宿命

唯有可以這麼說。

可能

可能是我想得過多了。但願如此！

無論如何，我會守著不說老闆的不是(會寫，嘻)，也要開始不說任何人。

有點傷心的是，對過人好卻換來這般的對待。就算最後的幾天，也沒有大聲跟她說話，雖然有搖頭。把日曆看了又看，想著發生了什麼事。還好端端的，卻一下子作了三百六十度的轉變。不想去想，卻想著。討厭。

人

不明白為何要我見這麼多人，可以不請嗎？我不需要人。聽了今天說的，更加不想要。來的人要走，又是我的錯了。不想再聽重覆再重覆的話。

一千五百

要來做什麼？？！！寫，都是為了應酬。拒絕，最好。我只想用錢來學yoga。

只是記錄

一個10% 的項目，講了九成的時間。
如果那是事實，為何三月時不跟我說，現在才說。她是否在說真話，不太想知道。她看是事實就是事實了。我把她說成他們。
這個月的又說我被人投訴。是嗎？當時又不說。無論發生了什麼事，不管了也管不到。是積極不回應。
不會跟她說什麼了，沒有能力也沒有必要不同意她，因為她一開始就不打算聽。
新任務是連職位名稱也變了，有趣的是我還要做著助理文員的工作，也要繼續招呼他。好笑不好笑，我是他的上司。
也不會說什麼了，問清楚事情如何安排，她要更改自然會，否則說來是沒用的。如果她不覺得好笑的話，我能接受。
曾想過過得一日得一日，實現了。
某某說我沒有某某資格，能勝任嗎？想想從前，他做差不多的事情，也沒有某某資格，看的數目是現在的十倍有多。
說我不敢跟高層交手，怎可以？？！！稍稍說一句，蠻緊張的；所以什麼也不說了。
六項事情，沒有每項問一問，就給了一個不合格的分數。不說什麼了，她已經這樣做了。也不想公平不公平。
這些數字的影響，當然是錢。沒有關係，少少的數目(應該三萬也不到)，不值得不高興。在外找回來。
說我老派，老就老，一點也不介意。

衝動想到，就考一個資格回來。一定可以做到。

Chinese

Suddenly the button to change to typing in Chinese disappearred and don't know how to recover. Last night thought reboot PC then no issue. However, it is still missing.

下載了南極星，暫時把問題解決。

Moving

Never will let me to stay in a comfort zone. Suddenly got the news that everything is changed. Good or bad??!! What I can do is try my best :) Actually I know how to show the "effort" which others like to see. It is only my choice whether I want to do in this way. If only for money, no way. I need to think of a reason to do it without pretending (no point to push myself to do things that causing no good).

Existing, work one month can spend two months is the only reason I stay :) Sure don't want to attend interview is another great reason. Everywhere same is the 3rd one.

Right or Wrong

Just commented by boss that I could not say in some way. Ok, fine. No need to have emotion as right or wrong, is there any standard??!!

 

I really don't know what happened and really don't know HOW. However I am not intended to find out the answer as sure there is NO. If then, just flow with the situation. If a person needs to think negative (but thought of positive), sure there is no way in helping him/her.

 

Better to use the energy to remember the dance steps as it really can help alot of people. Job that earns a living (here cannot expect too much but don't say the company is bad and I won't complain as it hurts myself), mind for what :)

Shoulderstand

first from the chest into the midbody, opening your lower ribs, and then into the abdomen, helping the pubic bones curve away from the navel. When the entire spine is nourished by this upward energy, the pose becomes more comfortable and effective.

It is the point why and how we do shoulderstand. Legs straight or not, not so important.

If we always want Perfect in yoga, then most of the people may not do this. However I can tell from my own experience, no matter how the pose looks like, as long as do it properly then can benefits.

Teacher once taught us how to do supported shoulderstand with a chair. As long as our body is not strong enough to support the straight legs, using chair is a good way to have the same benefits. Teacher always reminds us not to struggle as it is not yoga.

Using your hands to keep your rib cage fixed

This is the purpose why using hands to support the body.

If unhurried, your body will continue to change, allowing a natural and lasting expansion of your range of motion.

Still Arguing

The staff is in boss's room for almost 2 hours, still arguing. Argue for what?? Performance not good I can say but sure the staff doesn't agree. Really hope he might leave then I can recruit another better person to assist me in the new role.

 

Now I won't argue with him (I am helping him but he sees me as negative, nothing I want to say), what he asks for I may do it for him. Not meant I am fear of him but just no point to waste the emotion. The more I can do means no need him to be here :)

 

For the new role, I like to joke whether he goes first or me. Sure with existing boss around, I am the one needed to stay :) But thing cannot be so sure as thing can change so fast that we may not have the chance to foresee it.

Don't Lose the Energy without a Purpose

Sometimes move with the wave is a great way to save energy for better purpose. We used to comment too much and wish things would be changed per what we wanted. How come we need to expect that much??!! Feel free to experience is better.

Read a Story

Just read a story (actually it is a real life happening). HOME to some people, it is really important. Cannot say much on this as it cannot be disclosed. What I can say is although the event is a sad one but it also with warm.

課堂體驗

肩膀很累，做著一些手部帶動的動作的時候，做得很勉強。
能量在流動，一些舉手伸展的動作，手放下來的時候，感覺熱熱的。
seated twist，做得很漂亮，一點勉強也沒有。越twist 越有空間。
triangle（如果沒有記錯的話），望著鏡子，看到胸膛打開再打開。本來是單調教手的垂直度，覺得這不是辦法，於是停了下來，改為調整胸膛，手就自動跟著調整了。這才是方法。
老師說forward bend 後頭暈就是血壓低，backward bend 後頭暈就是血壓高。

課後分享，沒有話說。老師幫我說了wonderful，想想，都可以是這樣子的，沒有什麼想要。

活動日誌

來了一個四歲的小男孩，開始的時候跟我們玩了很短的時間，然後就什麼也不參與了。媽媽跟她坐在牆角直至活動完畢。

統一

基本上每天吃的都相同，晚餐會吃不同的，可都是那幾樣。明天早上會喝麥精維他奶，星期天就是豆漿。

Boring

Check check check, chase chase chase. So boring.

山葵

新鮮的原來一點也不便宜，三寸左右要五十多。

Whatever

Colleague in other dept. said that alot of matters related to me (he didn't know this). It is. 4 out of 5 KPI which I need to contribute. Actually this is just liked in the previous job. The most, I like it.

 

Due to talent, I can't to be moved to a more senior position and I don't want to (don't give me any chances, actually current position is not in the wish or planning). I am not in comfort zone as always need to handle new tasks. Everything is fine now.

A Small Gift :)