在的看法是,由得你去批評,不理會就是了。一些冷言冷語一些幫助不了情況的話,不細聽就是了(不動氣了,因為動的氣沒有人知道)。反正我們日常能聽的都不多。

價格

朋友跟我說他預期價格會上漲,因為中國地震。我並不是這樣看的。

其實有點不明白,為何人們現在都擔心吃的。我們真的沒有得吃嗎?市場上某一個時刻是缺少了物品(例如奶粉),可是我想來想去,除了是商人的手法外,想不出為何奶粉都可以供不應求。是奶粉製造商生產少了嗎?!沒有可能。又時常說罐頭價格上漲,我跟爸爸媽媽說,是好時機不吃這些沒有價值的食物。米,雖然是貴了,可算算一餐多付了幾多,不用太擔心的。豬肉,變了質,少吃為妙。

說回物資,如果我們每人少用一點,就不會害怕擔心不足夠。

都不知道是那些人,時常都不想人們安心地生活的。吃,不太重要吧!我們是吃得過多的了。

市場有它的運作方式,我們有我們思考的模式,兩者可以沒有關連的。
16 May 08

糧食是重要的戰略物資

如果是這說法,更加不需要擔心了。調整心理最重要,不好被政治牽著走啊!心靈滿足,吃都吃得少了。

Effort and Surrender

The idea is that if you can balance these qualities simultaneously while you practice, you'll create a state of internal equilibrium that you can call upon when faced with life's everyday challenges.

朋友時常說他hold 不到某一個動作,而我從來也沒有想過要hold 一個動作。維持一個動作,對於我來說真的一點意義也沒有。可慢慢地,也做到了。可能你們會覺得我很怪(其實以往在工作上也是如此的),可是在沒有壓力下就能把事情做出來了。有些人不喜歡我也能瞭解的,有些人感覺跟我一起有壓力也絕對明白。

記得在銀行工作的時候,有一同事在我臨離職的時候告訴我,她常以為我是一個不投入的人,可做事卻認認真真的。是啊!那些時候,開會總在玩指甲的(耳朵卻沒有聽漏一句話,除非我真的在雲遊太空)。

Like waking and sleeping, they seemed like two distinct states, done in relationship to each other, but never at the same time—I mean, how could you?

其實很多人都是在行的時間在睡覺(問他發生什麼事總是說不出來),在睡覺的時候在行(睡不好)。

不好馬虎

我們可以做的就是事事不好馬虎。為何要時常被人推一推才動一動,自己負責自己的行為吧!

相信

都不是這幾天才知道的,能相信國家,多好。歷史中發生過的逼害,不是國家所為,是人的胡作非為。生命裡,能相信,那股力量是沒得形容的。我能說,是我在體驗中。相信的力量,人變為一體;否則就會支離破碎,往往就疲於奔命地做著整合的工作。窮一生,也許只有無事忙。

銅鐘水庫成功排險

有關新聞

好消息。

四百八十多萬人無家可歸

有關新聞

昨晚電視新聞報導說,他們可能要在帳篷裡居住一年之久。

出出入入

有入無出的話,影響的不是別人,而是當事人。出錢又出力,別人學習不了,是有原因的。態度影響一切,相信。

《沒有主義》

啊!

回歸立足天地間的赤軀,菩堤本無樹的境界

多麼的吸引。
8 Apr 08

我的作品裡,也不是要告訴觀眾每一個動作背後的動機和強烈的情感,每個舞者的肢體動態、節奏、圖形,交由觀眾自己去感受。

他說,目前作品仍未完成,他還未決定會否在舞台上演出,如果可能的話,他可能會跳幾分鐘舞段。

不是他跳?那麼不看了。

崩砂

在報紙上看到的,急不可待地買回家。唔!當然不是那個味道。又,打開來,怎會是“崩”的?!

固有,改變

我們是否還用固有的眼光去看已經改變了的事情?!

Friday, May 16, 2008

真的明白?!

Saw this from the book that manager lend me.

"It is impossible to have a great life unless it is a meaningful life. And it is very difficult to have a meaningful life without meaningful work. "

When you resigned earlier on, I still have doubts about your decision. But after hearing you doing volunteer work and listening to your stories. You have really found meaning in your life.

這是朋友寫給我的話。我跟他說我沒有job 可有works,沒有一天是迷迷糊糊地過的。

形容詞

叫我說出五個形容詞來表述自己,我說了
  1. logical
  2. calm
  3. not very out-going but able to deal with different kinds of person
  4. start to willing to learn new things (after resigned from last job)
  5. considerate (??)
15 May 08

也被問怎樣才是我理想的老闆,我說了
  1. involve subordinates to discuss changes of policies and procedures
  2. considerate
  3. willing to listen
  4. open-minded
現在想起來,這樣問也代表了我的管理方向是怎樣的。

電視新聞報導說,到汶川的路又再次堵了(因為餘震)。希望可以快快開通。

Plank Pose

做了三次,腹部周圍感受到熱熱的。那條紅線是我畫上去的,去量度一下身軀的平衡度。

看一看手臂,沒有刻意(從來也不做負重運動),可有肌肉顯現。

關於這動作,手的擺放不是很對。

source of the picture

這個是去年十二月時的狀況,相比之下現在的當然更有力。量一量肩膀到腳跟,分別好大。腳有力了,下盤有力了,連腳趾的承受力也提升了。

沒有刻意去練習這個動作,是各塊肌肉的力量所支持的。

Attention

"One of the most important active ingredients here is the refinement of attention," he says. "Training attention to come back over and over again to a complex task allows awareness to become increasingly absorbed in the task at hand."

就如老師所說,他的動力就是專注。

有一個影像(好像自己看到自己),還是幼稚園生,坐在小凳子上,很專心地做著家課。

"You must develop a relaxed concentration on the task at hand. Attention cannot be wandering all over the place. But it also cannot be held too tightly."

在這狀態下,人就不容易累了。如果時常要叫自己回來,也是累的。

This relaxation of effort, so central to yoga training, is called aparigraha, or nongrasping. The yogic view is that grasping (or clinging to projections of exalted outcome) interferes with attention. Studies show that, indeed, this kind of grasping is one of the roots of performance anxiety. Heightened self-consciousness (an obsessive concern with "How am I doing?") interferes with both the cognitive and the physical aspects of performance.

Thursday, May 15, 2008

情緒

當我們的心介入情緒併為之左右時,我們已經感覺不出,情緒只是生命海洋中的一片浪花,並不是大海本身。在自然界中,一片葉子是微不足道的,可當它遮蔽了我們用來觀察世界的眼睛時,它甚至就成了我們的整個世界。我們對情緒的執著,恰恰將它固化為了一片蔽目之葉。

實際

想法不可以只是單純的,要實際。希望朋友有一天會明白過來。好想知道朋友是怎麼一回事,希望不是身體機能性方面(包括思考能力)出了偏差。

肉乾

昨天本想買肉乾的,到了星洲名店,一看價錢,為何差不多貴了超過五十巴仙。那些東西,是一些不太健康的食品,看也沒有再看,沒有買了。

下星期如果有好消息,到么鳳去。

北川縣上游圍堰可能隨時決堤

有關新聞

願在那裡救援的人安全工作。

溝通

剛剛人事顧問打電話來,首先她不說什麼,只問我昨天如何,問我覺得怎麼樣(當然是別人怎樣看我)。最後她跟我說人事部給了我好的評價。

活動日誌

助教受傷了,當時我還沒有到,聽說是排練的時候不小心跌到。問題不大,往後的舞她都可以跳。

聽老師說,某些團員的身體狀況不是太好,做熱身的時候有抽筋發生(職員說應該是肌肉事宜而已)。另一個,上個星期才進過醫院。

他們開始要密集排練了,暑假其間他們要到各學校演出。一連要跳幾隻舞蹈,不好說容易啊!如果我想去,我也要懂得跳。

剛剛到的時候,他們在分組表演。一坐下,某團員跟我說我還沒有跳,我說我不懂啊(其實我是跳過的,總是記不著)!當然我也知道沒有可能不跳的,一出去要唱歌啊!唱就唱吧!好像唱得比以前好,也跟在旁的團員一起搖搖身體,她配合得很快啊!回到家,多唱了一次。

老師說不懂唱也要唱,明白。

來了幾個來實習的人,老師解釋多了。他要我們想一想,學員能夠做出一個需要全手關節的動作,代表了什麼。一個需要腹肌來支撐的動作,學員能維持了一段時間,是他們懂得運用肌肉嗎?如果不是的話,是什麼呢?他要我們留意每一個細節。

我感受到的是,他們開始用耳朵來上課,不只是眼睛。

在想,做與不做,跟願意不願意並不是相等的。如果只是用眼睛看,能做到的只是模仿,很快就沒有樂趣。能聽能瞭解,他們可發揮的更多。

看別人表演,目的是看看別人做的跟自己有什麼不同。老師很鼓勵我們說出自己所看。

一些動作,老師要他們重複再來。原來是看到了有規律性,多做一次,希望他們記著。一些即興的,當然不需要了。

做熱身,由各人帶領,我之前有很多人做了,可他們全只是動動手,到了我的時候,手腳並用。老師說終於有人動腳了。

有人分享說今次的活動安排不同了,少了規定動作,多了自由創作。老師說我們做的就是第一堂所做過的,因為他們能力高了,層次變得不同。同樣是跟波波玩,他們站著都可以把球在雙腳中穿來穿去。誰說他們一定要坐,我已經開始不太讓他們坐了。累了的,可以按自己的需要休息。

職員問了一個問題,是要學員跟著我們還是給他們自由發揮。老師沒有正面回答他,看到他一臉漠然的。他還年輕,不需要答案,讓他自己發掘啊!

缺震

四川地區很長時間內沒有發生強烈地震了,用業內的話說叫缺震,就是強震缺失,按照歷史的經驗,缺的時間越長,將來發生(強震)的可能性越大。

情緒也一樣,不好讓它震震震。我們絕對有能力做好情緒管理。

中國人壽設立的「國壽慈善基金會」將承擔所有在地震中失去父母的孤兒成長至18週歲的相關費用

很感人啊!

相關新聞

昨晚看電視,看到溫總理跟一個喪失了父母的女孩說不好哭,這是天災,國家會照顧她的。希望這群孩子,不好怨天尤人,好好生活。

別話:昨晚在電視裡看見了軍人受傷的情況,他們在趕路途中遇上餘震。看見同伴用力為他們包紮,可臉上卻沒有太多的痛苦表情(當然是很痛)。很佩服他們。

一些事情

有些事情,我們不在當中的,只可支持,未能批評。

一定有事發生

遲了一個小時才到舞蹈室,老師一見到我就叫我幫他打一個電話,邊拿電話邊說一定有事發生,告訴他我去了那裡,他說了一句很妙的話“終於都xxx”。哈哈!我告訴他時不時我都在做這件事(只不過沒有結果)。

默默的祝福

默默的祝福是最感人的。

口說緊張的,可什麼也看不見(默默的也要讓人知道)。算了吧!不再計較,沒做就是做不到這麼簡單,也懶得去想為什麼。什麼也好,原因並不能幫上忙。什麼也不想,心靜靜的。很好。

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

關心

關心,絕對需要學習。在關心別人的同時會否把自己的心關起來,總是希望別人得到了我們的關心會如何如何。
12 May 08

同事住在那裡也不知道。回想自己,當年每年的出差,老闆可有關心過我的安全。有與沒有都沒有關係,重要的是要去關心別人。

為自己打打氣

沒有太多的準備,做自己吧!

今早人事顧問打電話來提醒約會,她以為我會不去嗎?

準備去面試的公司,應該在地震災禍裡出了力。不太肯定。

Responses

Ultimately, the practice of pratyahara—in fact, all the practices of yoga—enable me to choose my responses instead of merely reacting. I can choose to dance with any stimulus that comes my way, or I can choose to step back and not respond to that stimulus. The variable is not what's around me, but how I choose to use my energy. If I retreat to a cave in the mountains, I can still agitate my nervous system; I can still generate thoughts and relive past reactions. To me, practicing pratyahara doesn't mean running away from stimulation (which is basically impossible). Rather, practicing pratyahara means remaining in the middle of a stimulating environment and consciously not reacting, but instead choosing how to respond.

Another way I have begun to practice pratyahara is to pay attention to my need to seek out stimulation as an escape. I try to notice when I want to escape from my life by finding highly stimulating environments. For example, sometimes I want to go to a movie to escape; sometimes I want to go to the mall. I don't think going to the mall or to a movie is in and of itself problematic. But when I use these stimulating activities to escape, it can interfere with my intention to be consciously present in every moment.

四川7.8級地震

天災,珍惜所有。

估計死亡人數達幾千人。安息。
12 May 08

威力相當於二百五十六顆原子彈

13 May 08

昨晚還可以直望電視節目傳來的畫面,今天有點想逃避了(最嚴重的地區還沒能看見)。倒塌了很多學校。

Nonconceptual Awareness

The natural world invites us out of our world of fixed concepts and into a closer proximity with reality—teachings call “nonconceptual awareness.”

Instead of encountering the world through a filter of ideas, memories, and labels, we connect deeply with the unfiltered and vital pulse of life in that moment.

Our concepts of time, of good and bad, of right and wrong can easily distort our ability to see the world clearly.

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Intensity

突然間很喜歡這個字。

真的需要嗎?!

朋友的同事在成都,被安排黃昏乘飛機到上海,可是航班延誤,不知道上了飛機沒有。在想,因為天災,說回來就回來了。可想想原本的出差是否真的需要。

別話:回來就第一時間看看朋友的同事上了飛機沒有,估不到我會關心起她來。

令我想到某年在香港機場等了超過五個小時,過了淩晨才到大馬,乘車回酒店。一路上,很害怕(那年飛機是降落在大馬新機場,走的路盡是陌生的,不知道要走多久,一路上就胡思亂想)。

Latissimus Dorsi (the lats)

tight, short lats can negatively affect your posture and significantly limit the range of motion in your shoulders.

one lat on each side of your back

The lats’ long muscle fibers then extend diagonally up and out across the back and through the armpit to the inner upper humerus (the upper arm bone).

when the lats contract, they try to pull the bones to which they attach closer together.

for Upward Dog: the lats lifting your spine and torso up while the lower trapezius keeps the chest open.

Without full shoulder flexion, your back has to over-arch to compensate.

平等

是看不到分別。

戒律

“一開始戒律是很無趣很束縛的,但守戒律並不是目的。戒律是幫助你養成良好習慣的,通過這種形式,安定人心,規範行為,你就能漸漸體會它的好處。”釋明生說。

學習,就是要明白這個。一些行為是要跟環境配合的,不可亂來。過多的自由,思想天馬行空,多累。

小孩子在這裡學習如何看待苦與樂,學會體諒別人,懂得為別人提供支援和方便,這對整個社會都有好處。

妹妹問女兒怕姨媽什麼,她說怕我取笑她。好,很好。

這幾天

在這幾天裡,練習著明天怎麼說。今天,卻發覺說的越來越少。心底裡,總是認為說是沒用的,行動就是了(沒辦法讓不認識我的人知道,除了說)。也總是認為,我們做的已經多過實際需要的(這點當然不能說)。

都是那個信念,看看緣分了。

小腿

睡的時候,小腿抽筋,是肌肉急速收縮。很快就沒事了,不知道是否懂得如何把肌肉放鬆?!

有舞臺有舞蹈。

Practicality

The importance of yoga philosophy is actually part of yoga's emphasis on practicality, which historically has meant that yogis prefer results they can measure one way or another and also that people are held accountable for their claims of experience. Failure to give a persuasive account means you are describing an experience that we can't share or one that you yourself don't fully understand. If your experience is so overly personal that it is just yours, if your account fails to convey a deeper, common human experience, what good is it to the rest of us? Yoga traditionalists are pragmatic. They insist that we make sense of our experience. This emphasis on clarity as well as accountability has resulted in texts and teachings that continue to inspire and guide us today.

we need to uncover the causes of negative experiences so that we learn to avoid them and thus to become more free from the sources of negativity.

朋友說擔心他跟兒子有代溝,我說那一定的了,因為他不跟孩子溝通的(他說不懂),而他跟爸爸的關係也不好。“有樣學樣”,要孩子怎樣?!

其實有什麼好擔心的,與其擔心,倒不如每天跟爸爸談話幾分鐘。話,一說就有的了。不說話,可以買東西吃。

Monday, May 12, 2008

別人,自己

說別人,何不看看自己。說的如果是好事還好,別人的所謂煩惱不要跟我說(畢業要工作了,還要父母給錢來做自己想做的。如果認識這樣的人,一定不會是我的朋友)。很佩服追求理想的人,可一定不會為任何人帶來煩擾。

Four-Limbed Staff Pose

這個還是做不到。








Set up in Plank Pose. Then bend your elbows, extending your breastbone forward and keeping the heads of the shoulders lifted so the essential action of the pose is forward rather than down.

沒有想過這動作是向前而不是向下。

嘗試向前,好點。可是怎樣可以把手擺成那個角度呢?

繼續外賣

昨晚吃外賣(幸好有爸爸弄的湯),今晚繼續,他們想吃壽司啊!

昨天吃了星期日麵包,午餐是跟同伴一起吃的豬排包(麵包是熱狗包)和咖啡(在銅鑼灣特意走到麵包店,可看了一圈都沒有吃的欲望。下個星期吧),然後在深水埗一帶遊蕩時吃的雞屎藤(本來想買臭豆腐來吃的)和買回家吃的沙爹魚蛋,晚上吃外賣炒粉和飯。今早醒來,什麼也不想吃啊!

Wants = Direction of Life?!

有改變過嗎?沒有。有了方向,只管盡力去走,路上能遇到什麼,都不重要了。能體會就好。

回想那八年煮飯的日子,讓我明白到飯不是想就有得吃的。看看現在的孩子,三催四請也不會好好坐著吃飯。世事那有飯來張口那麼容易?!

自給自足

能自給自足的人大多不會埋怨的。沒有能力的當兒,不好要求太多,沒有人欠下你的。

Change

Defensiveness, or shielding, is what creates the discomfort associated with growth. Changes start happening, changes that may not always be initially welcome, and rather than flow with the change and grow, many of us choose to stop the process and stave off the change in an attempt to remain the same a little longer. We contract in order to protect ourselves. We stop the practice the moment it starts working, usually when we start changing in ways we had not anticipated. This is because that which is good for us is not always recognized as such right off the bat. It's not uncommon to become fearful, defensive, and self-protective, to mistrust the process and revert to old ways of being. The problem with doing this, however, you discover, is that it hurts more not to change. Increasingly, then, you embrace change. You realize it's the movement of fulfillment. And when you are no longer resisting growth it will be experienced by you as less traumatic and more joyful. It feels good to go with the flow and grow.

沒能選擇改變,它已經出現,是我們願意不願意去看過明白。有能力的選擇不動,很想動的身體卻不配合(在學員身上感受過來的)。能動就好動了。

we don't actually know what will make us happy.

這句話說得再對也沒有。

free of every idea you now believe about yourself and free of every hope you have about what that truth is, you will spontaneously feel exquisite inside and be happy.

The weaker you are, the heavier you will feel. The stronger you are, the lighter you will feel.

在舞蹈室裡,喜歡提步走(最好是大腿跟地面成一直線)。很快樂的。

These three things - balance, strength, and flexibility - will enhance your overall sensitivity. This is essentially what the discipline of yoga is all about.

The beauty of being more sensitive lies in the discovery that beneficial things naturally start feeling good, better than before, and therefore become attractive to you. Things that are bad for you no longer hold the attraction they once may have had. Your diet, for example, may undergo an effortless change. Certain foods you previously enjoyed may no longer be so appealing, and previously uninteresting foods may now entice you. Lifestyle habits may also change without conscious determination.

在體驗中。

You learn to love by learning to forgive. Forgiveness is the deliberate withdrawal of judgment. It's the deliberate letting-go of criticism, condemnation, and conditions-needing-to-be-met-before-I-see-you-anew with regard to yourself, others, and everything else, in favor of seeing the deepest truth.

Not Easy but Simple

But though it isn't easy, still, it is ultimately simple. It's only difficult to the extent that we're still trying to become different than how we naturally are, and we're doing this out of habit and conditioning. It's ultimately simple - once you get the hang of it. But, at first, it's not easy. Be prepared to work.

不用想的事情就是簡單啊!

We need to release the misperception - not become different!

If you haven't spent sufficient time "at home" with yourself, free of other people's expectations, you most likely won't have come to an inner peace about who you actually are - by experiencing what's really so. And if you're not in touch with what's true about you, then you can't know that, in fact, there's nothing wrong with you.

喜歡這些,因為當中沒有對與錯,只有願意不願意。沒有勉強,看得多少,全因為自己。

You'll come up with a radically different concept of who you are, who others are, what life is, and what's going on. Everything will take on new meaning. Life will be more meaningful. And your behavior will change and you will be different. But not different from who you've always been! Different from what you thought you were.

輕鬆就是沒有想這想那。

《東京奇譚集》

作者:村上春樹

自己也許只是個一面擁有很多無聊東西,一面讓人生更重要的東西繼續溜走的人

一對

任何事情都是一對的,問就是為了答案(答案可不是方案);或者稱它為回應會比較好。

What You Are

be willing temporarily to set aside the ego's admonition that this is a waste of time, that you are what you think yourself to be, and be open to a new experience.

You'll find yourself feeling good about who you are because of what you are.

弱聽

電視節目說弱聽兒童。在想,明明耳朵構造沒有問題的,心卻被蒙蔽了。那些有心想聽清楚的卻聽不到。

Sunday, May 11, 2008

Lines of Energy

Tree Pose has three lines of energy. One line reaches up the arms, one line moves down the supporting leg, and one line stretches outward through the bent knee.

Triangle Pose has five lines of energy. One line reaches outward through each arm, one line travels down each leg, and one line extends outward through the spine in the direction it is pointing.

Your arm lines do not start at the shoulders. They start at the root of your spine, travel up the spine first, and then extend outward through the arms, like branches of a tree. They are not separate appendages somehow disconnected from their source. Every line of energy is an affirmation of its source. The source is your center.

找不到重點,就沒能找來能量。沒有能量,就覺得悶了。能量是動力。

The idea is to be creative and sensitive in the poses, to follow the lines into your tight areas so they can release and open, and to search for the alignment that feels perfect. Your job is to find the precise alignment of each line of energy so that the pose as a whole feels custom-made for you.

If some part of your body is asking for a change, be willing to accommodate it, trust the guidance you are receiving, and see the result. Allow your inner intelligence to dictate the alignment. You don't have to think about it, nor know in advance what you are supposed to do. Simply follow the line of perfect flow.

這個,在體驗中。

loving your practice, enjoying what you're doing as you are doing it, should be your sole criterion regarding how much current to create, which poses to do, and how long to practice. It should feel good as you are doing it.

活動日誌

猜不到平時來的都來了,沒來的都來了。大家的心都在這裡。

那個在第一堂就拒絕我的,今天多次想邀請我都無功而回(我早就選定同伴了)。小組表演練習(不懂聽音樂而開始),剛跳完她又來邀請,老師說累壞我了(不累啊),當然要跟她跳。好欣賞她的堅持和主動。

四個人一起創作,被讚賞啊!開始懂得開放自己。最喜歡做的是創造空間,儘量牽引他們往人少的地方走。

一個學員說我們跳得太快,她說她總是記不牢舞步。我著她早點回來,我們可以跟她練習,可是她說不能準時來。這樣就沒有辦法了。

主動地動,在人與人之間不停圍著走動,我動別人也跟著動。跳舞嗎!總不能不動的。這個是自己創出來的,沒有跟老師做過。

迷失

迷失的人總喜歡加鹽加醋的,永遠看不到事情原本的面貌。做不到的居然用“偷雞”來形容,還要蒙蔽自己多久呢?

課堂取消,那麼可以去看表演
9 May 08

「尋找快樂金鎖匙」 ,不錯不錯,看得頗開心。觀眾們跟那個大波波玩得好高興。還有二十七日的表演,有興趣的話去看看。

當中有一場愛情糾纏舞蹈,感覺跟那晚看的不一樣。是環境是氣氛。在一張小小的四方檯上兩個人推推攘攘,好有壓逼感。

有關演出片段

沒有課堂的體驗

趁他們在填寫問卷,我在做一些練習,做了child pose 和downward facing dog 的轉換、boat(能平衡了,當然做的幅度很小)、double legs raising、happy baby pose、eye of the needle with leg & head raise(整個背能緊貼地板)、plank。跟學員談話的時候又做了triangle 和 wided leg forward bend。

專業舞蹈室就是專業的,沒有硬硬的地板,做起動作來舒服多了(做到有點不想離開)。

後話:晚上走在回家的路上感覺累。沒了練習(加上逛了街),舞動過後身體真的累。

Saturday, May 10, 2008

外甥女

見到她,當然又有故事。頭穿了,縫了兩針。妹妹說她沒有哭,乖乖被護士姐姐拖著。問她如何弄到的,她說不記得。再問,走開去。

跟她玩層層疊(塑膠製品),又可以啊!還以為三歲的小朋友未能控制平衡。她哥哥不在的時候,很認真地玩;可哥哥回來後就失控了,盡情地笑。

大家一起吃我煮的河粉,妹妹說很難得吃到我煮的東西了。外甥女也喜歡吃啊!口說不吃,可盛在碗裡的都吃了。有白魚蛋、生菜、和白色的小菇(忘記了名字),材料費用三十三塊。加了家裡的蝦乾和兩顆雞精。

網上查看,吃的應該是美白菇。

我著哥哥坐好一點,外甥女立即坐好(沒人叫她那樣做)。要回家了,著他倆上廁所,外甥女一聽到就去(本來說不去的)。妹妹說我說一句好過她說很多句。人就是這麼的有趣(不只小孩子),一些人的話我們會聽一些並不,雖然說著同樣的話。

問外甥女有幾多個表姐,舉起了兩隻手指,我說是三個。她很疑惑的望著我。當然不記得,其中一個一年也見不到一次。好像想起來了,再問她,她舉起三隻手指。

買了書包,她居然要帶來。我跟她說書包是上課用的,平時外出就拿手袋。她能明白過來,問她下次會否帶書包來,說不會了。

蛋糕

今天吃了兩個蛋糕,一個是朱古力一個是芒果。妹妹跟弟弟都不溝通的,弟弟說怎知道,我說妹妹逢節日都會買蛋糕的。

Asana Fundamentals

Immersing yourself in the process is the important thing. That's what's interesting, not the achievement of elaborate postures. Involvement in the process will yield the results you desire.

In this way you exercise your sensitivity and develop self-trust. Your yoga will become increasingly internal. It will become your own. You will no longer feel as though you are doing someone else's yoga. You will have learned how to learn from yourself, and you'll find this most important trait carrying over into all aspects of your lift. You will then understand that you have truly learned how to do yoga only when you've become your own best teacher which means being guided from within.

The other extreme occurs when "fire" is lacking, when there is no exploratory thrust, when it is predominantly yield. Yoga performed in this manner is dull and lethargic, all effort, energy, and intensity being avoided. There is a relaxed and sometimes sensuous quality to this, but yoga done in too yielding a fashion never develops the openings or strength that provide the energized relaxation that is so appealing and revitalizing.

You treat your body and your yoga with less care, less respect; and automatically but not surprisingly, your body - following the dictates of your mind - loses its energy and also gets tired.

As your capacity for attention increases, so does your energy, your actual physical energy.

所以說如果真的有興趣,學習起來就會好。

if the quality of your participation is half-hearted, fragmented, and conflicted, then that will be your experience, and it will not be as satisfying or fulfilling as it might.

Edge

The main thing to understand is that there is no such thing as a "completed" or "ideal" posture. Each posture is an ever-evolving, constantly moving energy phenomenon that is different from day to day, moment to moment, and person to person. The process of sensitively flirting with your edges and achieving perfect energy flow is not merely the means to achieve the pose - it is the pose.

This is what the physical aspect of yoga is fundamentally all about. Your body is limited in movement not only through its genetic makeup, but through the conditionings that have accrued over the years. As you age, this becomes more and more apparent. Yoga is a way of exploring these limits. It's not a matter of "How can I attain this or that final posture?" It's a matter of gently pressing into the various edges you encounter within the template structure of each particular posture. And your edges and limits will change as a by-product of this exploration; you will change.

每次到了邊緣,又是準備往前跳了。無須緊張,輕輕一跳,得了。

If you are unable or unwilling to deal with an increase in intensity, however, not only in your yoga but in your daily life as well, your range of life experience will necessarily remain limited and narrow. Yoga can teach you to enjoy and learn from a broader range of experience. It will encourage you to seek out and process more intensity. The more you do this within the safe arena of yoga practice, the more it will influence all of your life. This is not as intense as it may sound. More intensity isn't even noticeable as you become strong and open.

It is important to be aware of your very first edge, your minimum edge. Taking your time to open that edge is like preparing to go through a series of gates. You must go through the first gate before you can go through the second, and the second before the third. The real key to depth in postures is going slowly, making sure you have thoroughly opened your early edges.

能感受到first edge,那麼往後的路就容易走了。

The beautiful inner music - the inner feeling - is the yoga, not the achievement of elaborate postures. And be assured, your body will grow more beautiful and become strong and flexible by being played beautifully.

To Remember

The best way to improve your ability to remember is by wanting to remember - by seeing the logic, the reason, the sense it makes deliberately to shift from intellectual or conceptual knowing to intuitive knowing. The more you realize how wonderful this is, the more you will desire it - and the more you'll want to remember.

當什麼也記不得的時候,是一個很好的訊號。

And practice on easy things, not on things that make a big difference to you.

練習不是為了進步,可正確的練習一定可以看見進步。看見了進步,不是為了進步,而是去確認練習是正確的。

If you are experiencing unhappiness, it is always because you are not in touch with your core or with what's really true. You are misunderstanding things.

表裡不一

如果一個人可以長期維持表裡不一,那麼兩面都是真實的。我們說人表裡不一只是我們不能打開心懷去接受別人的一切,我們總想有選擇地去認識這世界。

Bound Half-Lotus Forward Bend

沒有熱身的情況下能做到這個真的不錯了。

腿本來是曲的,一下,腿直了(還不是全直的,看看臀就知道了)脊椎也跟著直了。這樣的情況下,腿直並不是由膝弄成的,很好。

這個動作,在課堂裡不常做的,在家裡也不會練習(基本上在家裡都不做式子的練習,而是一些細微的東西)。從開始到結束,才十秒,當中首先要站好,一隻腳曲起放到另一隻腳上,身軀向前彎,雙手碰地再一隻手提起放到背上去,做調節。

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延長

圖書館的辦公時間會延長,好事來的。不過從另一方面想,人們的辦公時間又長了,真的需要嗎?

第一份工作,在傳呼公司(pager),幫忙計算operator 的工時,不需要加班的。老闆放假的時候還叫我帶本書回公司看。

第二和第三份工作都是銀行工,除非是 “埋數”出現問題,都不需要加班的。

跟著的一份工,根本沒有事情可做。

十年的開始就被主任投訴我加班不足(那時一個小時的加班費有差不多一百塊的),現在回想都幾可笑(這樣都會被投訴的,他們用的定義是跟別的同事做比較,我的才十個小時不到,他們的卻超過五十)。沒有方向的日子(出走以後),就賴在公司了不走。忙嗎?肯定不是。

做了幾多

朋友總是好奇我每天做了幾多,做了的寫在這裡,當然不是全部。做了幾多,還要問?!

過程

The first two yamas named by Patan-jali are ahimsa (nonviolence) and satya (truthfulness). Employing these in your asana practice means being present with what is happening in your body in each moment and respecting your limitations and boundaries instead of forcing your way into poses.

a posture done with integrity is much more beautiful than one based in ego and illusion

a better alternative to forcing the pose is to cultivate the qualities of restraint and intelligence

Instead of practicing a mechanical series of poses, you'll feel fresh and alive with a spirit of wonder and investigation.

樂在問為什麼的時候,相信是走上了一條正確的路。懂得問,是一種福氣。

the joint below will suffer for the joint above

上樑不正下樑歪就是這個道理了。

choose to honor ahimsa and satya by staying present with what is happening in your body and then adapting your practice, rather than forging ahead unconsciously.

太快的時候老師總是要我們慢下來的。

The expression vinyasa krama reminds us to learn things gradually, in stages. If you feel overwhelmed, simplify the work by breaking it down into smaller, more manageable pieces and working on the areas of your body that need opening. Be patient and let your body evolve gradually.

remember that the depth of the pose is not the goal. Look for the simple, honest, and quiet nature of each posture and you'll find that no asana is difficult or easy; it is just truth unfolding. When you practice with the focus on ahimsa and satya you'll experience yoga's promise of freedom—peace in your mind and in your body.

Child Pose

A forward-bending posture, it soothes frazzled nerves, teaches back-body breathing, and gently supports the vital energy centers of the belly, heart, and head. Its tightly wrapped shape envelops the front of the body, allowing us to soften and release protective holding patterns in the abdomen.

不看也差點忘記了child pose 算是forward bend 的一種,它是最安全的一個式子。由child pose 到downward facing dog 再由downward facing dog 到child pose,每個關節逐個逐個打開折合,那過程很是投入的。

Hip Socket

Pay attention to rotating your leg from as high in the hip socket as possible, and do not ignore pain in your knee if it does occur.

上次課堂的不適(single leg circling),相信是活動到hip socket 的部分。不習慣,需要多練習。

準備

  1. Body alignment, e.g. standing posture - ear, shoulder, hip & ankle must in line --> Management style - alignment is an on-going process and it must be reviewed both in upwards and downwards direction
  2. Create inside body (team) space, e.g. proper breathing --> Freedom --> Sense of security
  3. Chakra --> the reason why we see things differently
  4. Trust (refer to point 2) --> Willingness --> Action (ability is always can be trained)

Not to Think

An old Chinese Zen Master once said, "Some of you are taking me literally when I say, 'Don't think,' and you are making your minds like a rock. This is a cause of insentiency and an obstruction to the Way. When I say not to think, I mean that if you have a thought, think nothing of it."

The problem is not that we think but that we haven't had a truly new thought for most of our lifetime. In other words, our thinking is fixed.

Holding on to a thought, such as, "I am not going to move," also tightens muscles. This is what you are busy doing a good deal of the time, so if you are serious about releasing and calming the body and the mind, thoughts are going to be popping up one after the other. The trick is not to mind.

朋友的練習為何沒有成效,就是他忙於做別的事情,雖然他也有活動他的身體。不是我們想,身體就做我們想的,如果是這樣的話,根本不需要練習。練習是跟我們的心在一起,觀察它。就此而已。

關心

關心一個人是要全心全意的,當中沒有選擇。懂關心的人一定懂得回應,回應是一種能量。沒心的人(是看不到自心的人)是否害怕別人關懷他的心呢?

Friday, May 9, 2008

複雜,簡單

用複雜的心態不能瞭解簡單的事物(因為覺得沒有可能),反過來可以嗎?我相信是得的。

煮飯

今晚我會煮飯啊!爸爸不太舒服,不好要他勞動了(不出聲的話,他會煮了自己卻不吃的)。其實也不是煮飯,煮湯粉罷了。

兩天沒有回家,還以為今晚可以喝喝湯。世事真的不是必然的。想過叫外賣,再想想,都是自家弄好些。我開始討厭街上食物了......只是兩天。

以前的日子是怎樣過的呢?兩年還是三年,盡是街上食物。

後話:“好日唔煮飯”,居然大廈沒有水。把材料放到雪櫃去,明天繼續。不知道今晚水管可以修復沒有。

過三關

得知要過三關,又是架構重整。沒問題,見多不怪了。要準備,畫一畫十年變化圖。

剛剛看了一看,準備去面試的公司的那個部門在請人啊!整個功能部門裡有好幾個職位做著招聘。沒問題,新人還好相處,好怕“老人精”。

Lunge Pose

看錄影,膝的alignment 有改善的地方,課堂裡就是留意到這點(我們做的是lunge pose 腿曲腿直的練習)。問題不算大,改善需要腿肌肉的配合。再想想,是否腿往後的緣故呢(這條腿比以前是更為有力)?上一課堂,做了推大腿的動作,目的就是把盤骨打開(pushing outwards)。應該是這樣的了(某一地方改善了,alignment 是要重新由上而下做一次的),練習來試試看。

這個準備式做得還不錯。那一束陽光令我看得不太真。再看看,這原來是起來的一刻,怪不得左右肩膀有點不對稱。是左邊先起來。

看著看著,看到力的表現。不知道是否自己單方面的想法?!

看見看不見

真的看不見還好,只是以為自己看不見的就大有問題了。

Karma

One of the first things to do in sadhana (spiritual practices) is to regulate actions and speech, promoting the positive and useful, while setting aside the negative and not useful. This is the first part of breaking the cycles of actions and reactions, or Karma.

principles and processes of Karma apply to all people, regardless of how we might conceive this core of consciousness.

It is extremely useful to become a witness to our own emotional processes during our actions in the world. Isn't it true that we often, and easily observe the gestures, body language, and emotional reactions of others? If we can so easily see it in others, we can also see it in ourselves. By clearly seeing our own positive and negative emotions (those are the culprits), we can promote or strengthen the positive, useful emotions like love, compassion, benevolence, and acceptance (See Yoga Sutra 1.33 for meditation on these positive emotions). Witnessing our own body language, speech, actions, and our emotional reactions will give us a mirror reflection of our Deep Impressions or Samskaras. It also allows us to see the predictable ways in which the Four Primitive Fountains (food, sleep, sex, self-preservation) play out. Thus, we not only learn to regulate our emotions in positive ways, but also come to see the roots from which they arise. This self-witnessing in daily life is a major part of Karma Yoga, going along with doing our actions selflessly for others.

This is not bad, and is not to suggest that one should suddenly attempt to abandon all desires in the world. Rather, it means being aware of how the unconscious process of karma works so that those desires do not make you a slave to their intensity.

If one's desire (kama) is achieved or fulfilled, then there is the emotion of pride, or muda, having what others do not. When one attains what is longed for, then attachment comes; this attachment is called moha. Moha is the incorrect sense that, “This is mine!” When one is attached to something, one becomes greedy, which is called lobha. Once there is attachment to something, it is as if one can never have enough.

埋怨

任何形式的埋怨,都只會把自己困得牢牢的。

藍天

一早醒來(被電話鈴聲弄醒的),看見了這麼美麗的藍天白雲。

左邊的,有一個大大的心啊!

Ankle - Calf

Build your calves. The calf muscles make up an important muscle group that controls and gives support to the ankle. Both strength and flexibility here are important, explains Reba Schecter, director of exercise physiology at Canyon Ranch health spa in Lenox, Massachusetts. One way to make calf muscles stronger is with a heel-raise exercise.

Thursday, May 8, 2008

比較

朋友告訴我他愛問心情,是想作一個比較,看看為何他跟我是不一樣。我說在過程裡,可以沒有任何心情的。舉了那次在外表演,大部分的人都跳錯了,我就跟著他們。在還沒有思想就更改了舞步,根本沒有心情可言。為何會回應得這麼快?就是知道事情要如何發展,知道有什麼不可以在臺上出現。可以跳錯,不可以停了下來(是老師的吩咐)。

朋友說他從來也沒有想過協作,那麼什麼也不用說了。在團體裡,是沒有自己,想的都是大夥的事宜。一個將“我”看得很大的人,原來看的世界是這麼的小。

“平常心是道”。事來就應,不思慮,不計較。

這麼巧,看到這些話。

《不是陌生人》

下個星期有機會看一場舞蹈表演,應該精彩。
2 May 08

內容下個星期才寫,因為看的是dress rehearsal。可以說的是我看到自己,笑望過去。一切都成過去了,感情上的人事關係上的。

留意到舞者的腳,是腳跟先落地,腳趾最後才碰地面的,而它們時常在打開的狀態。

編舞的要我們想一想為何舞蹈中的舞者是沒有笑容的。

同伴打電話來問我看得明白不明白。很難說是明白,我們根本沒有可能閱讀編舞跟舞者的心,可以說的是看得很有共鳴。內容雖然是負面的,可看到光明,屬於自己的。在人生的大書裡,好肯定我已經翻到新的一章。

老師說我們作為觀眾的也是舞蹈的一部分,對啊!感受到一個人用正面的態度去看很負面的內容。如果換了戲劇形式,效果不一樣。有可能不能投入。

場刊裡描述舞蹈劇場的最後兩句話

我們然而......
卻不關心

真的,真的是這樣的。不過也不無奈了,惟有做好自己。別人的想法真的管不到,也不想去管。不是沒有告訴,真的是說了也不會聽,看了又自家想認為會是這樣的情景。不去想了,多想沒用。

跟以前那個“他”一起時,沒有反應的日子(跟空氣說話)我就放棄自己,每天都是睡睡睡,很頹廢的。

病了看醫生,藥放在檯面上,問也不問一句。畢業了,畢業袍在家裡,也是不聞不問的。有的,只有爭,爭用電話線上網。這些這些,不是全看到了嗎!

一位朋友說看不明白,我跟她說她很幸福,生活多簡單。人是我非,人非我是,浪費了不知道多少的精力。

愛情是,兩個陌生人走在一起,過著一些極度親密的生活,然後(有機會)兩個人再次變為陌生人。很喜歡用兩條平衡線的相會來形容愛情,相會後用同一方向走,大家相安無事;否則總有離開的一天。雖則是相會了,大家移動的速度不一樣,接觸點就起了變化,可以很邊緣化(在這情況下,要維持相交就要走相反方向了)。一條線不動,另一條線繼續動的話,離開也是必然的。想著想著,這也可以編為一隻舞蹈。

舞者們的動作,有些我們在活動裡也有跳到的。跟朋友們說,他們的是優美版,我們的是硬梆梆版。

朱古力軟心包

好好味道,外邊跟內裡的朱古力是不同的。外邊像曲奇妙趣,內裡就是朱古力醬(不甜)。原來這個包是招牌菜

Quadratus Lumborum

Trikonasana also strengthens an important back muscle called the quadratus lumborum, which connects the hip to the rib cage and allows you to bend sideways.

"There's a relationship between the length of a muscle and the strength that it generates," Brown says. "If a muscle cannot move along its normal full range of motion, it can't generate the optimal power."


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深層的肌肉,按摩絕對是觸不到碰不著的。

錯錯錯

不用我說都知道錯在那裡了。不知道嗎?!說來也好笑,每個動作他都做錯(他有上課的),錯在一些很重要的地方,例如躺著的話,下背離地就什麼也不用再做了。

鳴謝朋友提供照片(沒有得到他的同意的)。

金牛

走了,是我不小心弄掉的,是第一次。心情沒有什麼,冷靜。

後話:一牛去一牛來,還有所得。能夠冷靜,想法是一來一去,抵消了。

電話

一接通,話就傳來了,都不知道是那人。差不多待他把話說完才知道是哪。老師老師,你想我做的事昨晚已經做了。他真的很親力親為的,佩服。

一個人的過去

看小說,總是看到故事說一對戀人不知道對方的過去而導致分手。要知道的嗎?問了自己很多次,不需要。有興趣知道的時候只是為了一些行為上的解釋。

過去,只是一些故事。如果有人存心欺騙,說了也沒用。

Lying Twist

It is likely that in the beginning, muscle tightness will prevent the right shoulder from releasing completely onto the ground as you spin the upper body open. If this is the case for you, don't despair. Instead, bend the right arm and rest your hand on your ribs. Positioning your arm in this way is a better solution than plopping your right hand onto the ground while the shoulder still bobs in space, which risks straining the upper body.

又是勉強沒有幸福。當肌肉骨頭還沒有準備好之前,做一些不太完全的伸展是最好的,是當時的最好。

the name of the game in this exploration is to anchor the legs while revolving the spine and torso in the opposite direction; on this side, that will maximize the stretch in the left side of the body.

老師還是每次都提醒我們伸直的一隻腳不許動。

Intentions

Goal making is a valuable skill; it involves envisioning a future outcome in the world or in your behavior, then planning, applying discipline, and working hard to achieve it. You organize your time and energy based on your goals; they help provide direction for your life. Committing to and visualizing those goals may assist you in your efforts, but neither of these activities is what I call setting intention.

it is a path or practice that is focused on how you are "being" in the present moment. Your attention is on the ever-present "now" in the constantly changing flow of life. You set your intentions based on understanding what matters most to you and make a commitment to align your worldly actions with your inner values.

Goals help you make your place in the world and be an effective person. But being grounded in intention is what provides integrity and unity in your life.

by remembering your intentions can you reconnect with yourself during those emotional storms that cause you to lose touch with yourself. This remembering is a blessing, because it provides a sense of meaning in your life that is independent of whether you achieve certain goals or not.

Goals never fulfill you in an ongoing way; they either beget another goal or else collapse. They provide excitement—the ups and downs of life—but intention is what provides you with self-respect and peace of mind.

Naturally, sometimes things go well for you and other times not, but you do not live and die by these endless fluctuations. Your happiness comes from the strength of your internal experience of intention. You become one of those fortunate human beings who know who they are and are independent of our culture's obsession with winning. You still feel sadness, loss, lust, and fear, but you have a means for directly relating to all of these difficult emotions. Therefore, you are not a victim, nor are your happiness and peace of mind dependent on how things are right now.

想的就是這個了。
31 Jan 07

朋友總是喜歡問我的心情,沒有啊!平常心。喜歡說過程而不是心情。

Right intention is simply about coming home to yourself. It is a practice of aligning with the deepest part of yourself while surrendering to the reality that you often get lost in your wanting mind.

別人的話

我們看的比別人多,可還有很多未接觸過的。是啊!努力看努力聽。

在想,星期三的活動結束後,轉到另一個新環境,接觸一些更難處理的活動。

黑暗,光明

修行不怕黑暗天的存在,只怕沒有以光明、清淨、智慧、慈悲、感恩的心念去面對。如果總是看到黑暗的一面,就該返照自心,莫忘失自性清淨功德及人人本具的佛性。唯有坦然接受黑暗的存在,了解一切善惡境界皆唯心所現、唯識所變,並以正知見引導正確的行為,才不會為境所轉,因為──凡聖之別在一念之間。

Alignment

When you practice with proper alignment, you target the muscles you want to strengthen. Otherwise, you recruit less anatomically optimal muscles to do the work.

又說alignment 了,它很重要的。做不到某個動作,一定不會勉強而為之,會努力做簡化初級版。勉強,什麼alignment 也沒有了,那麼還做來為什麼。

一步登天

朋友在說不可能一步登天(他都不知道說了幾多次這樣的話),我著他不好再說這麼沒有意義的話,說一步一步也未必一定可以到達想到的地方,還說一步?!

活動日誌

呵呵!老師又請假了。兩個小時,無驚無險就完成了。事前沒有安排,有點順勢來做的。休息時間,職員們也拉著學員來跳。今晚好像做了主持人。

學了一些新舞步,初初學著的時候覺得很難,跟不上。慢慢練習下來,又是順著來的。腳一步一步向前行,雙手在開開合合。難,是錯覺。

按工作人員要求,把舞步改為安全版。沒有問題,跳得開心就是了。

開著音樂任意跳的時候,自己獨個兒投入地跳,好好玩。有鏡子就好了,可以邊看邊改。

學著老師玩禮物遊戲,我把它改為每人都有禮物。多開心。事後職員問他們得到了什麼禮物,有人說了xx(忘了名字)有人說沒有。當然,我們玩的只是動作。

舞團方面,他們少了團火,沒精打采的。看見很多可以改善的地方,排舞老師不出聲,我也不便多說了。要等老師來對付他們。

陰影

那陰影,真真正正沒有了。今天被人問一個問題,答了才醒覺我是這樣答的,真的是第一次。現在想想,有點像《VV 勿語》裡說陰道這兩個字。

椰汁

頗喜歡喝椰汁,不過現在已經很少找到新鮮的了。今晚在深水埗看見,買了來試。即場製造,等了兩三分鐘,還可以(不過不是兒時的味道,可能是多了黑白牌淡奶。個人不太喜歡這品牌)。

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

In order to enjoy meditation and sit satisfactorily in chairs, we must also pay attention to the position of the thighs. One of the problems with most chairs is that they force us to sit with our thighs in a horizontal position, or worse yet, with our knees higher than our hip sockets. As soon as we raise the knees to the same level or higher than the hip sockets, the pelvis tilts backward, and the lower back rounds.

when we sit with our thighs at a 125 to 135 degree angle to the hip sockets, it is much easier to sit comfortably.

從來只聽到“腰要挺直”的說法,原來大腿也是要留意的地方。
1 Dec 07

重溫了這篇,也做了測試,稍稍提起膝,尾骨的影響可大了,被壓著。也想到以前常在辦公室裡穿著三寸高的高跟鞋(穿平底鞋回公司再換高跟鞋的),給了下背很大的壓力啊!因為鞋的高度,膝被提升了。

The next point of concentration is the arm position. If you place your hands on your knees, as is often recommended, the tendency may be for the weight of the arms to pull you forward. The arms can weigh as much as 15 pounds. So try placing the hands on the tops of the thighs near the belly; turn the hands so that the little fingers rest on the thighs and the palms face the abdomen; keep the fingers relaxed. Make sure that the elbows fall behind the side seam on your clothes, and allow enough space under your armpits to hold an egg.

Hero Pose

課堂裡不常做這個,單腳屈起就有。







Point the feet in line with the shins. This provides the best alignment for the knees.

Keep the ankles near the hips.

Strengthen muscles that stabilize the knee. Virasana is a great way to stretch the fronts of the thighs, but stretching without complementary strengthening can make your students’ knees less stable.

2 May 08

今天在舞蹈室做了這個,還好,足是緊貼臀的,腳背貼地。褲子側邊的條子也沒有扭曲,很好很好。

高興

有人來看,被感染了,我是說關於瑜伽的部分。很高興啊!都是因為有一位好老師,我才可以寫這麼的多。

朋友跟我說,他的同事發覺他在課堂裡所做的動作有所進步。如果是我那兩三句的提點(每個動作都有一個重心,找到了就好),很高興啊!高興是真的在學習,我說我啊!

步伐

人們遇到些麻煩時,習慣於依賴於他人,求取他人援手,自己不肯盡力而為。這也許就是我們作為凡夫俗子的原因。而觀音之所以觀音,大慨凡事都自己來解決吧。因此,你與其煩惱著,花時間找人訴說,整日被不如意折磨,不如坦然接受了吧!可以稍微放慢一下你自己的生活腳步,去做一些沒有時間做的事,比如上學進修,讀讀那些你早就想讀的書。總之,去嘗試一下另一種與你平時大不相同,但也十分充實的生活方式。然后你會發現,你對生活有了新的認識。

Mantra

Mantra comes from the combination of two syllables: "man," meaning "to reflect" or "be aware," and "tra," meaning "tool for" or "agent of." A mantra is a tool for reflection and the cultivation of awareness, and is used for both concentration and contemplation on the Source.

palms facing up to open your awareness or facing down to calm the mind

來電

還沒有到人事顧問那裡,她來電相約下個星期到公司面試(怎麼會是一個星期以後的?!)。第一次是這樣的,蠻有趣。一個跟我以前職位差不多一模一樣的工作,當然業務性質不同。

對於工作,到現時為止,還沒有什麼的要求(不需要升職,沒有亂加班就好),不要再遇到亂發脾氣的老闆就是了。我想的,卻是可以隨心到中央圖書館或者是跟老師多上一堂瑜伽。

後話:要見的是一個女人,祝福自己。

在想,要如何說話呢?所說都太有道理,太現實,會讓人不舒服的(人人都會說我所說的,可我真的是在做的啊)。可要我說不是心底話,又不太想說。隨心吧!

點呀點呀

你問“點呀點呀”我都想回問你想“點”。

Blossom and Grow

"In this sequence we embrace our sexual and creative partnerships and let go of blame. We remember our intention to bring liberation to others."

The hip-opening and twisting poses activate the second and third chakras, respectively, helping to free energy in those areas, and move it up the spine so that, as Gannon says, "you can give back to others in creative ways." At the peak of the sequence you embody a luminous lotus flower emerging from muddy water. In yogic lore, the lotus is a metaphor for how past experiences can be used as fertile soil for blooming into a more awakened soul. "We can all be like Martin Luther King Jr. or Julia Butterfly Hill," says Gannon. "You can embody that awakened state of spiritual activation and really send compassion into the world."

focusing on her feet, for all poses that stretch and strengthen the legs and feet help the first chakra.

gifts of the first chakra: calmness, patience, and a willingness to slow down and stay in one place.

A healthy, spirited third chakra supports us in overcoming inertia, jump-starting our “get-up-and-go” attitude so that we can take risks, assert our will, and assume responsibility for our life.

Deficient energy in this chakra leads to neck stiffness, shoulder tension, teeth grinding, jaw disorders, throat ailments, an underactive thyroid, and a fear of speaking. Excessive talking, an inability to listen, hearing difficulties, stuttering, and an overactive thyroid are all related to excessiveness in this chakra.

老師課堂的次序是躺、站、坐,是一個很有結構的安排。

Asana

A well-performed asana is not one that fits an idealized image. Rather, a well-performed asana generates feelings of being grounded, balanced, self-nourished, energized, in control.

練習的目的就是這樣,時常想著做到做不到,出發點已經不對。

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

Elements

Everything in nature is made up of five basic elements: earth, water, fire, air, and space.

Fire is that part of Nature that transforms one state of matter into another.

Fire is worshipped in many yogic and Tantric rituals because it is the means by which we can purify, empower, and control the other states of matter.

Fire and water, for example, will "destroy" each other if they get the chance. In order to co-exist fire and water need to be separated.. Too much fire in the body will create inflammation, while too much water can dampen fire and cause indigestion.

Some elements are said to "love" each other in that they are supportive and nurturing of each other. Earth and water love to "hug" each other, and air and fire increase each other.

Fire forms hunger, thirst, and sleep. Air is responsible for all movement, including expansion, contraction, and suppression. Space forms physical attraction and repulsion, as well as fear.

蜜汁叉燒

吃得很滿足啊!我跟爸爸說我在吃豬排。經過長沙灣的話,買來試試。

Chair Pose

合手掌的時候,給了下背很大的壓力。

不太肯定這做得對與否。









trying to take the thighs as nearly parallel to the floor as possible. The knees will project out over the feet, and the torso will lean slightly forward over the thighs until the front torso forms approximately a right angle with the tops of the thighs.

依這說法,可對了。身軀應該不需要這樣向前傾的,對嗎?

仔細看前兩張相片的比較,人坐低了效果更好,身軀好像長了一點點,手也比較直,頸脊跟脊椎的alignment 更好。

大腿的肌力好了,做起這個動作也沒有以往的辛苦。

快樂

想到,快樂是否也有限額的?!如果是無限的話,為何快樂的人總比不快樂的人為少?!一群人,來的都為了自己喜愛的,可並不是一群人都快樂。

欣賞

「肯定自己,不需否定別人;肯定別人,不需否定自己」,當自己能懂得「放下」與「轉念」,不再執著於表相,就能見賢思齊,以欣賞的態度讚歎他人的成就,觀察他人的優點,激發自己向上提升的力量,化解內心的無?煩惱,身心都能清涼自在。

有智慧的人,會漸漸懂得「欣賞」的藝術,不論是欣賞人、事或物,當心量擴大了,看事情的角度改變了,內心就能體驗許多美好的事物。反之,若時時刻刻處於比較與競爭,嫉妒的雙眼如何容得下他人的優點?狹隘的心量也無法成就人間的美事,所以,若想要人生更美好,必須先懂得──欣賞。

昨晚看電視節目《同事三分親》,看到Diana 的橫蠻,笑了出來。我的舊老闆真的是那樣子的。居然可以笑得開懷。

昨天人事顧問問我會不會覺得那職位悶,工作本身是沒有特別的,寫字樓的工作都差不多。隨後我想到我想要的是一個和順一點的老闆。朋友的老闆就好,遇到事情總是著他不好緊張。

Triangle Pose

身軀可以保持直直的(沒有前傾),進步啊!感受到盤骨的穩定性。

Meditation

There is a strong temptation to just block all of the thoughts by focusing on some object, or by chanting a mantra. This is a serious mistake for a meditator to make. It puts a veil, or maybe better to say a wall between our conscious state and the deeper parts of our being, including the bliss we are seeking and the center of consciousness. What can start out as an effort to meditate ends up just another method of suppressing thoughts and emotions, and this is definitely not useful.

一想,壓力就來了。剛剛在做chair pose,目的是拍照。自拍功能有時間限制,想著把動作維持久一些,做得深層一些,又要想著相機何時才會“嚓”一聲,給了身體壓力。來一次不拍照的,完全地在做動作,每一輪的呼吸,身體就下沉多一點。

Training the Ten Senses

In the process of meditation one then cultivates a practice of letting go that is often called relaxation practice. This relaxation is also not an act unto itself. There may be particular methods associated with the practice, but it is actually a practice of cessation of that act of holding on or grasping, which is the suspension of one of the active senses, or karmendriyas. In practice, it is extremely useful to sit and be aware of the ability to hold or grasp, but that you are not using that ability for the present time.

Awareness of the sense of sight draws your attention to the eyes (though actually operating from the third chakra, the fire center).

The Four Functions of Mind

If Buddhi is clouded, then Manas has a habit of continuing to question, seeking good instruction. Then it often listens to whoever is speaking the loudest in the factory, which is the wants, wishes, desires, attractions, and aversions stored in the memory bank of Chitta.

很有趣。只要相信願意,情緒困擾只是過眼雲煙。

If Chitta is not coordinated with the other functions of mind, then the thousands, millions, or countless impressions in this bed of the lake of mind start to stir and arise. It is as if these many latent impressions, coming to life are all competing for the attention of Manas to carry out their wants in the external world. In the absence of a clear Buddhi, the competing voices of Chitta often drive Manas to take actions in the world that are really not so useful.

Rather than killing the ego, it is more like befriending the ego.

The problem, as described above, is that ego mistakenly takes on false identities. It is not that ego is somehow bad, and needs to be punished by a death sentence. Rather, it needs to be trained, along with the other of the four functions of mind, particularly Manas.

OM Mantra



source

連續兩天的夢都跟舞蹈有關,很多人,可醒來卻並不覺得累。

靜安

朋友老是說開心不開心,這不是我關心的範圍。我要的是靜、安。

Squat Prayer

這個,說做就可以立即做了。回想起以前,不太喜歡做這個的。在上次活動中,我們做這個,他們的臉上大部分掛了一個不願意的表情。

source of the picture

Lying Arm Stretch

喜歡在半空畫一個半圓(其實是慢慢在轉動肩膀的骨頭)。

source of the picture

Alignment with Reality

the choice to open up to what is actually going on inside us and around us. It's the attitude of deep acceptance that lets us experience the inevitable hardships and disappointments of life without resistance, without constantly wishing that things were different. Surrendering instantly gives us back the energy we have been spending in resisting our lives, in feeling victimized, frustrated, or despairing. It is the most profound form of alignment with reality—and it opens us to love.